It's great you two have become pals. If you could pick one absolute best thing about your experience what would it be? Have either of you achieved another dream now, something you really wanted to do but couldn't before for example?
Hi Lyn
Tough question as there are just so many facets.
FOr me, the best thing to come of this, is I want to live now. Where as before,......well....lets just say life was pretty dark. This has given me my life back. And I have found myself again, and I hadn't been me for years and years and years.
Well, now, I can run. I can climb hills. I can walk into a room full of people and not want to dissappear. I can stand up for myself. I am no longer a door mat. I can wear heels. I can wear short skirts. I can look in mirrors. I can fight my corner. I have more confidence then I have ever had in my life.
I can get off the couch by standing up, not by leading with my belly and hoping for momentum. I can dance. I can face life.
THere is not one specific goal I wanted to do before and can do now. I just wanted to know what it was like, just once in my life, to be normal. ANd I am normal. I blend into the crowd. And if I choose, I can stand out in the crowd.
I have just landed an excellant job that I put myself out for. I have had three jobs since January each one better then the one before. I never would have had the confidence to decide "this one is not for me- lets find a better one" I would have accepted my crummy job and lived with it.
I always wondered what it was like to have your man carry you up the stairs. I now know. And its FAB.
I have now been able to confront many demons, and lay many ghosts to rest. Forever.
And I have learned to forgive myself.
I could go on and on and on. BUt you get the idea.
It's changed my life, immeasurably. And I wil never, ever go back to how I was before. And I know that.
It is worth every single bit of blood sweat and tears....every missed outing/event....every time watching others indulge and enjoy while I abstained....worth ever bit of it.
WOuld I do anything differently? Not a bloomin thing.
