Pinkydoodles
Full Member
I have decided to start this online diary as an attempt to motivate myself - perhaps if I have to come here a few times a week and publicly write about my diet and weight loss efforts, then I will feel like I have someone else out there to make an effort for when I don't want to make an effort for myself.... Hopefully it will also be cathartic and I [and maybe others] will be able to witness and learn from the various struggles that come with changing human habits. Evil beasts that they are.
So here goes...
I am on week 9 now. Start weight 15st 11.5lbs. Goal weight 11st.
Week 1: -2.5
Week 2: -4
Week 3: -2
Week 4: +1
Week 5: -1.5
Week 6: -1
Week 7: -0.5
Week 8: +1.5
= 9lbs lost to date.
I was all motivated the first lot of weeks and thought it was all pretty easy. But I broke my resolve on easter weekend, eating choc and drinking alcohol, and I haven't been able to get back on track since. I am eating all SW meals, its just that I have gotten the insatiable taste for chocolate again, and it is ruining every day. Normally I can stay on plan when I am in work all day, but when I get home, I just want to sleep and eat choc. I have always been an emotional eater and do have long-term probs with depression. I guess I am just not feeling strong at the mo and am finding it hard to get my mojo back. Where has it gone??? It must be hiding under a big brick somewhere. I can't call it back because it is deaf and seemingly oblivious to my heartfelt pleas, impatient orders and out-right demands. There must be some way to get it back... maybe I need to coax it out.... nicely? But then if its deaf?? I'll have to try I guess.
I just want this to be the actual time that I change for good. I have done WW 3 times in the past and every time I got to around minus 10/12lbs weight loss I couldn't seem to loose any more, so, I eventually, gradually, gave up and left - and then a year or 2 later I returned to have gained all the weight back, plus more. The usual tale that everyone tells. So when I started my weight-loss journey this time, I promised myself it would be for the last time. I chose SW because it has all the free foods which don't need weighed and pointed every day, and this seems much more realistic to live with long-term. But here I am at my usual plateau and starting to get fed up and in danger of giving up, yet again. This has to stop!!!!!!!! Here & now!
But how?
So here goes...
I am on week 9 now. Start weight 15st 11.5lbs. Goal weight 11st.
Week 1: -2.5
Week 2: -4
Week 3: -2
Week 4: +1
Week 5: -1.5
Week 6: -1
Week 7: -0.5
Week 8: +1.5
= 9lbs lost to date.
I was all motivated the first lot of weeks and thought it was all pretty easy. But I broke my resolve on easter weekend, eating choc and drinking alcohol, and I haven't been able to get back on track since. I am eating all SW meals, its just that I have gotten the insatiable taste for chocolate again, and it is ruining every day. Normally I can stay on plan when I am in work all day, but when I get home, I just want to sleep and eat choc. I have always been an emotional eater and do have long-term probs with depression. I guess I am just not feeling strong at the mo and am finding it hard to get my mojo back. Where has it gone??? It must be hiding under a big brick somewhere. I can't call it back because it is deaf and seemingly oblivious to my heartfelt pleas, impatient orders and out-right demands. There must be some way to get it back... maybe I need to coax it out.... nicely? But then if its deaf?? I'll have to try I guess.
I just want this to be the actual time that I change for good. I have done WW 3 times in the past and every time I got to around minus 10/12lbs weight loss I couldn't seem to loose any more, so, I eventually, gradually, gave up and left - and then a year or 2 later I returned to have gained all the weight back, plus more. The usual tale that everyone tells. So when I started my weight-loss journey this time, I promised myself it would be for the last time. I chose SW because it has all the free foods which don't need weighed and pointed every day, and this seems much more realistic to live with long-term. But here I am at my usual plateau and starting to get fed up and in danger of giving up, yet again. This has to stop!!!!!!!! Here & now!
But how?