Moggy's_Delight
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Hello all, i'm Megan.
You may be please to know that i chose this site out of all of googles 'weight loss support' suggestions
I'll explain a little about myself and my history with food and weight and why i feel the need for online support:
I'm 20 years old now and currently in the clinicaly obese section of the BMI chart.
I have a realy hard time talking about food face-to-face with people or with people i know because i dont want my size to even cross their minds (i know it does anyway but i'm very good at being in denial XD), and if i simply have to go out to a resturaunt for a meal, i do this realy weird thing where i only order foods that i can eat with a spoon because i dont want to look 'too interested' in what i eat and about food.
As a kid, i was the type who could eat anything and everything and not put an ounce on (oh, those were the days!).
At aged 16 i was put on psychiatric medication which had very common side effects of weight gain and was known to increase appetite and oh, it did.
I was put on to different medication after about a year and it kept changing right up untill June 2010 when i came off everything completely.I dont know if all of those other pills contributed to my weight gain but i'd already got into the habbit of eating too much and majorly binging 20 minutes after my meds and i just became plain greedy.
I have tried dieting before, quite a few times.But i am a very 'black and white' person, it's one extreme or the other alot of the time so i tend to go by my own diet.I restrict too much, can't bare the hunger any longer then over-compensate by eating everything in the whole house! Lol.
Then i get angry with myself, tell myself i will never change, i will always be fat so i go on an eating spree for about 3-4 weeks (sometimes longer) untill i decide to 'diet' again.
Age 17 i was aprox 9 1/2 stone and now, at almost 21 years of age, i am exactly 14 and i realy realy cant stand myself to be honest. Quite a large weight gain in a not-so-long period of time and i find it hard recognising myself - if you know what i mean.
I think i am wanting/needing(?) support as i feel i need to get a better sense of what healthy eating is and i realy think that other's success stories are a big motivation and will benefit me and i feel it would be good to relate to others (and for them to relate to me of course!).
Also, i need someone to drum into my head that if i fall at the first hurdle, i've just got to get back up and start again. I know that now but i cant always see it.
Well, i hope this isn't too much info, i just like to explain myself alot
This is my time to make positive steps for good
Thankyou x
p.s..The only personal info i am willing to let out at the moment is my name and age because i would just die if someone i know finds out my weight
You may be please to know that i chose this site out of all of googles 'weight loss support' suggestions
I'll explain a little about myself and my history with food and weight and why i feel the need for online support:
I'm 20 years old now and currently in the clinicaly obese section of the BMI chart.
I have a realy hard time talking about food face-to-face with people or with people i know because i dont want my size to even cross their minds (i know it does anyway but i'm very good at being in denial XD), and if i simply have to go out to a resturaunt for a meal, i do this realy weird thing where i only order foods that i can eat with a spoon because i dont want to look 'too interested' in what i eat and about food.
As a kid, i was the type who could eat anything and everything and not put an ounce on (oh, those were the days!).
At aged 16 i was put on psychiatric medication which had very common side effects of weight gain and was known to increase appetite and oh, it did.
I was put on to different medication after about a year and it kept changing right up untill June 2010 when i came off everything completely.I dont know if all of those other pills contributed to my weight gain but i'd already got into the habbit of eating too much and majorly binging 20 minutes after my meds and i just became plain greedy.
I have tried dieting before, quite a few times.But i am a very 'black and white' person, it's one extreme or the other alot of the time so i tend to go by my own diet.I restrict too much, can't bare the hunger any longer then over-compensate by eating everything in the whole house! Lol.
Then i get angry with myself, tell myself i will never change, i will always be fat so i go on an eating spree for about 3-4 weeks (sometimes longer) untill i decide to 'diet' again.
Age 17 i was aprox 9 1/2 stone and now, at almost 21 years of age, i am exactly 14 and i realy realy cant stand myself to be honest. Quite a large weight gain in a not-so-long period of time and i find it hard recognising myself - if you know what i mean.
I think i am wanting/needing(?) support as i feel i need to get a better sense of what healthy eating is and i realy think that other's success stories are a big motivation and will benefit me and i feel it would be good to relate to others (and for them to relate to me of course!).
Also, i need someone to drum into my head that if i fall at the first hurdle, i've just got to get back up and start again. I know that now but i cant always see it.
Well, i hope this isn't too much info, i just like to explain myself alot
This is my time to make positive steps for good
Thankyou x
p.s..The only personal info i am willing to let out at the moment is my name and age because i would just die if someone i know finds out my weight
