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[biggusburdus]

Haven't been on for a while as life's been a bit crap. Have derailled completely, ate two slices of toast, a packet of crisps and two and a half bottles of wine yesterday. Healthy living at it's best.

It's all a bit Jeremy Kyle at home, to cut a long story short my sister has decided not to come to my wedding as I'm not inviting my Dad. Sent me a message on Facebook of all ways to tell me. Given the fact he's abandoned all of his kids and been a dreadful father, I find her loyalty to him rather than me somewhat misplaced. I grew up feeling incredibly rejected and now I feel that the one person I thought would understand, is now rejecting me too. It breaks my heart. She won't even answer my calls.

As someone who hates conflict I find this stuff really difficult to cope with and have reverted to my typical coping method and hit the bottle.

Weddings are supposed to be happy and I feel absolutely crap. It's also coming up for the 1st anniversary of my grandparents dying and one of my friends committing suicide, so all in all I am feeling more than a little sorry for myself.

I dare not get on the scales for fear of what I will see. Must pull myself together, sorry for the pity party, I just needed to get it out.

Hope you're all fairing better x

Right my lovely, how u feeling today??

Weddings are the bestest day of your life! It's all about you and your other half, saying to the world we r together and then a brilliant party afterwards!
Forget all the emotional rubbish everyone dumps on you. You do what u want when u want with the agreement of the OH of course!
Forget tradition if you want, forget what you think you have to do to please others!
If you want to skip down the isle to hot chocolates " hot stuff " wearing a 1950's negligée with fluffy feathered slippers the go for it!

Sorry to hear the bad news bit, but they will all be watching over you having a big smile on your big day.

You are allowed to feel miserable, but you must get back up again and not let the blighted get you down..

Hope you are feeling better xx

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[Bear's-kitten]

Thank you. Feeling much better today although have sat in bed all day under the duvet only leaving to get a Chinese. I know it's only a small victory but kept away from the booze and had a shake and a bar rather than totally vegging out. Going to risk weighing myself tomorrow and hope i haven't done too much damage.

I know I just need to brush it all off and pick myself up. I've been really anxious lately and hormones are all over the place so just a bad combo of things conspiring to make me feel poo at the mo.

Im normally a really glass half full, positive person, want to feel like that again, not going to let myself feel sorry for myself, there is far worse going on in the world. Gotta man (girl?!) up! xxx

 

[biggusburdus]

Thank you. Feeling much better today although have sat in bed all day under the duvet only leaving to get a Chinese. I know it's only a small victory but kept away from the booze and had a shake and a bar rather than totally vegging out. Going to risk weighing myself tomorrow and hope i haven't done too much damage.

I know I just need to brush it all off and pick myself up. I've been really anxious lately and hormones are all over the place so just a bad combo of things conspiring to make me feel poo at the mo.

Im normally a really glass half full, positive person, want to feel like that again, not going to let myself feel sorry for myself, there is far worse going on in the world. Gotta man (girl?!) up! xxx

Glad to hear you are a wee bit better!
Just take it easy and be nice to yourself, hormones have a lot to answer for!

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[Bear's-kitten]

Decided to be brave and weigh myself, and by some miracle I have lost 3lbs. I have no idea how, can only think where i have been stressed I must have burnt it off. I am astonished!

 

[Bear's-kitten]

Today not the best, ste a s&s bar, then a cookie, packet of crisps and a little bar of green and blacks. Feel completely sick now. Decided to write this week off but realizing that eating crap is on the whole unpleasant!!!

 

[biggusburdus]

Forget it and move on, you are under a lot f pressure, just take it easy on yourself..

Hugs x

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[Bear's-kitten]

Back on the wagon after a few weeks off. Now feeling much better and in through right frame of mind.
Found today not too bad, bar for breakfast, shake for lunch, cola zero mid avo, latte, chicken salad for dinner and another pack to go. Bit of a headache and feeling tired. Tomorrow will be harder, but few days time i will be back in ketosis and plain sailing. Mad busy at work as I am leaving on 19th to start a new job so lots of documentation and handing stuff over. Am hoping this will help me through the next few days x