claireheath22
Full Member
Evening everyone, well yesterday should have been the happiest day of my life - I was supposed to be marrying the man of my dreams.....but 4 months ago, I called the whole thing off!!!
We lost hundreds of pounds in doing so and had to cancel all the invites, and the honeymoon. Its so depressing to think that tomorrow, we would be off to Morocco but instead I am off to work.
All this because of......my weight and my ever decreasing self esteem!! I am so angry with myself that I failed to lose any weight in a whole year. Don't get me wrong, I have lost 7 stone this year but have put on 10. One month, I would lose a stone or so, then become complacent and disheartened and put it all back on and more. Then I would lose again, and regain, lose, regain etc etc.
I try to do things on my own, I have very few friends and non that I can talk about my problems too. I told everyone that we were short of money and had to reschedule the wedding to give us more time to save. But truth be told, I was to blame.
I have two gorgeous toddlers and love them so dearly, a fantastic job, a supporting fella. I have all the motivation anyone could need to lose the weight but I seem to fail constantly. I have even looked into a gastric bypass but couldn't face it as if anything were to happen to me during the operation, I couldn't bear to think of my girls without a mummy.
So here is to attempt number 100. I have a brand new slimming class to go to tomorrow. I am positive and motivated and if I keep blogging and talk to fellow SWers on here, I will stay this way and hopefully lose lbs not £s grrrrr
Thanks for listening xx
Claire xxxx
We lost hundreds of pounds in doing so and had to cancel all the invites, and the honeymoon. Its so depressing to think that tomorrow, we would be off to Morocco but instead I am off to work.
All this because of......my weight and my ever decreasing self esteem!! I am so angry with myself that I failed to lose any weight in a whole year. Don't get me wrong, I have lost 7 stone this year but have put on 10. One month, I would lose a stone or so, then become complacent and disheartened and put it all back on and more. Then I would lose again, and regain, lose, regain etc etc.
I try to do things on my own, I have very few friends and non that I can talk about my problems too. I told everyone that we were short of money and had to reschedule the wedding to give us more time to save. But truth be told, I was to blame.
I have two gorgeous toddlers and love them so dearly, a fantastic job, a supporting fella. I have all the motivation anyone could need to lose the weight but I seem to fail constantly. I have even looked into a gastric bypass but couldn't face it as if anything were to happen to me during the operation, I couldn't bear to think of my girls without a mummy.
So here is to attempt number 100. I have a brand new slimming class to go to tomorrow. I am positive and motivated and if I keep blogging and talk to fellow SWers on here, I will stay this way and hopefully lose lbs not £s grrrrr
Thanks for listening xx
Claire xxxx