Thanks for replying it feels so good to be back in the situation of having people to talk to. It's what makes the difference for me. I need to talk about it and have that weekly reckoning. Yesterday was good, made a lovely risotto that I used to make back in the day. Hubby to be loved it too. Started today with a cooked breakfast and there's risotto for later so nothing to lead me astray. Just have to ignore alcohol when in the pub later. OH and me are both musicians so we spend half our lives in pubs which is why I've put on so much weight! I'm doing dry January so that should help.
Catherine you're right to remember he's not marrying you for what you weigh. We all know it really but insecurities tend to be deep rooted. Have you had a chat with him about it? I spoke to mine yesterday and even just saying it even though I know he doesn't care about my size ( I was at my biggest when we met 6 years ago) it still helped me hearing him say it
Oh and I'm getting married in East Sussex and honeymooning in America for 3 and a half weeks! Can't believe it!