arrgh...sorting it out!

[emz449]

thats me kicking my own bum! i wrote a couple of months ago that i was gonna go back into abstinence and to be frank it never happened! but now enough really is enough i cant fool myself into thinking i still look slim and a size 8 because im not. im gonna to do the total solution because eating is the problem for me and im an all or nothing person and i do love the quick losses with a vlcd. with moving into my new flat and starting my post grad course in two months i want to be where i was a few months ago by that time. i know it wont be easy and it is disheartening to be back in this place again but after 5 months on LL i did go a little crazy when i finished! im nervous about telling my parents AGAIN that im gonna be doing a vlcd once more as they disapproved of it so much last time and it will be a double hit because im telling them im moving out at the same time, argh! ive got a couple of days off work to start again and get used to it, wish me luck, i am excited to be starting again and i just really need to crack on with it, im terrible for saying im going to do it and then think sod it but no more of that! im wearing my charm bracelet that i got with 8 charms on that represents how much weight i lost with lighterlife as a symbol of why im doing this again

 

[rose1987]

well good luck it must be difficult to start again when you lost all that weight , did you put it all back on ? Dont worry you will be fine and good luck and dont forget we are here if you need us xx

 

[emz449]

thank you no no where near all of it thank goodness but enough to not be comfortable and hate how i look again, it is far too easy to put it back on again and i would have easily been back there if i dont do this now!

 

[calligas]

it is so easy to slip back emz, and good luck, this is it, we lose then put back on when we eat, we have to remember how to control our eating habits, i too got very greedy, i believe it is a psychological effect and sometimes don not realise we do it, i certainly don't, but i am starting to recognise why, and it is boredom, i have now less than 2 weeks left at uni, then i am back in full time work, so i hope i can finally get into a normal routine once again.

 

[markanderl]

Welcome Emz, it is so good to people on this forum doing this diet for the same reason you are, you are doing to for yourself, not because you have wedding or a function to attend or you are going away, just purely because you don't like the way you look and want to feel better about yourself. Don't get me wrong, those that are doing because of weddings and the like have just as much to proud of, they just have the harder job of keeping the weight down afterwards because their reason has now finished. You now know what to expect and have a better chance of keeping it off once you are there.

 

[i'mgonnabeskinnybyXmas]

good luck Emz, you can do it and you've come to the right place for support and motivation in getting there

 

[Quak]

Good luck with it, hope it goes well for you Emz
Bren xx

 

[emz449]

hm well this week has been completely rubbish, the weekends are my absolute downfall especially with the temptations of going out at the weekend and having one too many jagerbombs! i managed to do a few days but as soon as friday hit it all went to pot! ive made a ticket for the first time as a count down to my goal, im hoping that seeing this go down (hopefully) after the first week will spur me on! it made me realise how much i have really put on, shocking really, its easy to look at the scales and be blase about it but 70lbs to get back to goal is ridiculous! I WILL DO IT THIS TIME! ive got a spinning class tomorrow for the first time in months and have got my soups all lined up ready to go, there are no plans for this weekend and the lack of money means i wouldnt be able to do much anyway so im determined to do it this time!

 

[rose1987]

we all have our up and downs so dont worry just get back on the horse . Goodluck x

 

[markanderl]

Hi Emz, don't beat yourself up to much, I mean you have to beat yourself heavily after you have caved but then forgive yourself and get straight back on it which it seems you have done which is a courageous move so well done for that.

 

[emz449]

thank you mark day one has gone well so far, ive decided that im going to have thursday as my weigh in day, it was the same day as my lighterlife one so it feels right