Bigfatloser's Diary

[1bigfatloser]

So...I have been truely inspired by a lot of the diaries on this forum and I am starting my exante diet today so thought hey....why not write my own!!!

So a little about me, I am a 23 year old nurse with a very busy social life and a number of failed VLCD attempts behind me. I dont want any of my friends to know what I am doing so I also need to try and work around that as I go along...

I currently weigh 14 stone and my ultimate goal is 10 stone. I am hoping to do this by July for an event.

So today is my first day and I am sipping a banana milkshake as I type. I have decided to split all of my shakes and my tesco bars into two to make 6 small meals per day. I am also happy to throw in a WS meal if I am struggling as from previous experience if I do not do this it will end up in a binge and I will put on everything I have lost!

So heres to the first week, and hopefully quick ketosis!

 

[ladygaga]

Hello and welcome. Here's wishing you all the best of luck with your journey. Take care and keep strong xxx

 

[1bigfatloser]

Thank u and I see you have recently started too! Good luck on your journey,here's to two skinny minnies in a few months time!!!

 

[ladygaga]

Defintely that would be nice hey!! I did start it last January and was doing OK until Sept but had to stop for medical reasons so am now here to continue my journey to skinny-dom! Being on here certainly does help and the support is really lovely.

 

[1bigfatloser]

Yes the support on here looks great, and I am hoping it will get me through 4 months of dieting!!

I have so far had 1/2 shake and 1 bar so still got 1 1/2 to go, I am starving and already thinking about having a low carb meal however that is silly I know as I have the rest of my shakes to have which is probably why I am so hungry.

I live with my parents still as I am saving and although my mum knows about the diet my dad does not and really disagrees with any form of dieting that isnt basic eat less move more so I am unable to make the shakes infront of him. This makes it extremely difficult as I do not want to start an arguement in the house, he is going out in 2 hours so my choices are either wait until then to be able to have my shakes or have a low carb meal.

This will not be the situation every night and to be honest I have not been very organised today but now I am panicking that if I dont get something inside me soon I will binge!!!!! Ahhhhhhh, could do without this stress on day 1!!!!

 

[1bigfatloser]

Okay so I failed on day 1 had a tuna salad, babybel,cheestring and sum fruit,on the upside atleast it wasn't n e thing too bad.

I am determined for tomorrow to be a 100% day.really want to have a big loss this first week to get me going on my journey n keep my motivation up!!! I know that if my dad hadn't of ended up staying in all evening I wouldn't have broken the diet atall so I know I am able to do it...here's to another attempt at day 1 2mra x

 

[1bigfatloser]

Bad news still I am afraid, I have still not managed to start my exante journey.

I know from previous experiences that I need to be 100% in the right frame of mind to be able to succeed in this journey.

So as of tomorrow I am doing it 100%, I am at the point right now where I am sick of food, not bothered about nights out with my friends and just want to be thin!!!

So heres to tomorrow and this time I will succeed!!

 

[cherie_]

good luck for tomorrow, dont beat yourself up and keep on keeping on x it took me months of will I, wont I, to get to where i am today. i have been on it since tuesday and i have found that yes i have sneaked a bit of chicken here and there, i am not going to fall off the wagon!! if sneaking the diet is an issue may i suggest that you get a shake maker ( i found one in poundland today!!) keep it in your room and dad need never know x good luck hun you will get there x