lindseydodd408
Gold Member
He's got back from the shop with what I need to make dinner... and presents me with a cadbury's caramel... and he then looks all hurt when I tell him to remove it from under my nose immediately!!!
FFS!!! He knows I have 5/6 more stone to lose, he knows I really mean this and surely he must understand how hard this is?!?!?!
I have explained time and time again that if I want a treat then I will make that decision and I will choose how to do it so I feel in control. I hate it when he does this because it makes me feel so distant from him, it's like he has no idea what I am going through!!!
Feel like crap now and I am so close to going into the bin, retrieving the chocolate bar and eating the whole sodding thing! Why can't he find a way to show he loves me that doesn't involve f**king food?!?!?! In his eyes I'm still the fat bird I've always been... will he always see me that way?
I want to be viewed as more than just the s**t I stuff in my face!!!!
Ok rant over, going for a fag now... also going to open chocolate bar put it back in the bin and pour washing up liquid over it!!!!
FFS!!! He knows I have 5/6 more stone to lose, he knows I really mean this and surely he must understand how hard this is?!?!?!
I have explained time and time again that if I want a treat then I will make that decision and I will choose how to do it so I feel in control. I hate it when he does this because it makes me feel so distant from him, it's like he has no idea what I am going through!!!
Feel like crap now and I am so close to going into the bin, retrieving the chocolate bar and eating the whole sodding thing! Why can't he find a way to show he loves me that doesn't involve f**king food?!?!?! In his eyes I'm still the fat bird I've always been... will he always see me that way?
I want to be viewed as more than just the s**t I stuff in my face!!!!
Ok rant over, going for a fag now... also going to open chocolate bar put it back in the bin and pour washing up liquid over it!!!!