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Dieting & Mummy To Ethan
I'm getting so annoyed with everything at the moment.
I had 3 weeks off because I was ill, went back on, lost 7lbs in my first week and then ended up having a huge row with my mum and she decided she wasn't going to pay for my LT so thought OK, that's a week with no LT, I'll just have to follow a refeed thing for a week and go back on when I get paid.
Then last week she kicked me out and I am now staying with a friend. I wasn't able to get my LT last week and was hoping that this week I'd get my money and I'd be able to do it then.
Only having transferred jobcentre's, the paperwork hasn't been processed and I'm getting no money this week either so that means yet more time off from the diet.
I'm getting really irate with it all as I'm getting so scared that I'm putting weight on. It's TOTM week due around now and I'm eating because I'm so annoyed and because I'm so upset about everything.
This diet was the best thing that happened to me and it feels like it's being taken away from me at every angle. I really want to get back on it and I feel so downhearted at not knowing when I'll get back on it.
I've done so well losing 3 stone so far, although how much I've put back on I don't know. I just want to get back on and finish my journey. I'm reading everyone else's stories and wishing it was me again. I was so happy when the weight was coming off. I'm in absolute pieces. I'm trying to hold it all together but it's just getting too tough.
Anyway, sorry for the rant. I'm just having a really bad day and everything's getting on top of me and I can't pretend I'm OK anymore. I'm missing LT and want to be back on it. I'm scared of losing my willpower. :cry::cry::cry::cry::cry:
I had 3 weeks off because I was ill, went back on, lost 7lbs in my first week and then ended up having a huge row with my mum and she decided she wasn't going to pay for my LT so thought OK, that's a week with no LT, I'll just have to follow a refeed thing for a week and go back on when I get paid.
Then last week she kicked me out and I am now staying with a friend. I wasn't able to get my LT last week and was hoping that this week I'd get my money and I'd be able to do it then.
Only having transferred jobcentre's, the paperwork hasn't been processed and I'm getting no money this week either so that means yet more time off from the diet.
I'm getting really irate with it all as I'm getting so scared that I'm putting weight on. It's TOTM week due around now and I'm eating because I'm so annoyed and because I'm so upset about everything.
This diet was the best thing that happened to me and it feels like it's being taken away from me at every angle. I really want to get back on it and I feel so downhearted at not knowing when I'll get back on it.
I've done so well losing 3 stone so far, although how much I've put back on I don't know. I just want to get back on and finish my journey. I'm reading everyone else's stories and wishing it was me again. I was so happy when the weight was coming off. I'm in absolute pieces. I'm trying to hold it all together but it's just getting too tough.
Anyway, sorry for the rant. I'm just having a really bad day and everything's getting on top of me and I can't pretend I'm OK anymore. I'm missing LT and want to be back on it. I'm scared of losing my willpower. :cry::cry::cry::cry::cry: