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x-Katie-x

Gold Member
S: 17st7lb C: 11st6lb G: 9st0lb BMI: 29.6 Loss: 6st1lb(34.69%)
#1

Blonde Logic

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S: 258lb C: 228lb G: 168lb BMI: 35.7 Loss: 30lb(11.63%)
#2
Hi Katie

I'm here. I'm 'ok'. Just really struggling with my neck at the moment. It's been really emotional, and I just feel like all I do is moan. I have not taken my diagnosis well at all. But its so bloooody painful - and I actually have a very high tolerance for pain - but this is really getting me. It's more a mental trip I think, because now that I know I can't be 'cured', and they can't fix it - the pain seems much more intolerable then it has for the past 11 months. Every time I move my neck at all, all I hear is crunching and grinding in my neck, and I just keep seeing my xray, and know that its my bones crushing my nerves and wearing away. Its a horrible sound, and I can't get away from it, or block it out. Its just "right there". I have just found this all terribly depressing, if I am honest. I'm struggling with the pain meds. They are quite strong on an almost empty stomach. I am waiting with baited breath for a physio referal as I am sure that will bring some relief. But now, I just cannot find any relief. At all. And I am tired of hurting. :cry:And I am pissed that is been making me cry. Grrrr. That's how I know I am at the end of my tether.

I think what it amounts too, is for the past 11 months I have used mental power to get through it - always believing it would be sorted. I am also using massive amount of mental power to stay focused on the diet and get through it. I think I have just run out of mental strength and the pain has finally won through.

It's just really got me down. And I feel like all I do is moan, so best not to open mouth or people will get sick of hearing me. :( I know I will snap out of this, I am resilient - but for now, it appears to have won this round of the battle.

I'm home again today - might be off and on, though will probably be spending a good deal of time in a hot bath or laying down. But I'm around, lurking if nothing else.

Thanks Katie. Appreciate your looking out for me. <hugs>

xx

Hope you too are feeling better and less sore today then yesterday.
 
#3
BL

Hiya, not sure what is wrong - but read the post and it seems pretty bad BL....Nothing worse than being in pain, sending lots of positive vibes your way xx
 

x-Katie-x

Gold Member
S: 17st7lb C: 11st6lb G: 9st0lb BMI: 29.6 Loss: 6st1lb(34.69%)
#5
Really horrid to know that you're suffering like that - really do wish there was something they could do that would instantly relieve you of it. You come on here and tell us about it whenever you want - you're not moaning, you're being honest xx
 


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