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Tace said:
That's really good that your hba1c is at a good level, are they adjusting your meds for your blood pressure to get it in line? I had undiagnosed pre-eclampsia with my eldest and my blood pressure went through the roof when it's normally low and I started fitting, it nearly killed me and my son so I know it's important to have the right blood pressure. I think when it happens to you you will appreciate it more and be looked after better and know the little one is being given the best care you can get. I do understand a bit about being told when you can and can not have a baby, after I had my daughter they wouldn't let me have anymore kids because of all the complications I had so they sterilised me at the same time I had Beth. I know I have 3 kids but it still felt like they took my choices away x x x
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Aw sorry to hear of your bad experience .... Puts things into perspective doesn't it :( ESP when all these kids go out and get pregnant with no cares in the world .. I bet your children are extra precious to you :) it's a shame when health gets in the way of life choices :(

My doc has recently changed my bp meds as I was on high dose candesartan and it wasn't doing its job .. Hopefully this amlodipine will help :) x x x
 
It certainly did make me appreciate my kids more and I'm really lucky to have 3 healthy, happy children so I can't complain. I'm sure they'll find something to help you control your blood pressure x x
 
Tace said:
It certainly did make me appreciate my kids more and I'm really lucky to have 3 healthy, happy children so I can't complain. I'm sure they'll find something to help you control your blood pressure x x
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Aw bless ya :) I only want two but If I can have atleast one Ile be happy :)
My bp has been an issue since I was 23 as I have retinopathy in both eyes & have kidney issues - it's all coz I was a rebelling teen & also my anorexia .. So they and I have been working at it since then ... Obvious now, I try to be as healthy As physically possible & have achieved results - my bp use to be as high as 180/100 when I was on already on meds :( now its averaging 130/80 - so it's reducing slowly :) x x x x
 
Just having a catch-up Ruby! That's excellent news from you diabetes check-up. I agree that it must be awful not being able to just have a baby when you want one :( Hoping it's not too far away for you now.
When I have my heart check-up's they always go on about what I should do if I get pregnant. I usually just laugh at them :p I'm not sure I want kids and I've been single for the last 8 years, so would have been an immaculate conception ;)

Hope the new blood pressure meds help. You've had such a rough trip haven't you? And Tace too!! It's a wonder we're all as awesome as we are ;) xx
 
Ian has kidney issues and has had quite a lot of laser treatment on his eyes because of that, he had 2 cataracts removed end of last year/beginning of this year but that was because he didn't really take his diabetes serious. I don't think he realised at first what it entailed. And I can imagine you would rebel as a teenager if you'd had all that to deal with as a child, it's hard enough being a teenager with all those hormones never mind complications. It's good it's all moving in the right direction, you looking after yourself will be a big help :) All your hard work will be worth it when you hold a little one for the first time, it's magical x x
 
cheekychinchilla said:
Just having a catch-up Ruby! That's excellent news from you diabetes check-up. I agree that it must be awful not being able to just have a baby when you want one :( Hoping it's not too far away for you now.
When I have my heart check-up's they always go on about what I should do if I get pregnant. I usually just laugh at them :p I'm not sure I want kids and I've been single for the last 8 years, so would have been an immaculate conception ;)

Hope the new blood pressure meds help. You've had such a rough trip haven't you? And Tace too!! It's a wonder we're all as awesome as we are ;) xx
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Aw thanks cc :) it's been a bit Crappy over the last year but hopefully it will all be forgotten next year ;) we are all pretty awesome aren't we ;):) xx
 
Tace said:
Ian has kidney issues and has had quite a lot of laser treatment on his eyes because of that, he had 2 cataracts removed end of last year/beginning of this year but that was because he didn't really take his diabetes serious. I don't think he realised at first what it entailed. And I can imagine you would rebel as a teenager if you'd had all that to deal with as a child, it's hard enough being a teenager with all those hormones never mind complications. It's good it's all moving in the right direction, you looking after yourself will be a big help :) All your hard work will be worth it when you hold a little one for the first time, it's magical x x
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Ah sounds like he has similar issues as me - I was extremely naughty til I was about 24 ... I never considered diabetes to be serious until I was sat in front Of the opthamalogist and he said you need to now have laser and it can affect all aspects of your life .. U need to start looking after yourself ... Since then iv lost weight, exercised and just generally took care of myself ! Scary stuff init .. Eeeeekkkkk, can't wait to hold my little baby :) xxx
 
Tace said:
Just think when you do have a baby every minute will be precious because you will have worked so hard to have them x x x
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Awwwww, yep :) thanks for all the lovely words Tace, I worry about this kind of stuff all the time and you seem to always no what to say :) :) thanks x x x
 
Well I've managed to loose 2lb this week :) I've had to cut out fruit as I've found that its aggravating my IBS :( I'm just adding in veg where n when I can .. I've a feelin I'm loosing weight coz I'm no longer bloated and I'm not having to take more insulin for the fruit .. Bananas are the worst - prob take more for them than a full meal sometimes ..
Had a dominos last night - was amazing - I had a small 4 slice pizza with double BBQ sauce base, half fat cheese, green pepper and sweetcorn ....... My ultimate fave pizza - I use to have that when I worked at Pizza Hut years back - I must have been a secret veggie back then ;) was a lovely treat :)

Hope everyone has been well .... I sure some of you remember me talking about my depression a while back and how I was guna do something about it .. I did and I took St. John's wort for a month .... It's not really helped if I'm honest so I've booked myself an appointment after speaking to my diabetes specialist nurse on Thursday, she's also referred me to see their In-house psychologist too - there's a waiting list but its good to know I'm getting some help .. I think I just need someone to talk to tbh - my husband wasn't happy that I've booked a docs appointment - he's very judgemental about depression which I can only assume is coz he doesn't understand it .. All I ever seem to do is turn anything into a negative and it's getting me down .. So sh!ttin myself about tomo now ... Ahhhhh I'm such a failure .. X x
 
Firstly well done on your loss and secondly you are not a failure!! Depression is a really hard thing to quantify, it's not like you're just a little down, it's an illness and it needs to be treated as such. You can't help how you're feeling and your husband should appreciate that. At least you have got things rolling and hopefully they'll help you pick yourself up x x x
 
I caved in to pizza last night too. Wasn't as nice as yours sounds tho!!!

That's really good news about going on the waiting list for the psychologist!! I was offered a referral to a clinical psychologist a couple of years ago for my blood vessel phobia - but I would have had to go to Manchester! I should have done really coz it would have been helpful for what I'm going through now, but I couldn't afford the travel costs and stuff and I didn't have my car then. Hopefully yours will be easy to get to. Have heard that they are very, very good :)

Your husband needs a smack. Would he stop you seeing a Dr for your diabetes? Or your thyroid? So why shouldn't you get help for a mental illness?! I wonder if he's scared you'll go on meds and become 'different'. He obviously loves you how you are now, but he's just being a bit silly. Hopefully he'll come round :) Try not to listen to him and let him get you down. You deserve to feel better and get some help :) xx
 
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It takes a lot to take that step and see someone but its worth it

Sometimes men can't understand. . My OH is very depressive as am I so in a way I have to know when I'm getting low so I can keep on top of things and not in turn set him off!!

I go to cbt and it's hard work but really helps, meaning I don't have to take a cocktail of antidepressants just the one for ocd

Its frustrating when the other half isn't supportive but your doing grand, doing it for you :)

Xxx
 
Tace said:
Firstly well done on your loss and secondly you are not a failure!! Depression is a really hard thing to quantify, it's not like you're just a little down, it's an illness and it needs to be treated as such. You can't help how you're feeling and your husband should appreciate that. At least you have got things rolling and hopefully they'll help you pick yourself up x x x
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cheekychinchilla said:
I caved in to pizza last night too. Wasn't as nice as yours sounds tho!!!

That's really good news about going on the waiting list for the psychologist!! I was offered a referral to a clinical psychologist a couple of years ago for my blood vessel phobia - but I would have had to go to Manchester! I should have done really coz it would have been helpful for what I'm going through now, but I couldn't afford the travel costs and stuff and I didn't have my car then. Hopefully yours will be easy to get to. Have heard that they are very, very good :)

Your husband needs a smack. Would he stop you seeing a Dr for your diabetes? Or your thyroid? So why shouldn't you get help for a mental illness?! I wonder if he's scared you'll go on meds and become 'different'. He obviously loves you how you are now, but he's just being a bit silly. Hopefully he'll come round :) Try not to listen to him and let him get you down. You deserve to feel better and get some help :) xx
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RebekahR said:
It takes a lot to take that step and see someone but its worth it

Sometimes men can't understand. . My OH is very depressive as am I so in a way I have to know when I'm getting low so I can keep on top of things and not in turn set him off!!

I go to cbt and it's hard work but really helps, meaning I don't have to take a cocktail of antidepressants just the one for ocd

Its frustrating when the other half isn't supportive but your doing grand, doing it for you :)

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Awwwwww thanks for everyone's lovely words .. It means a lot to me, ESP as I have no friends to talk to about this .. I think it's your support that has helped me come as far as I have ..
I am deffo glad about the extra help I can get from the diabetes centre .. My DSN said that a lot of diabetics end up with episodes of depression purely because diabetes takes over your entire life as that's why they offer this psychologist .. I've spoken with counsellors before when I was overcoming anorexia and found them to be helpful :)

As for my husband, I say to him all the time - wouldn't you rather me be bright & bubbly than an angry miserable old cow bag ... He never really is good with his words .. And at the moment anything anyone says I take the wrong way ..

Once again, thanks so much for listening .. Could cry right now thinking of your kindness & the time you have spared to listen to me :) x x x x x
 
I did it .... I bloody cried tho and now I'm sat here feeling so bloody stupid .. And embarrassed, I walked in and said I don't know why iv come ... O. God! The doc was so nice tho .. But my ability to over think things has now come into play hasn't it? Even with a doctors visit .. I have anti-d's tho .. And also an appointment with a counsellor .. The doc looked & sounded like the man off the big bake off .... Infact thinking of that makes me feel even more embarrassed ... Bloody hell ! Atleast it's done now and I can start taking them and feel better (hopefully) x
 
Well done mate :D So proud that you went through with it! When will you get to see the counsellor?
Very glad the Dr was understanding and listened to you.
Just to warn you, the first couple of weeks on AD's can be really horrible. I don't want to put you off, because I do think they will help. It's just a bit of a rough ride to start with. You'll get through it tho. Especially if you're getting to see a counsellor too :)

Well done.xx
 
cheekychinchilla said:
Well done mate :D So proud that you went through with it! When will you get to see the counsellor?
Very glad the Dr was understanding and listened to you.
Just to warn you, the first couple of weeks on AD's can be really horrible. I don't want to put you off, because I do think they will help. It's just a bit of a rough ride to start with. You'll get through it tho. Especially if you're getting to see a counsellor too :)

Well done.xx
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Aw thanks cc, I was crappin it in the waiting room, my heart was Beating so fast :(..... I just read a couple of things on it .. I noticed nausea? Headaches? Lethargy? i already had these anyway so maybe it will aggravate them more you recon? Anymore you wanna share? I did get some nausea with the St. John's wort and headaches come to mention it ... My counsellor visit is the 11th, iv spoken with counsellors before and I always seem to spend about 90% of the time crying .. Ile see how it goes as no one can understand me when I'm crying .. Eeek! Thanks for your kind words and time :) xxx
 
Well done on going in to see your doctor, I find that's the worse bit, you sit there waiting thinking about everything so by the time you go in it all blurts out and you're crying. But in a way that's like a release valve and it helps a bit. I was really lucky I didn't have side effects from ADs it just took a few weeks to kick in, you need to be patient. You'll probably won't be the first one to notice the change it will probably be your husband.
And if you cry at the councilors they're getting it right, you've got to let it out that's how we end up depressed in the first place because we bottle it up or contain and carry on like nothing is happening. Just let them guide you and let it all out you'll feel better for it in the long run. Plus you can't move forward without letting go of the past. Just remember you've done the hard bit now look forward and think you're on the road to recovery x x
 
Tace said:
Well done on going in to see your doctor, I find that's the worse bit, you sit there waiting thinking about everything so by the time you go in it all blurts out and you're crying. But in a way that's like a release valve and it helps a bit. I was really lucky I didn't have side effects from ADs it just took a few weeks to kick in, you need to be patient. You'll probably won't be the first one to notice the change it will probably be your husband.
And if you cry at the councilors they're getting it right, you've got to let it out that's how we end up depressed in the first place because we bottle it up or contain and carry on like nothing is happening. Just let them guide you and let it all out you'll feel better for it in the long run. Plus you can't move forward without letting go of the past. Just remember you've done the hard bit now look forward and think you're on the road to recovery x x
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Aw thanks Tace ... Yeah I felt like I was waiting forever to go in and kept rehearsing in my head what I was guna say - I totally ballsed it up and just cried instead ... Eeeeeeeeeek! I do feel slightly better after gettin that done .. If i hadn't I'd only be in work next week feelin rotten and wishing I'd gone! Thanks so much for your kind words, once again - you always know what to say in hard situations and I'm very grateful for your kindness :) xxx
 
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That's good for seeing counselling hun, it took me a year through nhs. I got my cbt through work luckily! !

That's the scariest part done. The counselling can be draining .. Take time out for a pamper. . Time doing something light in between sessions maybe? ? Bath or manicure or dvd you like

All be worth it xxx
 
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