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Last Friday I had my gym induction (at 8.30 in the evening)... all very good, but because the instructor waffled on for so long, and he took ages telling me how the little tv worked on the machines (i know that's a vital piece of knowledge to have!), i didn't have enough time to do my proper timed work-outs on all the different machines (because by this time, the gym was closing!).
I'm going this evening... but i am absolutely petrified. I'm worried that I won't remember all the settings (i know someone will be on hand to help), i'm worried that the gym will be busy (it was dead quiet last Friday), I'm afraid everyone will laugh and stare at me. I know they won't of course. But i'm still of the mind set that i'm "fat" - and even when I was looking at myself in the mirrors in the gym, I didn't actually think I looked that bad... but now the doubts are creeping back in.
I'm pretty sure I'm suffering from body dysmorphia (not medically diagnosed - but I have googled it!).
ARRRRGHHH. I know i haven't really got body dysmorphia - i don't obsessively pluck my eyebrows! but my head hasn't quite caught up with my body... and I'm not really seeing what's in the mirror.
I need a psychiatrist. Not the gym (erm. actually i do need both).
Help before i find an excuse not to go to the gym again today.
Lynne
x
PS sorry for the waffle.
Last Friday I had my gym induction (at 8.30 in the evening)... all very good, but because the instructor waffled on for so long, and he took ages telling me how the little tv worked on the machines (i know that's a vital piece of knowledge to have!), i didn't have enough time to do my proper timed work-outs on all the different machines (because by this time, the gym was closing!).
I'm going this evening... but i am absolutely petrified. I'm worried that I won't remember all the settings (i know someone will be on hand to help), i'm worried that the gym will be busy (it was dead quiet last Friday), I'm afraid everyone will laugh and stare at me. I know they won't of course. But i'm still of the mind set that i'm "fat" - and even when I was looking at myself in the mirrors in the gym, I didn't actually think I looked that bad... but now the doubts are creeping back in.
I'm pretty sure I'm suffering from body dysmorphia (not medically diagnosed - but I have googled it!).
ARRRRGHHH. I know i haven't really got body dysmorphia - i don't obsessively pluck my eyebrows! but my head hasn't quite caught up with my body... and I'm not really seeing what's in the mirror.
I need a psychiatrist. Not the gym (erm. actually i do need both).
Help before i find an excuse not to go to the gym again today.
Lynne
x
PS sorry for the waffle.