Beware! Emotional Woman Alert

[Pinkemi]

I’m sorry about this but I had to rant somewhere before I exploded!

My boyfriend and I had a massive row last night which ended up with us both in tears and we didn’t get much sleep.

I have woken up this morning in a really miserable ‘what is the point’ sort of mood. Got into work this morning and there was a massive birthday cake. Without considering the calorie content, I jumped right in and took a massive slice and ate it... It’s 9:30am!! I shouldn’t be eating that at this time of the morning... I shouldn’t be eating it at all. I now feel sick... because of the sugar content and it’s just made me feel more MEH than ever before. GRRRR!

You know what... I’m not sure I actually have a point to this thread. Just felt that I had to vent in order to stop me doing something else stupid and blowing my healthy eating completely out of the window.

I suppose at the moment I’m just feeling very sorry for myself. I try and constantly tell myself that there are others out there who have it much worse than me... Like the whole ‘I’m not dying... I have a home to live in and a job (for now.)’ There are others out there who have it a lot worse I know... But sometimes I just think ‘this is ridiculous!’

Sorry... it’s been a very hard past couple of months and I think it’s beginning to take its toll on me. L Need to get the positive attitude back before I end up crying at work. Meh.
:cry:

 

[HellieCopter]

Ahhhh don't worry! You did the right thing coming on here for a rant.

Forget the cake, it's done now and you can't do anything about it. Just count the cals and adjust the rest of the day/week, drink loads of water and try to remind yourself that you're only human, slips happen (sometimes cake attacks me without half as good a reason as you had!) and why you're dieting - to help you feel good about yourself!

There might be others worse off than you, but that doesn't affect YOU and how you're feeling - you're still entitled to feel rubbish.

I hope things pick up for you soon. We all go through these phases at some point, but it's just a phase...it will pass and things will get brighter.

xxx

 

[hannata]

Agreed, just move on and don't worry about it. One piece of cake will NOT send you back to your bad ways, or undo your hard work so far!!! Hopefully you sort things out with the OH and things start looking up for you soon xx

 

[KatiePillow]

When me and my OH argue, or I even feel bad I just want to binge, it's a natural response for people in our situation and it's why a lot of us are here (amongst other things)

I hope you both sort it out, and forget the cake, you can cut your calories by 50 or 75 for the next few days and you'll be fine just think, that's not even a slice of bread a day.
Hope the rest of your day is better, I was tempted to slip up during a lecture I didn't understand which I didn't feel up for anyway this morning. But just remember your goal and you'll be great
Good luck!

 

[Pinkemi]

I think what irritated me the most was the fact that it was such a small and stupid thing which just blazed into a full blown argument. I think the fact that Auntie Flow is due to stay really doesnt help things... but still... meh!

KatiePillow I hear what you are saying. I can admit now that all through my life I have used food as a substitute for happiness... which is stupid as the food doesn't make me happy because it keeps me fat! lol

Luckily I remembered to bring in a healthy salad for lunch today so it means I am not faced with the temptation of going to the shops. I find that I end up buying something because I've seen it... and suddenly I NEED THAT CHOCOLATE!

 

[KatiePillow]

I've done the same, I've found that cutting down on food has made me more irritable, and brought some things to the surface that were being happily suppressed by constantly eating. I cry a lot at the moment, but I am also finally being driven to make myself happy, and figure out what I need in life.
I've not had totm for about.. 2 years.. but I used to be a terror! So I think that might have contributed. And it always is the silly things that blow up..

Glad you've got a nice salad keep going, you'll feel great once you're on holiday.

 

[Pinkemi]

KatiePillow... You sound a lot like me recently. Crying more than I should and at really stupid things! (Like the recent argument! Ha! )

The one thing you and I both need to remember (I guess) is that we shouldn’t use food as a substitute for Happiness... as deep down its making us unhappy. (I’m sure a lot of people will agree with me on this.) I guess this is why I have begun to like calorie counting, as it means I can still have ‘naughty things’ as long as I am keeping in my calorie limit. I then feel that I’m not depriving myself. Most of the time it works... (apart from my blip yesterday. Hahah)

 

[KatiePillow]

You still sound more sane than me. I cried at an embroidered monster who was in a cardboard box saying 'free monster'. Think I am a bit emotionally broody atm (you should see me with baby animals *rolls eyes*

And you're 100% right, food is what makes us unhappy with ourselves long term, so that's priority #1!
TBH, with being allowed the naughty things, there's no real excuse for me to binge anyway, so I'm just plodding along atm!

 

[Pinkemi]

haha I think thats because (for some bizarre reason) I woke up in a good mood this morning. Maybe I had a good nights sleep or something.

I am the same with baby animals! (Depending on how cute they are.) I'm like...awhhhhhhh.

Lets hope for a good rest of the week!