amethyst
Banned
... hadnt had a panick attack like that for about 3-4 years, was awfull. my breathing was terrible, paper bag couldnt help me either. :cry:
i think i done to much, i walked half a mile to ww when i got there i was sweating big time, then walked another half mile to tesco's spent money i could of done without, got taxi back rushed the shopping in, packed all away tidied up, sat on pc for a bit, oh came home i as making him a cup of t and bam my head went all funny, felt like i was going to pass out so i had to sit down, then my hands and lips and mouth went all funny... :cry:head took about an hr to get back together..
was ok then, cooked dinner and chilled for the evening...
oh still wont realy discuss money with me, he says when we get child tax of roughly £60 a week, he wil pay all bill's. and i make sure there is food here out of that £60, plus my daughters school dinners, plus my diet money, plus my fag money plus bus fair's taxi's etc.. yeah ok! really £60 will go so far! NOT!
and then there is his shower pod he selfishly got put in last year, sauna dont even work on it, been begging him to swap it before november (12 mnths) for a whril pool bath, he says tommorrow, but it never comes .
I didnt get the 3rd interview for alliance and leicester, in a way i am glad, cus i am not ready for that yet... but i am going to feel forced now to get a job around his hours (save on child care) just to survive.. he reckons he cant afford to give me any money? (he used to give me £40 week maintanence, stopping now?) ...
dont know what to do! ?
thanks for reading..
hope you all doing well
i think i done to much, i walked half a mile to ww when i got there i was sweating big time, then walked another half mile to tesco's spent money i could of done without, got taxi back rushed the shopping in, packed all away tidied up, sat on pc for a bit, oh came home i as making him a cup of t and bam my head went all funny, felt like i was going to pass out so i had to sit down, then my hands and lips and mouth went all funny... :cry:head took about an hr to get back together..
was ok then, cooked dinner and chilled for the evening...
oh still wont realy discuss money with me, he says when we get child tax of roughly £60 a week, he wil pay all bill's. and i make sure there is food here out of that £60, plus my daughters school dinners, plus my diet money, plus my fag money plus bus fair's taxi's etc.. yeah ok! really £60 will go so far! NOT!
and then there is his shower pod he selfishly got put in last year, sauna dont even work on it, been begging him to swap it before november (12 mnths) for a whril pool bath, he says tommorrow, but it never comes .
I didnt get the 3rd interview for alliance and leicester, in a way i am glad, cus i am not ready for that yet... but i am going to feel forced now to get a job around his hours (save on child care) just to survive.. he reckons he cant afford to give me any money? (he used to give me £40 week maintanence, stopping now?) ...
dont know what to do! ?
thanks for reading..
hope you all doing well