Littleslimmingbee
Gold Member
your trying so hard, but your no co-operating.
does this make any sence. I really, really want to give it my all and get back on track, but my mind is not co-operating. i feel like im conversating with myself about what im eating .. ' i dont want this, i want to be good' .. but half of me is saying, but you do want this. just have it.
iv made it to tues eve, WI is wed. Tues eve is always a wobbeley time for me, monday i begin to waver, but can hold strong, but tues eve is very difficult.
i have wednesday off, completely.. which has always been a good incentive. ' i wont have this now, but i will have it wednesday' .. but now, it doesnt seem enough. Where oh where has my self restraint gone?
im dissapointed and mad with myself, i know i can do this, i have the knowledge and the want, but its like i cant help but sabotage myself. I never feel good after, and as it stands.. i have a nasty stomach ache now,which is pointless.
why does my inner self keep pushing me to ruin things.
on one hand, im pushing on and praising myself for my hard work, but then theres this very strong part of me that feels like i worked so hard to get to T in the first place, that i know that i never wanted to go through that again.. its like my body knows itl be a long, slow slow slog back to target, so it just wants to give up, it doesnt want to do it again..
:sigh: im sorry to keep moaning guys, i just feel really up and down. i cant understand how my mind is working.
I need some practical advise. Iv tried books, baths, ... iv had to stop zumba due to money, and i havnt run for weeks because it was getting cold, and now with so much extra work on, im exhausted.. i feel so much better and positive mentally when i exercise, but i know if i do too much (work and exercise) il feel strained for time for myself and OH, and itl make me even more tired, consequently leading me to lazyness in the kitchen for preparing next day lunchs etc.
does this make any sence. I really, really want to give it my all and get back on track, but my mind is not co-operating. i feel like im conversating with myself about what im eating .. ' i dont want this, i want to be good' .. but half of me is saying, but you do want this. just have it.
iv made it to tues eve, WI is wed. Tues eve is always a wobbeley time for me, monday i begin to waver, but can hold strong, but tues eve is very difficult.
i have wednesday off, completely.. which has always been a good incentive. ' i wont have this now, but i will have it wednesday' .. but now, it doesnt seem enough. Where oh where has my self restraint gone?
im dissapointed and mad with myself, i know i can do this, i have the knowledge and the want, but its like i cant help but sabotage myself. I never feel good after, and as it stands.. i have a nasty stomach ache now,which is pointless.
why does my inner self keep pushing me to ruin things.
on one hand, im pushing on and praising myself for my hard work, but then theres this very strong part of me that feels like i worked so hard to get to T in the first place, that i know that i never wanted to go through that again.. its like my body knows itl be a long, slow slow slog back to target, so it just wants to give up, it doesnt want to do it again..
:sigh: im sorry to keep moaning guys, i just feel really up and down. i cant understand how my mind is working.
I need some practical advise. Iv tried books, baths, ... iv had to stop zumba due to money, and i havnt run for weeks because it was getting cold, and now with so much extra work on, im exhausted.. i feel so much better and positive mentally when i exercise, but i know if i do too much (work and exercise) il feel strained for time for myself and OH, and itl make me even more tired, consequently leading me to lazyness in the kitchen for preparing next day lunchs etc.