Loopy_Lou
Just about on the wagon!
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Hello everyone! Some of you may remember me, others of you may not, but I've been on and off here more times than I care to remember! So here's a brief summary:
I did CD a few years ago, starting out at 13s11 - the heaviest I had ever been. I did a few months, then took a break, then a few more, then a break, and although I did a kind of stop-start version, it worked for me. In all, I finished up just over 10s some 6 months after starting, which I'd not been for probably 15+ years. I was over the moon!! I was in size 12, went to the gym 4-5 times a week, I was attracting lots of attention, I was confident, and life was good. What I didn't do was address why I'd got so big in the first place. So the minute I resumed 'normal' food, my weight went up. And up. And up.
So long story short, over the next few years, I tried different things - back on cd, hypnosis, calorie counting, etc - but again I wasn't addressing the root. I also think I wasn't ready, which may sound odd, but the first time I lost the weight I still 'felt' big even though I 'looked' small. Anyhoo, I'm back again. I've had a bit of a stressful time and have just been told I find out next week if I'm made redundant or not. So the time has come - I simply cannot put my life on hold any longer. I need to start this year as I mean to go on, without hiding behind my weight restriction.
I read the Sun online every week for the Fit Squad, and every week the person featured seems to do CD to get themselves started and 'wipe the slate clean'. Now don't get me wrong, I'm doing CD and mentioning CD and that's because it's the only VLCD I've done, and I know it works. But I also know that LT and LL work, and have friends who have done those and lost their weight, so I don't want anyone to think I'm pushing CD. I'm pushing VLCDs, but CD was the one I picked.
So here I am, back where I started and I'm angry with myself for letting me do this. :rant2: It's nobody elses fault - I've let myself not only put all my weight back on, but another few pounds besides! I'm now 14s4lb, which is the heaviest I've ever been, and I've made contact with my CDC again. I'm waiting for an email back so I can hottail it up there to get my fix! lol. I've set myself lots of targets rather than just wanting to get to my goal. I really hope I can do it this time, because I really can't go through this again. I'm living a half life - I don't go out and meet new people, I eat on my own, and I hide myself in big clothes. I also hide myself by being everyone's fat funny friend, and while I go out a lot, I'm never comfortable and always feel people are judging me. If I'm stuck in a booth in a bar and need to get passed someone, I think they're thinking "she can't get out because she's so fat", or if I go to the cinema/theatre, or even when I'm on the tube, I'm conscious that I might be taking up more room in the seats. I also get so out of breath, always feel uncomfortably full, and I'm just generally not happy. This is my last chance.
I hope this hasn't been too depressing, but I want to remember how I feel right now so that once I've started I can a) motivate myself by reminding myself why I'm doing this, and b) compare how I'm feeling as I lose the weight which will hopefully spur me forward.
I'll keep you informed how I get on, but I'm aiming to start by next week. Wish me luck - I need it!!!
Good luck to all of you too, whatever you're doing and however you're doing it! Let's all make this year the year we sort out our demons and move onwards and upwards for good!:fingerscrossed:
Hello everyone! Some of you may remember me, others of you may not, but I've been on and off here more times than I care to remember! So here's a brief summary:
I did CD a few years ago, starting out at 13s11 - the heaviest I had ever been. I did a few months, then took a break, then a few more, then a break, and although I did a kind of stop-start version, it worked for me. In all, I finished up just over 10s some 6 months after starting, which I'd not been for probably 15+ years. I was over the moon!! I was in size 12, went to the gym 4-5 times a week, I was attracting lots of attention, I was confident, and life was good. What I didn't do was address why I'd got so big in the first place. So the minute I resumed 'normal' food, my weight went up. And up. And up.
So long story short, over the next few years, I tried different things - back on cd, hypnosis, calorie counting, etc - but again I wasn't addressing the root. I also think I wasn't ready, which may sound odd, but the first time I lost the weight I still 'felt' big even though I 'looked' small. Anyhoo, I'm back again. I've had a bit of a stressful time and have just been told I find out next week if I'm made redundant or not. So the time has come - I simply cannot put my life on hold any longer. I need to start this year as I mean to go on, without hiding behind my weight restriction.
I read the Sun online every week for the Fit Squad, and every week the person featured seems to do CD to get themselves started and 'wipe the slate clean'. Now don't get me wrong, I'm doing CD and mentioning CD and that's because it's the only VLCD I've done, and I know it works. But I also know that LT and LL work, and have friends who have done those and lost their weight, so I don't want anyone to think I'm pushing CD. I'm pushing VLCDs, but CD was the one I picked.
So here I am, back where I started and I'm angry with myself for letting me do this. :rant2: It's nobody elses fault - I've let myself not only put all my weight back on, but another few pounds besides! I'm now 14s4lb
, which is the heaviest I've ever been, and I've made contact with my CDC again. I'm waiting for an email back so I can hottail it up there to get my fix! lol. I've set myself lots of targets rather than just wanting to get to my goal. I really hope I can do it this time, because I really can't go through this again. I'm living a half life - I don't go out and meet new people, I eat on my own, and I hide myself in big clothes. I also hide myself by being everyone's fat funny friend, and while I go out a lot, I'm never comfortable and always feel people are judging me. If I'm stuck in a booth in a bar and need to get passed someone, I think they're thinking "she can't get out because she's so fat", or if I go to the cinema/theatre, or even when I'm on the tube, I'm conscious that I might be taking up more room in the seats. I also get so out of breath, always feel uncomfortably full, and I'm just generally not happy. This is my last chance.I hope this hasn't been too depressing, but I want to remember how I feel right now so that once I've started I can a) motivate myself by reminding myself why I'm doing this, and b) compare how I'm feeling as I lose the weight which will hopefully spur me forward.
I'll keep you informed how I get on, but I'm aiming to start by next week. Wish me luck - I need it!!!
Good luck to all of you too, whatever you're doing and however you're doing it! Let's all make this year the year we sort out our demons and move onwards and upwards for good!:fingerscrossed:
