Uphillstruggle
Full Member
Hi,
I'm on day 91 of foundation and so far lost just under 4 stone. It's milk week this week which I'm loving as I can have milk in my coffee (and even a latte!). Can't believe I've made it this far and am now 10 stone 6. However, I still FEEL ENORMOUS. I can buy size 12 clothes in most shops now - something I just never expected to be able to do (I was already a size 14 at age 14) but I really do still feel massive. When I look in the mirror I still repulse myself, especially if I have no clothes on. I know I still have a stone to lose to be in the middle of a healthy BMI but I really don't think that stone is going to make much difference to how fat I still look. I still don't feel I look "normal", even though my BMI says otherwise. I still feel people stare at me in the street for being fat and I still feel pretty hideous. I thought I'd be happy at 10 and a half stone but the fact is I still cry when I think about my body too much. I know I will never have the "perfect body" - I don't even want that - I just want to be "ok" with how I look.
Am I completely mad not to be thrilled with how I've done so far?
Beth x
I'm on day 91 of foundation and so far lost just under 4 stone. It's milk week this week which I'm loving as I can have milk in my coffee (and even a latte!). Can't believe I've made it this far and am now 10 stone 6. However, I still FEEL ENORMOUS. I can buy size 12 clothes in most shops now - something I just never expected to be able to do (I was already a size 14 at age 14) but I really do still feel massive. When I look in the mirror I still repulse myself, especially if I have no clothes on. I know I still have a stone to lose to be in the middle of a healthy BMI but I really don't think that stone is going to make much difference to how fat I still look. I still don't feel I look "normal", even though my BMI says otherwise. I still feel people stare at me in the street for being fat and I still feel pretty hideous. I thought I'd be happy at 10 and a half stone but the fact is I still cry when I think about my body too much. I know I will never have the "perfect body" - I don't even want that - I just want to be "ok" with how I look.
Am I completely mad not to be thrilled with how I've done so far?
Beth x