Goombagirl
Full Member
I'm on week 9 of management and I've read a few posts from people who are nervous about eating again, partly for fear of losing control and regaining weight. Well I lost control on Tuesday night but the good news is it's OK - what happened next was quite different from the pre-LL days.
We've had a French boy staying (school exchange) and I took him and my 2 sons down to the beach with some Dominos pizzas after school - that was OK as I made sure I'd had a snack first. When we got back I made them a chocolate fondue with strawberries to dip in. Strawberries are OK so I had some too. I dipped "just one" (well ended up as 4) which introduced sugar into my veins so later on that evening I had an incident with some baked goods... won't go into details for the sake of those in abstinence, but at a rough guess must have had at least 1000 calories worth of cake etc. I ate even more than I would have done because I was so interested in what I was thinking having done the LL programme - had much more insight now! There were a lot of crooked thoughts flying around. Afterwards I identified lots of reasons why it happened (tiredness/changes in routine etc) and intend to use this knowledge to avoid a similar lapse in the future.
I sort of regretted it (must admit the cakes were yummy!) but knew it was going to be a one-off. Pre-LL I would have thought, "I've blown it now; might as well give up..." and that would have started me off on a few weeks fairly full of cake/cheese/extra slices of bread. This time I was confident I could draw a line and eat sensibly. It took a day or so to get the sugar out of my system and stop the cravings. Now I'm fine; my weight hasn't changed; I've learned a lot.
What I'm trying to say is don't worry about eating: even if you do make a mistake you will have the tools to learn from it. You don't need to get stuck in a cycle of overeating ever again. On one of the management CDs there is a bit about lapse - relapse - collapse. I don't have to do all 3 of these things any more; I know there is an alternative. LL has taught me I am in control and it's great.
We've had a French boy staying (school exchange) and I took him and my 2 sons down to the beach with some Dominos pizzas after school - that was OK as I made sure I'd had a snack first. When we got back I made them a chocolate fondue with strawberries to dip in. Strawberries are OK so I had some too. I dipped "just one" (well ended up as 4) which introduced sugar into my veins so later on that evening I had an incident with some baked goods... won't go into details for the sake of those in abstinence, but at a rough guess must have had at least 1000 calories worth of cake etc. I ate even more than I would have done because I was so interested in what I was thinking having done the LL programme - had much more insight now! There were a lot of crooked thoughts flying around. Afterwards I identified lots of reasons why it happened (tiredness/changes in routine etc) and intend to use this knowledge to avoid a similar lapse in the future.
I sort of regretted it (must admit the cakes were yummy!) but knew it was going to be a one-off. Pre-LL I would have thought, "I've blown it now; might as well give up..." and that would have started me off on a few weeks fairly full of cake/cheese/extra slices of bread. This time I was confident I could draw a line and eat sensibly. It took a day or so to get the sugar out of my system and stop the cravings. Now I'm fine; my weight hasn't changed; I've learned a lot.
What I'm trying to say is don't worry about eating: even if you do make a mistake you will have the tools to learn from it. You don't need to get stuck in a cycle of overeating ever again. On one of the management CDs there is a bit about lapse - relapse - collapse. I don't have to do all 3 of these things any more; I know there is an alternative. LL has taught me I am in control and it's great.