Prettyfacebut?
...body-has-caught-up!!!!
........IT'S ME!!!!
Hello All,
I'm fightin my way back.....been lurking for too long
My 'flat' mood contined until the 'road rage' incident last week which triggered tears and hopelesness and anxiety....done a lot of boo-hoo-ing:cry::cry::cry:
Still feeling a bit delicate (very VERY stressed at work, cue more tears)
However.....there is some glimmer of hope I have realised.....I HAVE TO FACE MY FEELINGS HEAD ON!!!
With loosing the weigh/fat there's lots of 'crap' coming to the surface (road rage ars*hole did me a favour in a twisted way).....here comes some rambling....
The 'ex' was damaged and had way to many issues....I could'nt 'fix' him....It wasn't my job..I deserve better
The 'ex ex' was very damaged. He shouldn't have hit me and cheated on me....I stayed too long lesson learnt I deserve better
I can't always be the strong one....I need to reach out for help when I need it
Work is just work. I have to stop compensating for some of the idiots I work with....Just do my own job
Office politics and bitching....Imagine I'm holding a mirror to reflect the cr&p back at the people doing it and stop absorbing it....It's making me ill
Change of career to something you really want to do....Come on girl...you can do it....what's the worst that can happen?
'Road Rage Man'/'Crazy Neighbour/ in fact anyone who has intimidated/frightened/been hateful towards me....I WILL NOT LET YOU HAUNT ME...BE GONE EVIL SPIRITS/MEMORIES....I WILL NOT GIVE YOU POWER OVER ME ANY LONGER
Fat or Thin...I am a good, loving, intelligent, valuable, beautiful person... I am just in a smaller package
Get a life!!!....Nurture my good friendships, bin the bad, make some new ones
PHEWWWWW!!
On the diet front, still sticking to plan, 2/3rds of the way there (and a bit) The reality is just beginning to sink in that I am going to succeed and loose the weight I have wanted to all my life
Knowing this has given me an inner confidence that is growing (and its not pretend ...IT'S REAL!!)
Thanks for reading this self-indulgent post....It needed to come out, it was inspired in no small part by Time4Me's new diary...I think I've just lost 10lbs (albeit emotional pounds of baggage)
Glad to be back!!!
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Hello All,
I'm fightin my way back.....been lurking for too long
My 'flat' mood contined until the 'road rage' incident last week which triggered tears and hopelesness and anxiety....done a lot of boo-hoo-ing:cry::cry::cry:
Still feeling a bit delicate (very VERY stressed at work, cue more tears)
However.....there is some glimmer of hope I have realised.....I HAVE TO FACE MY FEELINGS HEAD ON!!!
With loosing the weigh/fat there's lots of 'crap' coming to the surface (road rage ars*hole did me a favour in a twisted way).....here comes some rambling....
The 'ex' was damaged and had way to many issues....I could'nt 'fix' him....It wasn't my job..I deserve better
The 'ex ex' was very damaged. He shouldn't have hit me and cheated on me....I stayed too long lesson learnt I deserve better
I can't always be the strong one....I need to reach out for help when I need it
Work is just work. I have to stop compensating for some of the idiots I work with....Just do my own job
Office politics and bitching....Imagine I'm holding a mirror to reflect the cr&p back at the people doing it and stop absorbing it....It's making me ill
Change of career to something you really want to do....Come on girl...you can do it....what's the worst that can happen?
'Road Rage Man'/'Crazy Neighbour/ in fact anyone who has intimidated/frightened/been hateful towards me....I WILL NOT LET YOU HAUNT ME...BE GONE EVIL SPIRITS/MEMORIES....I WILL NOT GIVE YOU POWER OVER ME ANY LONGER
Fat or Thin...I am a good, loving, intelligent, valuable, beautiful person... I am just in a smaller package
Get a life!!!....Nurture my good friendships, bin the bad, make some new ones
PHEWWWWW!!
On the diet front, still sticking to plan, 2/3rds of the way there (and a bit) The reality is just beginning to sink in that I am going to succeed and loose the weight I have wanted to all my life
Knowing this has given me an inner confidence that is growing (and its not pretend ...IT'S REAL!!)
Thanks for reading this self-indulgent post....It needed to come out, it was inspired in no small part by Time4Me's new diary...I think I've just lost 10lbs (albeit emotional pounds of baggage)
Glad to be back!!!
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