6th Day and already tripped up...

mybodyisacage

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Brief history - Ive been mucking around with the CD for a year bouncing between 16-19.5 stone. Im the same as everyone else, I love food but I hate being fat... such a shame it works out like that :p

I really struggle because Im at uni and 23 and being on CD makes me feel like Im constantly missing out, I find it really hard to go out and not drink and am forever falling off the wagon. However, in August my brother and his fiancee asked me to be a bridesmaid. I was so chuffed and honored but then the dread began to sink in.

Bridesmaids dresses in size 22??? not exactly going to look glamorous and Im going to ruin all their photos :(

So here I am back again and for real. I have 1 year before the wedding. D Day is 29/09/12 and I refuse to be fat.

Well all was going well until 3am yesterday, my mind would not shut down, constantly thinking of food, everything Im missing out on, all the meals I want and the parties I want to go to. Today I gave in and thought a reasonable thing to do was have an 810 day to keep me going. Its been a long while since Ive read the books but Im pretty sure that a giant bowl of salad (with olives!!!) and 250g of Chicken does not come under 810.

Now I am so unhappy and angry with myself - couldnt I even get to a week without ruining it?! Okay so I didnt go out and get KFC but still. REALLY?!

Obviously now Im scared of this becoming a habit and ruining the months ahead. I think hitting the gym tmrw is the only way Ill feel okay about it.

Any advice would be so appreciated. How do you make your head shut up? How do you get through knowing that this is the reality for the next year?

Sorry for the rambling!
 
Just forget it & keep going it will get easier, we all have bad days as we are all human xxx
 
Are you doing SS? If so, why not try 810 instead? I'm on 810 and everyone I've spoken to said the losses are around the same as SS and it means you get a wee meal as well which is keeping me going.

Someone on here (sorry, can't remember who) said something that reay struck me. Basically, you choose how you feel about the diet - either its a punishment or a short term choice you make to get to the goal. You make the choice, you are in control - so you choose to lose weight (and cutting out alcohol for a few months does us all good ha ha!) Basically, see it as a positive choice, not a negative punishment - whats a few months out of a whole life? ;)

The way I think of it is I have about 3-4 months to get to goal (if I lost around a stone a month). Think how quickly time flies (it feels like 3 or 4 months ago was only last week!), and focus on one day at a time to get to your goal

I'm no expert, this wisdom is the wisdom of others on this site but its keeping me going so I hope it helps you too

You cannot change the past - only the present and the future. Beating yourself up over a salad is not good for you honey. Think about switching to 810 if you need food, or concentrate on one meal, one day, one week at a time on SS

YOU CAN DO THIS!! :)

Linzois
x
 
Crikey, salad olives an chicken! You could have done much worse!!!!! You should have seen what did yesterday (half a mars bar) my day 6.

Just pick yourself up! Get back on it! You can do it! This is my 3rd go and I had to make a decision about what was more important to me- doing the things I love (socialising eating etc etc) or re-evaluating and deciding that I want to do what makes me feel great for a long time- dance, sing, get married, be a good role model, be well and healthy and live longer to enjoy it. It's flipping difficult especially if you aren't aroun people who will support you rather then encourage you to join in that which you can't! Trust me! This is my 3rd attempt!!!

Don't freak out and don't worry!!!! It was a salad and this is the rest of your life! And it wont be forever. You are in the right place for tonnes of support!!!!! Keep going!! Lots of love xx
 
I agree that maybe try the 810 for a while and see how you go on that. I am not going down the route of well I'll have what I want today, this week and so on and then tomorrow or Monday I will start SS and not one other thing will pass my lips. It doesn't work for me. I'm doing SSplus and some days more like 810 and a few blips but I feel I'll get there somehow. This all or nothing just doesn't really work for me.
 
I had fab losses on the 790 plan which was the forerunner to 810. It made all the difference because I just couldn't stick to SS for long and in any case I felt weak, shaky and ill on SS. That bit of extra food makes a huge difference to the dieter but you still lose fast!

So good luck with it x
 
I cant explain how much of a difference all your comments have made, its so nice to have all this encouragement and support. I realise I may have been a little hard on myself but I didnt lose any weight that day due to the salad and I worry if I go on the 810 plan the same will happen. Although I do realise I will be eating less than I did but Im not sure I can trust myself to keep to the allotted portion sizes and allowed foods.

Im right back on today, drinking my chocolate milkshake as we speak (type!) and hoping I can get through.

Linzois - I read that too and it really struck a cord for me as well! I love having new perspectives on things. I just need to keep a PMA and chuck out all the negative!

Im now going to search for my CD booklets and really look into 810 so if I need to do it, I do it properly. I think maybe an 810 day here and there will help me keep going!

Next hurdle is my birthday on the 23rd! any advice for that?!! haha

Thank you so much guys, means the world. Love xxx
 
Brief history - Ive been mucking around with the CD for a year bouncing between 16-19.5 stone. Im the same as everyone else, I love food but I hate being fat... such a shame it works out like that :p

I really struggle because Im at uni and 23 and being on CD makes me feel like Im constantly missing out, I find it really hard to go out and not drink and am forever falling off the wagon. However, in August my brother and his fiancee asked me to be a bridesmaid. I was so chuffed and honored but then the dread began to sink in.

Bridesmaids dresses in size 22??? not exactly going to look glamorous and Im going to ruin all their photos :(

So here I am back again and for real. I have 1 year before the wedding. D Day is 29/09/12 and I refuse to be fat.

Well all was going well until 3am yesterday, my mind would not shut down, constantly thinking of food, everything Im missing out on, all the meals I want and the parties I want to go to. Today I gave in and thought a reasonable thing to do was have an 810 day to keep me going. Its been a long while since Ive read the books but Im pretty sure that a giant bowl of salad (with olives!!!) and 250g of Chicken does not come under 810.

Now I am so unhappy and angry with myself - couldnt I even get to a week without ruining it?! Okay so I didnt go out and get KFC but still. REALLY?!

Obviously now Im scared of this becoming a habit and ruining the months ahead. I think hitting the gym tmrw is the only way Ill feel okay about it.

Any advice would be so appreciated. How do you make your head shut up? How do you get through knowing that this is the reality for the next year?

Sorry for the rambling!

God I know where your coming from! I'm 22 and feel so boring! Although my friend know I'm dieting usually I can be persuaded to go out and have a cheeky few but this time I'm so anti social! In on a saturday night watching xfactor! I just keep telling my self its not forever! And the longer I keep messing up the longer I will be doing it! Salad olives and chicken is no the worst! And it happens! These pplk that do it weeks on end with not a spec of food are machines lol! Jst don't let yourself slip from here! Go back to ss and see how u go! I havnt told any1 this but I will to make u feel better!... I had 2 bad weeks but 1 of the days was horrific! I had a share bag of doritos, went to mcdonalds and got 2 veggie burger MEALS and to kfc and got 2 chicken burgers ( I'm a vegetarian) and scoffed the lot in 20mins! Felt like I was going to die tho after! Just wipe your slate clean pretend it didn't happen and carry on! The truth is we all have bad days and who cares about ketosis as long as your loosing weight!! Good luck!!
 
Thank you, I have found myself sharing things on here that I would be too ashamed to tell anyone face to face and when your really honest it makes you see how bad you can be with, lets others know they arent alone and feels amazing for telling the truth.

Before I started CD I got dominos 2 4 1 tuesday and ate both LARGE pizzas, thats probably a weeks worth of calories. You are not alone in your crazy bingeing.

I like you am very easily persuaded though, peer pressure gets to me quickly! Im trying to go out and just not drink and eat. Ive managed it a few times now and Ive been so proud of myself for my restraint.

Well so far today Ive been on SS, just got to get through the evening, which is the worst time for me!

Well done on your weightloss btw - over 2 stone in 6 weeks with a binge is amazing haha! are you exercising too?

xxx
 
Thank you, I have found myself sharing things on here that I would be too ashamed to tell anyone face to face and when your really honest it makes you see how bad you can be with, lets others know they arent alone and feels amazing for telling the truth.

Before I started CD I got dominos 2 4 1 tuesday and ate both LARGE pizzas, thats probably a weeks worth of calories. You are not alone in your crazy bingeing.


You've hit the nail on the head!!!!!! Thats what I love about this site....I found myself on this site last night with my bf next to me being bored watching the tv!! I told you guys about the blip, before him!! And I am most certainly too embarrassed to tell anyone else. Its lovely to know I am not the only one out there doing this, or thats had a blip! The support is great and the advice even better! I was told what I needed to know to get on with it! I have wobbled the last couple of days and felt miserable. The half mars bar was enough to nearly make me end it. But I figured it was pathetic after just 6 days and so much to loose!!!!!

I am loving this amazing site! Has perked me up a treat! Thanks ladies!

I bet you couldnt eat 2 dominos now!!! Your tummy will be much too small!! You are doing amazing!!!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
 
I did exercise abit at the begining just walking because I have quite muscly legs under the fat lol and I was worried I would have rugby legs and gain muscle mass!! But thn I stopped when I had my 2 bad weeks! Just started tonight with toning exercises. I don't know hw much I should do! Do. U exercise? I didd natalie cassidy dvd in my 2nd week and almost passed out went straight to bed after and havnt done it since! .. And yes this place is great because its nice to know its not just you that has these urges! And I've done the dominoes about 5 times I'm afraid to say and that's jst on a 2 4 tuesday random night! But we are both going in the right direction now! If u ever want to vent or moan just msg me! I've been on here quite abit since I started mainly moaning about stuff lol but it helps! Oh and I found the evenings hard too my first 2 weeks I was in bed by half 7 no joke! And I think its amazing that you've managed to go out! Shows some will power I don't think I'm strong enough for that yet so you should be proud of yourself!!
You can get through tonight jst think about how happy u will be in the morning!!

Thanks I'm so shocked about how much I've lost! Definatly spurs u on tho! X
 
Aw, same offer goes hon! Message me!!!!

I try and walk every day, and swim when I can-good for toning. I would love to go to zumba but am really worried I'll be the fat one sweating and trying to keep up and I wont go back!! When Im a bit slimmer I will do body balance, yoga and pilates.

The other thing amazing for toning is a 10min vigorous all over body brush!

I did try the ministry of sounds work out dvds. What a joke. Unless your a classically trained dancing stick of celery its NOT GOING TO HAPPEN. Ladies. Steer well clear of them!!!!!
 
Haha saphire I know what u mean! Zumba is not for me! I really want to start yoga! I know what u mean about the ministry of sound workout! I did about 2mins also did davinas (super human) workout lol did even attempt! I just watched it play lol. I really like to swim but the town where I live is quite small and every pool has a gym attached and I know I will see some 1 I'm too embarassed!! Think about driving further away to do it tho X
 
Where in the UK are you?

My issue is that Im a teacher, the pools round here are more slides and rapids then anything else.....dont really want to be seen by one of my pupils past or present with my wobbley white body in a cozie!

Im glad its not just me with these blooming DVDS! Super hero or what!!!!

Tara x
 
I live in warwickshire in the midlands! What about u? Yeah must be hard with seeing kids that you teach! The only pool I could go to has a dreaded 800 yard walk to the pool and everyone stares! .. Ohh we shouldn't care as much should we.
 
How are u 2 coping emotionally?? I'm abit better now but my first couple of weeks I was reallly really moody n snappy and also I cried. In the first week when I said I want something to eat and my boyfriend told me to stick to it haha!
 
Lol, I was ferocious! First coincided with pmt too!!!!! Start of term was very difficult. Kept hold of my temper. Just got a bit teary at home like when bf went home. Now I just feel lonely!! And hungry. Which I didn't this week. But the burning desire to feel good about myself has outweighed everything. Am still a bit miserable, love seeing the loss on the scales. But in the mirror is just all looks the same. :(


And now I'm teary again..... So I'd say, emotional seesaw! Classy!!
 
Yes same! I also cried when I couldn't find my keys! Haha I feel mental I can't see a difference in myself either in the mirror apart frm my face! My clothes are baggy tho so I think its in our head!
 
I flipping hope so!!!! There's not much else in my head!! Needs more calories to function apparently!!!!
 
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