Hey there,
Thank you all for the good luck wishes for my audition 'cos it went really well. Someone who I really admired came up to me at the end of the night and told me that I had totally blown her away!!! I'm still in shock.....lol
I got a standing ovation and the agent has already offered me a gig for new years eve!!
I felt so proud of myself especially seeing as it was the first time I had sang in public for almost 2 years.
I wish I could say my WI was as good a sucess. I have really struggled this week and feel like I have let you all down. I have gained another 3lb!!!!!
I had a really good talk with my CDC and told her that I was going to give it till my next WI and if I hadn't lost a reasonable amount of weight then I was going to call it a day and just try healthy eating and exercise. I don't feel like a very good role model to you all. I know I have had a rought time of things lately but I need to stop trying to find the reasons why I can't do it and focus on taking one day at a time.
I have been really good all day and then when it gets to about 4pm that is when I end up giving in and having some cereal or toast. Then 'cos I tell myself that I have blown it now and I will start again tomorrow, I end up eating a load of crap such as chocolate, biscuits, sweets, cheese butties etc etc and it just went on from there. I don't know what triggers it or even if I ate because I was hungry. I feel so low and disappointed in myself. I have been under a bit of pre exam stress too but at the end of the day I am only fat because of what I put in my mouth and I have nobody to blame but myself so only I can do something about it and it starts now!!
So this week I am going to do my best to complete a full week 100% effort with no eating. If by next thurs I can't manage it then I will ask for someone else to take over the running of my thread.
I started today and I have been fine so far, just tried to keep busy so please bare with me and I promise I will post every day so you can all keep me going because that is the reason why I started this thread in the first place - so we could all get together and help each other.
Will post again in the morning.
Night night
xxxxx