Barb
Gold Member
Well I have had a good day so far. Eaten well but not stuffed myself. Want to describe this incredible feeling of calm I have about food. Don't realy know how. It is like I have spent all my life as an adult worrying, what I am going to eat, is it good for me, do I like it, will it make me fat, might it make me thin......
Suddenly i am just not worried, it is like RD said it's structure and freedom at the same time. I can do this, I have permission to do it from myself! I realised today that the only times in my life that I have been happyish with my weight was when pregnant. How sad is that?
I also realised that this is the first 'proper' diet i have ever done. I have always just tried cal counting at home. So this is a first for me and it is a last. This is going to work for me and if it doesn't then I will stay fat because I am never going back to punishing myself the way I have for the last 30 years!
It's all about ME and I am not apologising for it - I deserve to suceed at this and with the support on here I am damn well going to!
Love, slightly emotionally, but happily
Suddenly i am just not worried, it is like RD said it's structure and freedom at the same time. I can do this, I have permission to do it from myself! I realised today that the only times in my life that I have been happyish with my weight was when pregnant. How sad is that?
I also realised that this is the first 'proper' diet i have ever done. I have always just tried cal counting at home. So this is a first for me and it is a last. This is going to work for me and if it doesn't then I will stay fat because I am never going back to punishing myself the way I have for the last 30 years!
It's all about ME and I am not apologising for it - I deserve to suceed at this and with the support on here I am damn well going to!
Love, slightly emotionally, but happily