melarnz
Silver Member
It's my birthday weekend, and I feel awful.
After making the decision 2 weeks ago to go out for a meal, I haven't stuck to plan at all. I have been sneaking around, eating crap food and picking at food I have been cooking. Hubby doesn't even realise I've not been doing the packs!
As a consequence I feel AWFUL. I feel Fat, depressed, gluttenous, a failure, drained, exhausted. I can't sleep, I cant fit into any of my clothes. I now don't want to go out for birthday drinks tomorrow night (I'm not drinking anyway) with my friends and want to lock myself away for a week with nothing but packs and sky plus!!
On the up side, I booked my wedding (yay!!). We are getting married 2nd June next year in antigua, so if that's not an incentive, I don't know what is!!
I am looking forward to Monday so I can have a clean start and no excuses. I do have a holiday in France in august, but we've staying in a cottage, so i don't think I will be tempted with food. Hopefully, I could lose at least 1.5 stone before i go?!?!?
Here's hoping!
After making the decision 2 weeks ago to go out for a meal, I haven't stuck to plan at all. I have been sneaking around, eating crap food and picking at food I have been cooking. Hubby doesn't even realise I've not been doing the packs!
As a consequence I feel AWFUL. I feel Fat, depressed, gluttenous, a failure, drained, exhausted. I can't sleep, I cant fit into any of my clothes. I now don't want to go out for birthday drinks tomorrow night (I'm not drinking anyway) with my friends and want to lock myself away for a week with nothing but packs and sky plus!!
On the up side, I booked my wedding (yay!!). We are getting married 2nd June next year in antigua, so if that's not an incentive, I don't know what is!!
I am looking forward to Monday so I can have a clean start and no excuses. I do have a holiday in France in august, but we've staying in a cottage, so i don't think I will be tempted with food. Hopefully, I could lose at least 1.5 stone before i go?!?!?
Here's hoping!