Rayven
Addicted to Minimins!
Well as you all know last night i was struggling with the whole - do i really want to do this diet thing - so much so that by the time I'd logged off i'd pretty much convinced myself that i didn't really want to do it and that i was going to give seeing my new CDC a miss! 
Why? Probably because i never stick to anything and was once again getting cold feet about the whole 'not eating for 5 months' thing. Well, after the OH got home i had a little chat with him and he was very supportive, just said that he loved me and fancied me no matter what but that he'd support me 100% whatever i decided to do. *bless him*
So i thought 'right, now or never time. I either do this, suck it up and stick to it 100% until i get to goal or i have to live with the fact that i'm addcted to food, can't be bothered doing anything about it and that a big girl i'm going to remain forever. I decided to go with the former, as couldn't bare being this big for the next decade!
So off i toddled to my new CDC, the OH even waited outside in the car for me incase i got all emotional. (me? emotional? NEVER!! lol) My CDC was really nice and understanding about me falling off the wagon so i came out feeling really positive. Then we decided to go down the pub - me sticking to diet coke, i know i'm not supposd to have it but i thought it'd be the lesser of two evils. Well, all was going well but then from across the pub i heard some chav shout 'ewwww she's FAT!'.
Well we all know from experience that when someone shouts fat, if you're skinny it goes straight over your head but when you're overweight you automatically think its you they're talking about and turn around - which i did. And yep, he was talking about me and for the remainder of the night everytime i looked in that direction he mouthed the word FAT at me!:cry:
Now if he'd have been doing it to one of my friends the i would have marched over there and told the little B*&%&*d exactly what i thought of him, but because it was me i just stood there going pinker and pinker, staring at the floor and wishing to God that the ground would open up and swallow me whole! :cry:I was soooo upset, but i didn't want to say anything to the rest of the people i as with because.......well, its embaressing enough without everyone knowing. :cry::cry::cry:
The ssing went out of the window and i ended up ordering some chips which confirmed the fact that i was indeed a fat cow! :cry::cry::cry:
I feel awful thismorning. Mainly because i let some jumped up, just out of nappies chav get to me!
I thought all the name calling went out of the window when i left high school! I didn't think i'd have to deal with this kind of rubbish when i'm nealry 29!
Why? Probably because i never stick to anything and was once again getting cold feet about the whole 'not eating for 5 months' thing. Well, after the OH got home i had a little chat with him and he was very supportive, just said that he loved me and fancied me no matter what but that he'd support me 100% whatever i decided to do. *bless him* So i thought 'right, now or never time. I either do this, suck it up and stick to it 100% until i get to goal or i have to live with the fact that i'm addcted to food, can't be bothered doing anything about it and that a big girl i'm going to remain forever. I decided to go with the former, as couldn't bare being this big for the next decade!
So off i toddled to my new CDC, the OH even waited outside in the car for me incase i got all emotional. (me? emotional? NEVER!! lol) My CDC was really nice and understanding about me falling off the wagon so i came out feeling really positive.
Then we decided to go down the pub - me sticking to diet coke, i know i'm not supposd to have it but i thought it'd be the lesser of two evils. Well, all was going well but then from across the pub i heard some chav shout 'ewwww she's FAT!'.Well we all know from experience that when someone shouts fat, if you're skinny it goes straight over your head but when you're overweight you automatically think its you they're talking about and turn around - which i did. And yep, he was talking about me and for the remainder of the night everytime i looked in that direction he mouthed the word FAT at me!
:cry:Now if he'd have been doing it to one of my friends the i would have marched over there and told the little B*&%&*d exactly what i thought of him, but because it was me i just stood there going pinker and pinker, staring at the floor and wishing to God that the ground would open up and swallow me whole! :cry:I was soooo upset, but i didn't want to say anything to the rest of the people i as with because.......well, its embaressing enough without everyone knowing. :cry::cry::cry:
The ssing went out of the window and i ended up ordering some chips which confirmed the fact that i was indeed a fat cow! :cry::cry::cry:
I feel awful thismorning. Mainly because i let some jumped up, just out of nappies chav get to me!
I thought all the name calling went out of the window when i left high school! I didn't think i'd have to deal with this kind of rubbish when i'm nealry 29!
