spannerpan
Full Member
Hi all
I have been overweight since I was a child. I have had a fantastic first week and it dawned on me this morning....
I am so so scared of being slim. I have always imagined being able to shop in "normal" shops - able to wear fashionable clothes that I like - not just clothes that fit me.
But right now I am so scared.
At first when I went on Lipotrim everyone in work was saying "oh you had better stick to this one" as they have seen me try and fail at so many diets but after my first week I am getting... "Oh do you think that Lipotrim is healthy?" "Hmmm I wouldn't stay on it for long if I were you". It is like when I first started everyone thought fat greedy Anna won't stick at it and it was a source of amusement to them and they were getting ready to poke fun at me when I failed. NOW it looks like I can do it and maybe they are worried that actually fat greedy Anna will turn into slim pretty Anna.
This is their problem I know but I feel scared that I won't be accepted slim. I feel I don't deserve to be slim and feel afraid that people won't like me anymore. Oh and oh my goodness what if all those things I can't do because I am fat I suddenly can do because I am not fat. Is being fat an excuse NOT to do the things I should be doing. (Oh and I shouldn't be saying should - I should be choosing to do them).
Ultimately this comes down to self esteem I know this. But I do worry that while I am sticking to my diet now... in the back of mind my unconcious is going "you can't do it", "you are better off fat" and yes my concious is winning now but I know it is inevitable if I dont tackle this I wont get slim.
I have a degree in psychology so I am going to start with a bit of CBT on myself - see how I get on and maybe have a few sessions with a good counsellor to help me work through this.
By the way there is a poem that I read a while ago that inspired me but I can't remember it all now.. It goes something like.
Who am I to be a ray of light and happy? Actually who are you not to be? you were given your gifts and talents and it is your job to use them to benefit the world.
I dont know it exactly but if it rings bells with anyone can you let me know? I would love to pin it up somewhere.
Sorry this post is so long - I thought twice about putting it up but I guess a lot of overweight people might have this issue so maybe the responses will help a few people.
I have been overweight since I was a child. I have had a fantastic first week and it dawned on me this morning....
I am so so scared of being slim. I have always imagined being able to shop in "normal" shops - able to wear fashionable clothes that I like - not just clothes that fit me.
But right now I am so scared.
At first when I went on Lipotrim everyone in work was saying "oh you had better stick to this one" as they have seen me try and fail at so many diets but after my first week I am getting... "Oh do you think that Lipotrim is healthy?" "Hmmm I wouldn't stay on it for long if I were you". It is like when I first started everyone thought fat greedy Anna won't stick at it and it was a source of amusement to them and they were getting ready to poke fun at me when I failed. NOW it looks like I can do it and maybe they are worried that actually fat greedy Anna will turn into slim pretty Anna.
This is their problem I know but I feel scared that I won't be accepted slim. I feel I don't deserve to be slim and feel afraid that people won't like me anymore. Oh and oh my goodness what if all those things I can't do because I am fat I suddenly can do because I am not fat. Is being fat an excuse NOT to do the things I should be doing. (Oh and I shouldn't be saying should - I should be choosing to do them).
Ultimately this comes down to self esteem I know this. But I do worry that while I am sticking to my diet now... in the back of mind my unconcious is going "you can't do it", "you are better off fat" and yes my concious is winning now but I know it is inevitable if I dont tackle this I wont get slim.
I have a degree in psychology so I am going to start with a bit of CBT on myself - see how I get on and maybe have a few sessions with a good counsellor to help me work through this.
By the way there is a poem that I read a while ago that inspired me but I can't remember it all now.. It goes something like.
Who am I to be a ray of light and happy? Actually who are you not to be? you were given your gifts and talents and it is your job to use them to benefit the world.
I dont know it exactly but if it rings bells with anyone can you let me know? I would love to pin it up somewhere.
Sorry this post is so long - I thought twice about putting it up but I guess a lot of overweight people might have this issue so maybe the responses will help a few people.