I'm a 30 (nearly 31) year old mum of a boy aged five and I've been overweight since my teens. I've weighed myself today and I'm 14st 5lbs and at 5'7" that makes me obese .
I have an active job as a cleaner and I do a good 2 mile walk every day but unfortunately I eat such a vast amount of food that I'm fat.
My body aches, I'm tired all the time, my skin is bad and I look unattractive because being this big doesn't suit me.
My brother is getting married in 16 months time (May 2012) and I want to lose 3 and a half stones by then because I am bridesmaid! The bride is an old school friend of mine and she's skinny so I'll look like a frumpy elephant next to her if I don't change. That's about 3-4lbs per month to lose.
This is going to be my diary and I hope writing in it every day will help me recognise my weaknesses and distract me from eating all the time!!!:cry:
I've binged big time today because we have a family wedding tomorrow and I'm nervous as hell. Last time we had a family party I had a massive panic attack and am worried it'll happen again. I just want to stay home where I feel safe.