mybodyisacage
Silver Member
Brief history - Ive been mucking around with the CD for a year bouncing between 16-19.5 stone. Im the same as everyone else, I love food but I hate being fat... such a shame it works out like that
I really struggle because Im at uni and 23 and being on CD makes me feel like Im constantly missing out, I find it really hard to go out and not drink and am forever falling off the wagon. However, in August my brother and his fiancee asked me to be a bridesmaid. I was so chuffed and honored but then the dread began to sink in.
Bridesmaids dresses in size 22??? not exactly going to look glamorous and Im going to ruin all their photos
So here I am back again and for real. I have 1 year before the wedding. D Day is 29/09/12 and I refuse to be fat.
Well all was going well until 3am yesterday, my mind would not shut down, constantly thinking of food, everything Im missing out on, all the meals I want and the parties I want to go to. Today I gave in and thought a reasonable thing to do was have an 810 day to keep me going. Its been a long while since Ive read the books but Im pretty sure that a giant bowl of salad (with olives!!!) and 250g of Chicken does not come under 810.
Now I am so unhappy and angry with myself - couldnt I even get to a week without ruining it?! Okay so I didnt go out and get KFC but still. REALLY?!
Obviously now Im scared of this becoming a habit and ruining the months ahead. I think hitting the gym tmrw is the only way Ill feel okay about it.
Any advice would be so appreciated. How do you make your head shut up? How do you get through knowing that this is the reality for the next year?
Sorry for the rambling!
I really struggle because Im at uni and 23 and being on CD makes me feel like Im constantly missing out, I find it really hard to go out and not drink and am forever falling off the wagon. However, in August my brother and his fiancee asked me to be a bridesmaid. I was so chuffed and honored but then the dread began to sink in.
Bridesmaids dresses in size 22??? not exactly going to look glamorous and Im going to ruin all their photos
So here I am back again and for real. I have 1 year before the wedding. D Day is 29/09/12 and I refuse to be fat.
Well all was going well until 3am yesterday, my mind would not shut down, constantly thinking of food, everything Im missing out on, all the meals I want and the parties I want to go to. Today I gave in and thought a reasonable thing to do was have an 810 day to keep me going. Its been a long while since Ive read the books but Im pretty sure that a giant bowl of salad (with olives!!!) and 250g of Chicken does not come under 810.
Now I am so unhappy and angry with myself - couldnt I even get to a week without ruining it?! Okay so I didnt go out and get KFC but still. REALLY?!
Obviously now Im scared of this becoming a habit and ruining the months ahead. I think hitting the gym tmrw is the only way Ill feel okay about it.
Any advice would be so appreciated. How do you make your head shut up? How do you get through knowing that this is the reality for the next year?
Sorry for the rambling!