Nessa
Silver Member
a dieing dad? I have spoke to mum this morning and dad is really bad, so bad that we don't know if he is going to last until christmas. I am going to write down everything i want to say to him but feel so helpless and numb I just don't know what do say or do.
I had a really bad dream last night about dad dieing. he was round mine with mum and he was slumped on my upstairs hall landing, the paramedics were there and they told me and mum that dad had less than an hour to live, mum was screaming at dad don't leave me!, don't leave me! i was knelt by dad telling him everything i wanted to say before he left us and josh came to me and said grandad is dieing isn't he and i had to hold it together and explain that yes he was, i dont know where my brother, jim or ellie was in all this but i woke up and cried my eyes out. i just cant get the dream out of my head it seemed so real.
on top of that both kids are ill and are constantly crying and getting up in the night 5 - 6 times, i am so emotional and look like death warmed up that all i seem to do is cry. I went into work this morning and they sent me home again because i was just not with it and looked knackered.
sorry to moan, just needed to get it off my chest. thanks for listening. The diet is not going at all well as i have not been following it at all, also all the above is why i have not been on here for a while.
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I had a really bad dream last night about dad dieing. he was round mine with mum and he was slumped on my upstairs hall landing, the paramedics were there and they told me and mum that dad had less than an hour to live, mum was screaming at dad don't leave me!, don't leave me! i was knelt by dad telling him everything i wanted to say before he left us and josh came to me and said grandad is dieing isn't he and i had to hold it together and explain that yes he was, i dont know where my brother, jim or ellie was in all this but i woke up and cried my eyes out. i just cant get the dream out of my head it seemed so real.
on top of that both kids are ill and are constantly crying and getting up in the night 5 - 6 times, i am so emotional and look like death warmed up that all i seem to do is cry. I went into work this morning and they sent me home again because i was just not with it and looked knackered.
sorry to moan, just needed to get it off my chest. thanks for listening. The diet is not going at all well as i have not been following it at all, also all the above is why i have not been on here for a while.
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