hi everyone
So i got around 4 hours sleep from 5am - 9am and i tried desperately to fall back to sleep but my mind was having none of it. Its been 6 day since i started the tablets and i hope by the weekend i can feel a bit more normal again. im not going to take it tonight, im going to have 24 hours off it and take it in the morning, so i hope to get some actual sleep tonight.
I listened to the gastric app again lastnight and its still doing its magic. I made a sandwich for lunch and could only eat half of it before feeling like i would throw up. SO i wrapped it in clingfilm and put it in the fridge. then i felt some mild hunger pangs about 2 hours later and had the other half and a cup of tea. the last swig of the tea felt like it wouldnt go down!
i know im not getting enough calories by far, i should be having 2400 but im barely hitting 1000. But im just not hungry. I feel woozy and a bit weak but i think thats mostly down to the tablets. I will see how i get on this week and wait until my tablet's side effects wear off and then re evaluate. I would like to get at least 1200 cals in.
thing is with me is once i get an idea and a visual in my mind i cant let go. this is the reason i dont eat eggs or poultry. I saw Karl Pilkington watch someone eat a half embryonised egg on his tv show and it made me feel sick!! and i have eaten one since. I will have things with egg in, but not omlette or quiche etc or boiled, fried, poached. ack.
And the poultry thing is because i watched animal hoarders and this one woman hoarded chickens and she had one that had a broken neck and all its feathers were falling off but she loved it and snuggled with it and it loved her back, and since then i havent eaten any type of bird.
I dont eat fish so watching finding nemo is ok, but i have banned myself from watching anything with cows and pigs in!!!! I have to have something left to eat
On that note, ive got out some pork chops and im defrosting them on the radiator

im not sure what im gong to make yet, something small for me with salad and a bit of homous. Maybe Joe and Dunc can have a potato with theirs... i dont think i could manage a pork chop and a potato!!! weird!!!!
i had a sneaky weigh in and its looking great

then the batt died so Joe is picking me up some on the way home from work!
happy day everyone xx