majic1982
Full Member
Be warned... lots of self-loathing coming!!
I know I shouldn't beat myself up, but at the moment, I'm just going to, because I think I deserve it.
To be honest, I was a bit disappointed I only lost 5.5Ibs last week, given that it was my first week back on the diet. I put it down to TOTM and thought nothing more of it.
On Saturday, we took the kids out all day and I forgot my packs. I was mad as hell with myself, but I had to eat something because I started feeling quite ill.
Then on Mother's Day, the entire family (and extended family) went out for a picnic. Of course, I just had to join in. Why?? It's a social thing, isn't it?
Yesterday I resolved to get right back on it and put the weekend behind me. I was doing really well while I was at work. I had 2 packs, drank ALL of my water and then some, and then I got home and thought "oooh, I think I'll have a little bit of this and some of that." Same again today!
And the most frustrating part is, I DON'T KNOW WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Deep down I have a bit of a fear of becoming slim. I've been fat for as long as I can remember, and it's always been something to hide behind. People don't notice you so much when you're fat. I don't want to be the centre of attention. I'm not sure if it's that that's sabotaging my attempts this time or not.
I am SO frustrated with myself. I keep starting this diet and stopping it again and this time I want it to work so desperately, but it's not happening, and I'm only 1 week into it!
Help!!! :break_diet:
I know I shouldn't beat myself up, but at the moment, I'm just going to, because I think I deserve it.
To be honest, I was a bit disappointed I only lost 5.5Ibs last week, given that it was my first week back on the diet. I put it down to TOTM and thought nothing more of it.
On Saturday, we took the kids out all day and I forgot my packs. I was mad as hell with myself, but I had to eat something because I started feeling quite ill.
Then on Mother's Day, the entire family (and extended family) went out for a picnic. Of course, I just had to join in. Why?? It's a social thing, isn't it?
Yesterday I resolved to get right back on it and put the weekend behind me. I was doing really well while I was at work. I had 2 packs, drank ALL of my water and then some, and then I got home and thought "oooh, I think I'll have a little bit of this and some of that." Same again today!
And the most frustrating part is, I DON'T KNOW WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Deep down I have a bit of a fear of becoming slim. I've been fat for as long as I can remember, and it's always been something to hide behind. People don't notice you so much when you're fat. I don't want to be the centre of attention. I'm not sure if it's that that's sabotaging my attempts this time or not.
I am SO frustrated with myself. I keep starting this diet and stopping it again and this time I want it to work so desperately, but it's not happening, and I'm only 1 week into it!
Help!!! :break_diet: