Hi all i need some help or advice as i am so unhappy and dont know what to do anymore. I have been overeating my whole life and at 19 got to size 32 and 21 stone, i did a VLCD and lost 6 stone which was the best feeling in the world and really thought my troubles were over! how wrong....turns out me taking food out of my life worked but as soon as i came off the diet i went straight back to wanting to eat constantly. I developed bulimia from this as i was terrified of putting the weight back on. I have put a stone back on and people keep telling me how great ive done to keep most of the weight off but they dont know im making myself sick. I dont do it after every meal sometimes il go a week without doing it. It only happens when i go on a mad binge and i can spend a fortune on food, im in debt which is making me depressed so i eat more and so the cycle continues. This week ive had 5 binges and made myself sick after. If i ate a normal diet i wouldnt be sick at all but I cant stop doing it!! the only diets i stick to are the VLCD ones which leads me to believe im obviously addicted to food so as soon as I take it away i stick to it. I cant carry on like this it cant be doing my health any good! ive been to counselling for 5 months and it didnt work, she helped me with other stuff but she even admitted this eating disorder is one of the hardest to beat (great) no-one knows so im thinking about telling my mum? maybe if i tell someone close to me it may help as ive always been a secret eater. Im sure she is well aware of my bingeing but not sure she knows about me being sick. I wish i had the money to pay for a gastric band i really do as then i wouldnt be able to do this anymore. Has anyone else been through this? any advice would be gratefully received.