Reject Doll
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I know what you mean. Everyone thinks I have lots of confidence but I think I'm just a good actress. With my dancing and public speaking at university I guess I do come across as confident but so far as how I look I have had a terrible time and although I'm not really sure that I would like another man full time, I have blamed my weight as the reason I rarely get 2nd dates. Not all men are that shallow but it seems the ones I like usually are.
I had a best friend I went out with a lot a couple of years ago but now I have hardly anyone. (She dropped me when she got a new bloke. Some friend eh?) Since then I have rarely gone out.
I did go out Friday night and I DID feel fairly confident. I wore a strappy top to go out- something I haven't done in years and I curled my hair. I know I looked different and when I got to my friend's house, both her and her mom said, 'WOW.' Then when we were out I caught my reflection in a full length mirror and I was pleased with how I looked for the first time in ages. When out, I realised there were LOADS of women bigger than me but guess what? I STILL didn't get chatted up! Mind you I didn't see anyone who I wanted to chat me up! It didn't really matter because I was happy to be out and feeling good about how I looked. That at least boosted my confidence.
I had a best friend I went out with a lot a couple of years ago but now I have hardly anyone. (She dropped me when she got a new bloke. Some friend eh?) Since then I have rarely gone out.
I did go out Friday night and I DID feel fairly confident. I wore a strappy top to go out- something I haven't done in years and I curled my hair. I know I looked different and when I got to my friend's house, both her and her mom said, 'WOW.' Then when we were out I caught my reflection in a full length mirror and I was pleased with how I looked for the first time in ages. When out, I realised there were LOADS of women bigger than me but guess what? I STILL didn't get chatted up! Mind you I didn't see anyone who I wanted to chat me up! It didn't really matter because I was happy to be out and feeling good about how I looked. That at least boosted my confidence.