SerenityValley
Surgically happy.
A few days ago, I posted after being hugely disappointed with my loss for the week. I let it spoil a wonderful day - where I should have been celebrating that I was in the "15's" for the first time in 12 years. I should have been celebrating having lost 108lbs in 2008.
I had a bit of a wobble - even semi-seriously deciding that I would only give this programme 2 more weeks. I'm quite all or nothing really - when things go badly, I get very down and very worried (I am permanently worried that next week might be bad).
So I had to think about my plans, and my targets. I've been aiming to get down to 13 and a half stone by the end of february, and then starting RTM.
I've decided that I need to accept I'm not going to finish by the end of Feb and as such, I may as well adjust my target. I've decided instead, I'll be aiming for 12 and a half stone (with a possibility that I'll adjust that top 11st 11lbs, which would be a nice healthy weight, and would also mean I'd have lost 11st 11lbs).
Drinking water is proving hard - it's horrible, tasteless stuff. I'm drinking coffee most days, have had to use some of the powders just to get going again (I try not to rely on them as I am convinced they slowed down my weightloss for 4 weeks). I may even try to get the boullion savoury drinks.
I'm not enthused, I'm not in a place where I am excited, but I am in a place that I think is stable. It's such a long time - I crave and think about food all the time, and don't feel I get much benefit from the counselling sessions. So every week gets a little harder.
But anyway, I'm looking at the positives, I haven't lapsed despite a lot of very emotional rubbish the last 2 months. I have lost a good amount of weight, and my life should be healthier, happier and longer.
I had a bit of a wobble - even semi-seriously deciding that I would only give this programme 2 more weeks. I'm quite all or nothing really - when things go badly, I get very down and very worried (I am permanently worried that next week might be bad).
So I had to think about my plans, and my targets. I've been aiming to get down to 13 and a half stone by the end of february, and then starting RTM.
I've decided that I need to accept I'm not going to finish by the end of Feb and as such, I may as well adjust my target. I've decided instead, I'll be aiming for 12 and a half stone (with a possibility that I'll adjust that top 11st 11lbs, which would be a nice healthy weight, and would also mean I'd have lost 11st 11lbs).
Drinking water is proving hard - it's horrible, tasteless stuff. I'm drinking coffee most days, have had to use some of the powders just to get going again (I try not to rely on them as I am convinced they slowed down my weightloss for 4 weeks). I may even try to get the boullion savoury drinks.
I'm not enthused, I'm not in a place where I am excited, but I am in a place that I think is stable. It's such a long time - I crave and think about food all the time, and don't feel I get much benefit from the counselling sessions. So every week gets a little harder.
But anyway, I'm looking at the positives, I haven't lapsed despite a lot of very emotional rubbish the last 2 months. I have lost a good amount of weight, and my life should be healthier, happier and longer.