Wickedwitch74
Full Member
Hi guys....
just decided to have a little moan....
to cut a long story short i had a couple of days this week where i ate everything i shouldnt....it was hubbys birthday and we both decided to have a few treats as we have both been dieting together for 4 months now without having any 'days off'...
in the space of three days we had macdonalds twice!...dominos pizza (and i dont mean two or three slices, i mean nearly a whole large pizza each!)...not to mention chocolate and cheese cake...
what was meant to be ONE day of relaxed dieting ended up being THREE days of stuffing our faces....
now i keep telling myself that in the grand scheme of things, three days isnt going to ruin the last four months of hard work...and that i have lost nearly 6 stone in total (over the last year with time off the diet in between), so surely now i can afford to be less hard on myself when things like that happen..surely i should feel that its not too big a deal and that its ok to have days like that every so often.
after the three days of madness i got straight back on track with the healthy eating, and i have been really good ever since, just like i was for the 4 months before my days off!
but i just cant get my brain to genuinely ease up on myself....i am still feeling miserable, frustrated and angry with myself for eating those things.
i feel fat, bloated, and downright disgusted with myself.....
i guess i just have to accept that no matter how much weight i lose or how healthy i eat for the majority of the time....i am always going to beat myself up when i have treats or days of pigging out....
i think i have programmed myself to feel that way over the years .... and somehow the more weight i lose the more mad i seem to be with myself!
i dont think i will ever have a balanced relationship with food...i guess if i did i would never have emded up being 20 stone 10 pounds at my heaviest!....
ok guys, rant over...thanks for listening...i always feel better once i let it all out on here! xxx
just decided to have a little moan....
to cut a long story short i had a couple of days this week where i ate everything i shouldnt....it was hubbys birthday and we both decided to have a few treats as we have both been dieting together for 4 months now without having any 'days off'...
in the space of three days we had macdonalds twice!...dominos pizza (and i dont mean two or three slices, i mean nearly a whole large pizza each!)...not to mention chocolate and cheese cake...
what was meant to be ONE day of relaxed dieting ended up being THREE days of stuffing our faces....
now i keep telling myself that in the grand scheme of things, three days isnt going to ruin the last four months of hard work...and that i have lost nearly 6 stone in total (over the last year with time off the diet in between), so surely now i can afford to be less hard on myself when things like that happen..surely i should feel that its not too big a deal and that its ok to have days like that every so often.
after the three days of madness i got straight back on track with the healthy eating, and i have been really good ever since, just like i was for the 4 months before my days off!
but i just cant get my brain to genuinely ease up on myself....i am still feeling miserable, frustrated and angry with myself for eating those things.
i feel fat, bloated, and downright disgusted with myself.....
i guess i just have to accept that no matter how much weight i lose or how healthy i eat for the majority of the time....i am always going to beat myself up when i have treats or days of pigging out....
i think i have programmed myself to feel that way over the years .... and somehow the more weight i lose the more mad i seem to be with myself!
i dont think i will ever have a balanced relationship with food...i guess if i did i would never have emded up being 20 stone 10 pounds at my heaviest!....
ok guys, rant over...thanks for listening...i always feel better once i let it all out on here! xxx