Been told i'm on the 'verge' of an eating disorder :(

[xSinead]

Wasn't going to make a post about this but quite frankly i'm so upset..
I don't broadcast my bussiness, i never write status's about my weight issues on facebook, i use tumblr as a way of reflecting my feelings & thoughts, and of course this website because erm well, its a weight loss forum so kinda states the obvious.
I responded to something by saying my view on food is different to what it was 3/4 months ago.. I now see food as 'evil' maybe i didn't use the best of words, but to be honest thats how i feel. I don't ever crave food anymore, i don't ever get tempted like i did the first couple of weeks, i can sit and watch my partner eat a chinese and be quite content with my bottle of water, because i know i;m focussed and i know what i want. I used to think i LOVED food, but do you know what? I don't and i never did. I used it as a cover up so i didn't have to address myself or look at parts of myself that i've kept hidden for so long.. I've realised i love myself, my life and things around me more than i could ever possibly love any object of food. So i got a reply with 'sounds like you are on the verge of an eating disorder, be very very careful'

God knows what types of replies i'll get to this, i probably won't even check to see until later when i'm not so upset.
I genually feel like i've tried to support everyone on this website, judging by the amount of people who have added me on facebook from this site alone kind of backs that up and shows many people find me a support.

 

[wannabefitatthirty]

I have found u a massive support, and an inspiration to me, as I'm only on day 4 and ur on week 13- it's amazing!

The thing with this diet is that the whole point is to abstain from food to lose the weight, when u have abstained from food for as long as u have, or infact r as strong minded & determined as u seem to b, ur mind may have made this ride easier for u by shutting off from food. Also food, and ur unhealthy relationship has made u overweight in the 1st place so ur hardly going to b positive about it whilst ur on this journey.
Please don't get upset by (probably well meaning & genuinely concerned) comments.
I'm an all or nothing type person n now I'm on this diet I am throwing myself in, am disinterested in food and focused. And that is the impression ur giving me, that ur highly focused on ur goal and r determined to get there n 'evil' food (lol) isn't going to affect this or stand in ur way x u go chick xx

 

[xSinead]

Thank you so much, i really needed to hear that.
You're right, my mind has blocked food out, and its normal.. its been 14 weeks since i've eaten ANYTHING like i used to eat, i can't remember the last time i had a chip or a peice of chocolate, and whats more is that i don't even want any of those things because the thought makes me feel sick. If that means i'm on the verge of an eating disorder than fine, whatever. I'll be 11 stone for Christmas, and all the people who have been supporting me will still be there with me for the remainder of my journey, thats all i really need.

 

[wannabefitatthirty]

Imagine the miserable year u would have if u craved food the whole time... I can't believe any1 could stick to it for a long period like that if they didn't block out food. Ur gonna get to ur (healthy & realistic) goal, with a lot of support from us miniminners lol xxx

 

[sallyrae]

Hi, firstly reading your posts and advice to have given to me has been really helpful so thanks you have now got a positive attitude towards food and it does not rule you now as you have taken control. When you have reached your goal you will have a healthy relationship with food. Be strong and keep going xxx

 

[kellmo]

Unless this was a qualified doctor or ED specialist saying this I would question if they were a teeensy weensy bit envious of your incredible weight loss! I certainly am. I'm desperate to see pics of you but my access is restricted cos I've not been on here long enough... Carry on what you're doing until you're the healthiest version of you that you can be. ?

 

[xSinead]

Thank you so much kellmo, my mum & partner just said the same thing.
I have facebook & twitter if you want to see pics? My links are above my avatar & in my signiture, not sure if you can see them? x

 

[littlemumma]

I totally sympothise with what u r saying... And can see why u have said what u have! To me food is quite frankly evil also!! If it was a good thing i wouldnt have crept up the scales, us people with weight issues dont see food just for fuel we used to see it as some kind of hobby something we loved to do....unfortunately its the bad food that tastes so good!!!
If we didnt battle with food we would t need such an extream diet as this one.... The only reason i am succeeding is to eliminate food! Iv tried othet diets/healthy eating and i cant do it!!!!
I dont think u have an Eating disorder i just think that like me perhaps uv had a very enotional journey with food and at the moment where ur doing so well on a liquid diet ur attitude towards food has changed, keep going.... As one day very soon we'll all be able to maintain and focus on a healthy lifestyle with good foods,
Youre doing a great job!!!! x

 

[xSinead]

Thank you so much <3
I know within myself i am FAR off having an Eating Disorder, in my mind food is 'evil' because i've learnt to dislike it. Thats not to say at the end of the year when i come off the diet i just won't eat, of course i will, but i'll never abuse my body like i have done and i will work hard every single day for the rest of my life to make sure i never go back to who and what i was. Thats all part of this journey, discovering yourself and changing your lifestyle along the way..

 

[potter]

Hello Sinead

I guess I feel like most of us on here have a difficult relationship with food, and that's why we're here. That's a *very* long way from having an eating disorder though! By taking control and doing what you're doing you're showing the exact opposite, eating disorder implies lack of control whereas you have taken the control back and infact that's a very healthy and non-disordered thing to do!

I can identify with so much of what you say, not just here but in other threads.
I guess the trick is going to be finding a sustainable middle ground where we don't see food as evil but not as a crutch either (I'm speaking about myself here - like wannabefitatthirty I seem to be an all or nothing person too).

Your current thought processes are enabling you to make real changes and your progress is awesome and inspiring! Your current thoughts about food may change as you get closer to your goal, but in the meantime they are helping you along so don't let anyone criticise that!

Take care, Potter xx

 

[littlemumma]

Hello Sinead

I guess I feel like most of us on here have a difficult relationship with food, and that's why we're here. That's a *very* long way from having an eating disorder though! By taking control and doing what you're doing you're showing the exact opposite, eating disorder implies lack of control whereas you have taken the control back and infact that's a very healthy and non-disordered thing to do!

I can identify with so much of what you say, not just here but in other threads.
I guess the trick is going to be finding a sustainable middle ground where we don't see food as evil but not as a crutch either (I'm speaking about myself here - like wannabefitatthirty I seem to be an all or nothing person too).

Your current thought processes are enabling you to make real changes and your progress is awesome and inspiring! Your current thoughts about food may change as you get closer to your goal, but in the meantime they are helping you along so don't let anyone criticise that!

Take care, Potter xx

Sooo true x

 

[harassed_mother]

The only eating disorder u on the verge of is a healthy eating disorder - yes I made it up but now it exists u r doing fab I'm not far off u weight wise I like reading your posts cos it keeps me going and focused on the losses, don't worry about what other people think as long as u can look in the mirror and be proud of what u achieving that's all that matters isn't it xxx

Again just for good luck u r doing FAB )))

 

[Souffle-la]

I wouldn't worry about whoever said that Sinead, sounds like they are probably jealous of your weight loss. I'm only on day 2 but I've read a lot of your posts and quite frankly I've found your journey inspiring

I have only told a couple of people that I'm on CD because people that I know, especially a few of my friends will try to put me off for various reasons! Don't let silly comments like that get to you! Xx

 

[xSinead]

Thanks so much everyone,
Spent 2 hours in the kitchen at my mums house tonight watching her cook roast chicken, mash potato & gravy.. sat there drinking my shake, and she's proud of me. I guess thats enough, knowing the people that matter the most like my family & my partner are proud of me. At the beginning of my journey i felt like i couldn't do this on my own & that i NEEDED support, but as the weeks have gone on i've realised that this is MY journey, nobody can do it for me, its down to me. I've proven myself wrong already and got this far.. i will NEVER have an eating dissorder at all, looking back at what the very pathetic woman said was just stupid and laughable, i'm 16 stone 10lb, still obese, i don't like the thought of food simply because i am not eating it at the moment. Maybe she is a bit envious, god knows.

Thanks everyone! I'm still here, i will be for the long run..
I hope we continue to support each other x x

 

[Souffle-la]

You go girl!

 

[CambridgeKez]

Let's face it, we're all here coz we have issues with food, ie obviously ate too much! End of. So we started CD through our own choice to do something about it. There's no underlying illness etc.
Whereas people with eating disorders rarely ask for help. They mask problems with food & eventually need clinics, Drs etc & don't walk into these places off their own back. They need therapy etc.
It's a diet. Simples. Its tough but works. If someone did CD with an ED I would imagine the results wud be catastrophic! That's why food only available through a CDC surely.
Ignore the numpty who judges u without a clue! Well done btw
Xxx

 

[xSinead]

Tar I know i'm doing amazing and been so lucky to never lose less than 2lb! Continuesly losing weight. x

 

[Starlight]

I think your attitude to food is more just an indication of how much in the right mind set you are for CD just now. People who haven't done a VLCD tend to be very short sighted. If you get to target and still have no interest in food then yeah maybe you're heading for a problem but as that's not the case - ignore them.

 

[Em_Butterfly]

Wasn't going to make a post about this but quite frankly i'm so upset..
I don't broadcast my bussiness, i never write status's about my weight issues on facebook, i use tumblr as a way of reflecting my feelings & thoughts, and of course this website because erm well, its a weight loss forum so kinda states the obvious.
I responded to something by saying my view on food is different to what it was 3/4 months ago.. I now see food as 'evil' maybe i didn't use the best of words, but to be honest thats how i feel. I don't ever crave food anymore, i don't ever get tempted like i did the first couple of weeks, i can sit and watch my partner eat a chinese and be quite content with my bottle of water, because i know i;m focussed and i know what i want. I used to think i LOVED food, but do you know what? I don't and i never did. I used it as a cover up so i didn't have to address myself or look at parts of myself that i've kept hidden for so long.. I've realised i love myself, my life and things around me more than i could ever possibly love any object of food. So i got a reply with 'sounds like you are on the verge of an eating disorder, be very very careful'

God knows what types of replies i'll get to this, i probably won't even check to see until later when i'm not so upset.
I genually feel like i've tried to support everyone on this website, judging by the amount of people who have added me on facebook from this site alone kind of backs that up and shows many people find me a support.

I hope you're ok? As everyone else has said you've been a huge inspiration on the forum and you are refreshingly honest as well as supportive to all. Don't let this get you down, wannabefitatthirty worded it perfectly x

 

[gorgehun80]

Hun you sound so much like me! ive only done 6 wks but cant even think of having any proper food. I used to also think i LOVED food and couldnt cram enough in my fab gob lol!! i think where we have broken that addiction to food its a good thing! i used to obsess over what i would eat next and always be running to asda to buy a family size choc bar etc! i am so glad i went on this diet! i am feeling so good! dont worry about peoples comments hun! they may be genuinely concerned but they dont know u or ur journey! chin up, dont let anyone get u down! u should beso proud of urself!! xx