SharonA_1970
Full Member
I am so fed up to the back teeth this week. I haven't felt 100% this week bit of a sore throat and a bad headache for a few days but I know that is not the root of the problems. I am so fed up not eating, not participating with the family and having no control over how I feel. Food was my coping mechanism my way to cover up stuff my way to deal with everything and now that is not there anymore I have turned into the b**ch from hell. I am arguing, angry, stressed, a complete misery to live with and totally depressed about the whole thing.
I have done 9 weeks now and have struggled really really badly the last two weeks. I had one good week the week before last but the week before that was bad too. I manage just fine to get through the day when no-one is here but as soon as the kids and hubby come in or we are coming up to the weekend I turn to that coping mechanism and start stuffing cr*p in my face!!! I am really beginning to think now that the root of my food problems is my relationship and that we should no longer be together. I think I can even see the pattern, the main food cravings start around a Thursday and build up to the weekend and the only thing I can see is that we are all together here at the weekend and I feel trapped somewhere I don't think deep down I really want to be only I don't know how to get out of it.
I know it's ok to come here and have a vent and everyone is always so good about coming on and trying to re-motivate you but I really think the only person that can fix this is me and I just don't know how to.
I have done 9 weeks now and have struggled really really badly the last two weeks. I had one good week the week before last but the week before that was bad too. I manage just fine to get through the day when no-one is here but as soon as the kids and hubby come in or we are coming up to the weekend I turn to that coping mechanism and start stuffing cr*p in my face!!! I am really beginning to think now that the root of my food problems is my relationship and that we should no longer be together. I think I can even see the pattern, the main food cravings start around a Thursday and build up to the weekend and the only thing I can see is that we are all together here at the weekend and I feel trapped somewhere I don't think deep down I really want to be only I don't know how to get out of it.
I know it's ok to come here and have a vent and everyone is always so good about coming on and trying to re-motivate you but I really think the only person that can fix this is me and I just don't know how to.