250lbs To Lose

[ellaye]

Hi

I have a food & weight loss tracker diary under the Weight Watchers section, but, as the title says, I have 250lbs* to lose, and I definitely "MITT", so here I am!

I've had moderate success (20lbs in just a few weeks) going low carb, but as much as I enjoyed the food, it was somewhat hard to maintain on a restricted budget. I'm now following Weight Watchers and pointing all my food, which has resulted in a 13lbs loss in the first week. Which technically means I have 237lbs* to lose now!

I'm aiming to lose 125lbs this year - though more would be amazing - and I'm breaking that down into 25lbs chunks, so I have 5 mini goals for this year and 10 mini goals overall. I think this will help keep me on track and make the whole experience a lot less daunting!

2013 was an exceptionally difficult year for me, and there was a period a few weeks before Christmas where I was trying to decide between suicide or an appointment with my GP. Heartbreak and debt will do that to a girl! Thankfully, I made the decision to visit my GP and I was given a prescription for fluoxetine. I'm still not 100% and I'm not entirely sure I ever will be, but I have made a decision that 2014 will be a year I make big changes and take charge of my life again. I don't want to sit back next NYE and think, I've failed again. I don't want to look back on another wasted year, another wasted opportunity. I don't want to waste yet another chunk of my life. I've spent a long time eating my feeling and hiding away because I didn't feel good enough or pretty enough to accepted or loved because of my weight and I'm sick of it. And I especially don't want to go back to that dark place where I was genuinely contemplating ending my own life.

This is the year I break the vicious cycle I've been trapped in for the last 26 years.

So, that's why I'm here! I really do MITT.

 

[ellaye]

Breakfast today was 150g Yeo Valley natural yogurt (3PP) mixed with a scoop of protein powder (2PP) and topped with a mashed banana and some ground cinnamon. I also had some sliced pineapple & melon, an apricot and a litre of water.

 

[ellaye]

Lunch was a couple of large eggs (6PP) scrambled with mushrooms & spring onions, low fat chive & onion cottage cheese (3PP), carrot sticks and a smoothie (3PP). It tasted better than it looked.

 

[sophsmum]

Hi Ellaye, what a great introduction. Hopefully now things will start to improve for you. All the best with your weightloss journey xx

 

[ellaye]

Thank you! I hope being virtually surrounded by people in a similar position will help me beat the bulge for good this time.

 

[ellaye]

Dinner was BBQ flavoured chicken (4PP), baked sweet potato (6PP) with cottage cheese (3PP) and a rocket, cherry tomato & beetroot salad with balsamic glaze (1PP).

 

[ellaye]

I've also prepared some Bircher-style muesli for breakfast tomorrow. I covered 40g muesli (5PP) with 200ml semi skimmed milk (3PP) and a mashed banana and I'll leave it to soak overnight.

I'm a total food prepper.

 

[TracyGWill]

Welcome, hon. Well done on making this commitment - don't ever give up, please!! You'll get lots of lovely support and motivation on here, it's really great. All the very best. xx

 

[ellaye]

Thank you.

I feel 100% committed to doing this, but I know my enthusiasm can wane sometimes. Hopefully the flexibility of Weight Watchers will keep me from feeling like I've ruined all the hard work I've put in if (or more likely when!) I slip up.

I'm going to be adopting a rescue dog in a few weeks time - I think I'll be picking one out on the 19th - so I will use that as my boost to start exercising. I'm incredibly unfit and I struggle to find the motivation to exercise when it's just me, so having a reason to get up off my butt and take a walk around the park can only be a good thing. And it should boost the weight loss too! But until then, I'm going to focus on eating right because that's my biggest downfall. If I can master the art of eating like a thin person, half the battle will have been won.

 

[ellaye]

Breakfast was the Bircher-style muesli and a litre of water. I'm aiming to drink at least two litres of water a day, even if it leaves me needing to pee every 10 minutes.



It doesn't look very appetising but it was nice.

 

[Nicola1985]

Hi

I have a food & weight loss tracker diary under the Weight Watchers section, but, as the title says, I have 250lbs* to lose, and I definitely "MITT", so here I am!

I've had moderate success (20lbs in just a few weeks) going low carb, but as much as I enjoyed the food, it was somewhat hard to maintain on a restricted budget. I'm now following Weight Watchers and pointing all my food, which has resulted in a 13lbs loss in the first week. Which technically means I have 237lbs* to lose now!

I'm aiming to lose 125lbs this year - though more would be amazing - and I'm breaking that down into 25lbs chunks, so I have 5 mini goals for this year and 10 mini goals overall. I think this will help keep me on track and make the whole experience a lot less daunting!

2013 was an exceptionally difficult year for me, and there was a period a few weeks before Christmas where I was trying to decide between suicide or an appointment with my GP. Heartbreak and debt will do that to a girl! Thankfully, I made the decision to visit my GP and I was given a prescription for fluoxetine. I'm still not 100% and I'm not entirely sure I ever will be, but I have made a decision that 2014 will be a year I make big changes and take charge of my life again. I don't want to sit back next NYE and think, I've failed again. I don't want to look back on another wasted year, another wasted opportunity. I don't want to waste yet another chunk of my life. I've spent a long time eating my feeling and hiding away because I didn't feel good enough or pretty enough to accepted or loved because of my weight and I'm sick of it. And I especially don't want to go back to that dark place where I was genuinely contemplating ending my own life.

This is the year I break the vicious cycle I've been trapped in for the last 26 years.

So, that's why I'm here! I really do MITT.

Bless you ellaye. What a heartbreaking story that you became so low you considered ending your life :cry:Well anyway it sounds like you're feeling much more positive now and ready to make some changes. I really admire you for your mindset and positive attitude. All the best and remember, take each day as it comes! xx

 

[ellaye]

Thank you! I definitely feel a lot more positive now, so I'm taking advantage of the boost in my mood and I'm focused on losing the weight no matter what.

Lunch today was a goat cheese (2PP), beetroot, rocket & cherry tomato salad with balsamic glaze (1PP), mixed olives & feta (4PP), a package of smoked ham (4PP) and a glass of iced water.


My photography skills leave a lot to be desired, heh.

 

[ellaye]

Dinner tonight was grilled chicken (4PP) with homemade tzatziki (4PP) in lettuce cups, baked sweet potato (6PP) with cottage cheese (3PP) and massive salad.

I also ate a couple pieces of bacon (6PP) that needed to be used up. It took me over my daily points allowance, but I suppose that's what the weekly points allowance is for, right?

 

[chezz]

hi ellaye
welcome to the forum please stay here no matter what happens you get so much support there all great i got down to the 21 then back up to the 23s but i still came on here even though i was failing if i was not here i know it would have got worst :cry:but im now back on track from this week and doing ok off the booze for 6 months cause wine is my devil
love the meals you are making and glad you came on here x x

 

[ellaye]

Thank you! I'm glad I joined. It's nice to have a group of people who are all working towards the same goal, and it's even better to see those who have got to their target weight.

I feel a bit blah now that I've eaten that bacon. I think I will make tomorrow an extra healthy day to make up for it. I really want the scales to go down again on Wednesday, even if it's just by a pound. Anything will do.

I've just thrown together a tuna pasta bake for tomorrow's dinner. Spinach trotolle pasta, tuna, feta and a spicy tomato & garlic sauce. Yum. It's not my favourite, but it will help drag me out of the chicken and sweet potato rut I'm in!

 

[chezz]

Thank you! I'm glad I joined. It's nice to have a group of people who are all working towards the same goal, and it's even better to see those who have got to their target weight.

I feel a bit blah now that I've eaten that bacon. I think I will make tomorrow an extra healthy day to make up for it. I really want the scales to go down again on Wednesday, even if it's just by a pound. Anything will do.

I've just thrown together a tuna pasta bake for tomorrow's dinner. Spinach trotolle pasta, tuna, feta and a spicy tomato & garlic sauce. Yum. It's not my favourite, but it will help drag me out of the chicken and sweet potato rut I'm in!

that sounds really nice
i have got so much frozen veg in our freezer im going to chuck it all in a dish some cheese sauce and bake it my friends recipe
saying that im like you i love chicken

 

[Figment]

You are doing super fantastic and your meals look very tasty. Don't get down because you ate the bacon. Yes it might have sent you over points but you certainly haven't ruined your week. I did a food for thought group prior to this weight loss journey and my favourite bit was the psychologist sessions as I know I am mentally challenged with food. We discussed how usually people would have a little wobble (like your bacon) which will then spiral into a "well I've blown it now so I might as well pig out properly" The psychologist said we have to accept the little blip and start again straight away, not tomorrow or Monday but right from the point that we blipped. We are all human after all. Keep going you will get where you want to be xxxx

 

[ellaye]

A better relationship with food is definitely what I'm aiming for.

I skipped breakfast this morning, but while I was out I picked up some cooked chicken (4PP) to snack on, and then when I got home a little while ago I threw together some spaghetti (8PP) in a creamy leek, mushroom & feta sauce (8PP) and a salad with Caesar dressing (3PP). I also ate a few chocolate covered coffee beans, but there's no nutritional information so I'm estimating them to be 2PP.

My official weigh in day is Wednesday but I might weigh myself on Monday instead and then make that my regular weigh in day. I just hope the scale goes down.

 

[ellaye]

I was supposed to eat the tuna pasta bake, but I can be a bit iffy with fish. I have to eat it exactly when I want it, otherwise I can find the smell, taste & texture repulsive, lol.

 

[ellaye]

I've just had half a pot of fat free Greek yogurt (1PP) mixed with half a scoop of caramel macchiato protein powder (1PP), two fresh apricots and an apple as an evening snack, and I'm going to drink another litre or so of water to bring me up to two litres for the day.

I'm going to fast for 24hrs tomorrow. Nothing but water, water, water. And then on Monday I have an appointment with my GP to ask about Orlistat. I also need to write down a shopping list so that I know what I need to buy. If I don't go grocery shopping without a list, I come back with far too much of the wrong stuff!