carrieclaus
Gold Member
hey guys been on and off here more times than i can think just a wee note to let you know where im at.
last week was prob one of the most difficult ive had recently. got told my gran had contracted mrsa in hospital so is now in isolation that was monday, tues was in the most unbelievable pain since childbirth, got taken to hospital where i was told i had kidney stones, wed went to my doctors who has advised me to come off ll completely (there was bile in my urine samples???!!!) i have to eat normally....... WHAT??? I either binge or abstain!!!
i have however taken his advice tho, i know im damagaing myself (mind and body) when i do this. i then got told on fri that my gran may not survive:cry::cry:
shes 93 and been through such a lot since july she cant fight anymore. she broke her hip then as the epidural wasnt working they had to give her a general anaesthetic for her hip replacement and she had a massive stroke which wasnt picked up on till 24hrs after as they kept her sedated..... so so sad. just cant keep up the pretence anymore that everything is fine so im totally taking a step back from the dieting thing.
just wanted to let all you great guys whats up with me just now. you are all inspirational in your own way and the way you are all getting on through your ll journey is what makes it unique and YOUR journey. no two are the same and its great reading the highs and lows. its helped me feel like im normal to know everyone goes through the same thing.
i might be taking a wee step back from the forum, im just tooo emotional the nu. ill be back ( in the famous tone of arnie) take care xx
last week was prob one of the most difficult ive had recently. got told my gran had contracted mrsa in hospital so is now in isolation that was monday, tues was in the most unbelievable pain since childbirth, got taken to hospital where i was told i had kidney stones, wed went to my doctors who has advised me to come off ll completely (there was bile in my urine samples???!!!) i have to eat normally....... WHAT??? I either binge or abstain!!!
i have however taken his advice tho, i know im damagaing myself (mind and body) when i do this. i then got told on fri that my gran may not survive:cry::cry:
shes 93 and been through such a lot since july she cant fight anymore. she broke her hip then as the epidural wasnt working they had to give her a general anaesthetic for her hip replacement and she had a massive stroke which wasnt picked up on till 24hrs after as they kept her sedated..... so so sad. just cant keep up the pretence anymore that everything is fine so im totally taking a step back from the dieting thing.
just wanted to let all you great guys whats up with me just now. you are all inspirational in your own way and the way you are all getting on through your ll journey is what makes it unique and YOUR journey. no two are the same and its great reading the highs and lows. its helped me feel like im normal to know everyone goes through the same thing.
i might be taking a wee step back from the forum, im just tooo emotional the nu. ill be back ( in the famous tone of arnie) take care xx