I am at my wits end today, I usually get by and try and be cheerful etc but I feel so fed up today.
I kind of suffer with agoraphobia, though I don't even like to call it that as I can go out with my boyfriend but I really really struggle to go out on my own.
I've been like this ever since I moved here, 2 years ago, but I also tended to stay in when I lived in other places too.
I feel trapped in our flat when he isn't here.
I know that is no way to carry on.
I get him to put the bin out usually. Or if I go I feel very nervy until I get back in.
He works and we get by, I am not claiming benefits, incase anyone thinks anything bad of me.
I would like to work but as I am right now I wouldn't be able to get there.
I don't even know the neighbours really and I avoid them as don't know what to say.
Some of you might remember me mentioning when I got shouted at in the street, well that is the last time I went out alone.
I feel a little bit more confident now since losing some weight, but I still don't go out.
I have social phobia, and I always think people don't like me, and worry what people think of me (even on minimins).
I know I shouldn't care but I do.
I have no friends, I used to meet a couple of ladies every month or so but I dreaded it, they invited me out and I kept turning them down, so I don't hear from them now, not that I blame them.
I think they thought it was something against them but I really struggle with seeing people.
I guess it is linked to my weight problem, and the more i've stayed in the more i've gained and its got worse.
I am guessing i'm not the only one on here to be facing this problem so thought i'd post.
I know the way to solve this is to face my fears.
I am 28 and I know I should have got this sorted by now.
I hope someone has some ideas of what I could do, thanks for reading xx
I kind of suffer with agoraphobia, though I don't even like to call it that as I can go out with my boyfriend but I really really struggle to go out on my own.
I've been like this ever since I moved here, 2 years ago, but I also tended to stay in when I lived in other places too.
I feel trapped in our flat when he isn't here.
I know that is no way to carry on.
I get him to put the bin out usually. Or if I go I feel very nervy until I get back in.
He works and we get by, I am not claiming benefits, incase anyone thinks anything bad of me.
I would like to work but as I am right now I wouldn't be able to get there.
I don't even know the neighbours really and I avoid them as don't know what to say.
Some of you might remember me mentioning when I got shouted at in the street, well that is the last time I went out alone.
I feel a little bit more confident now since losing some weight, but I still don't go out.
I have social phobia, and I always think people don't like me, and worry what people think of me (even on minimins).
I know I shouldn't care but I do.
I have no friends, I used to meet a couple of ladies every month or so but I dreaded it, they invited me out and I kept turning them down, so I don't hear from them now, not that I blame them.
I think they thought it was something against them but I really struggle with seeing people.
I guess it is linked to my weight problem, and the more i've stayed in the more i've gained and its got worse.
I am guessing i'm not the only one on here to be facing this problem so thought i'd post.
I know the way to solve this is to face my fears.
I am 28 and I know I should have got this sorted by now.
I hope someone has some ideas of what I could do, thanks for reading xx