hey everyone, you are making me blush! Thanks so much, it took a lot of guts to post those piccies, especially the before pictures! The first two were taken in September/October last year, 2007, at the same holiday hotel as the most recent picture in October 2008! Overall, I have been losing weight for a year, but this was only because I had some breaks, and I am a very slow loser anyway. Never mind, it was worth it! It is wierd, but as for how it feels, by brain does not see the slimmer girl as 'me' yet - I only realise it with a jolt when I catch an unexpected glimpse in a window etc and think 'who is that?' My new jeans feel good though, nd the size 12 dress that inexplicably slips on! Actually, quite a few size 12s now... okay, getting a bit excited. I am so scared of going back onto food but now i look normal. I want to eat normally - that is probably the best way to describe how I feel. It doesnt sound too spectacular, but you will know what I mean. I feel like no-one stares at me when I enter a room. i can cross my legs under the desk. I dont worry about those plastic chairs on holiday. I dont worry about eating in public nd people dissaproving. I can buy clothes in any shop. I can pick a size off the shelf. I have wobbly bits, like every woman in the world. But they are BITS, rather than all of me.
I am NORMAL and that is the best thing in the world. Someone described me as dainty the other day!!!!!!! Lots of people claim I am a tiny person (in width as well as height) but I cant quite follow that - my pants are still a 14.
THANKS to all of you for your lovely comments. i hope I fare ok with ww, but I just need to keep telling myself I can come back if I need to. Good luck! (Put it this way, if I can do it, anyone can!)
