Can't stop eating!!

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  1. tashy100

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    Oh my god - I'm so fed up. I don't know what is wrong with me. I just can't seem to keep my hands off food at the moment. I go to bed every evening promising myself that I will be good tomorrow, wake up feeling just a bit less resolved and then finish the day with a god-almighty binge:(

    What on earth is going on. I have ordered myself 2 weeks worth of CD from ebay and it should come over the next couple of days but Im thinking now that it is going to be a waste of time as I just can't seem to stop myself.

    I am 11.11 and my ideal would be 9.7 but would be really happy with 10 stone. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!! I'm sooo stupid - have been gaining and losing the same 3lbs for months now when I know that a month of SS'ing would make such a difference - but bugger ss'ing I cant even stick to 1500cals per day.

    I just feel so large and bloated - I hate it when my other half touches me cos I feel so vile - just have to push him away. My mind keeps going around and around - liposuction / tummy tuck / weight loss spa / gastric band - why cant I just knuckle down and get on with it????

    Sorry - rant over - hopefully will feel a bit better now!

    Tasha
     
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    Tasha, of course you can stop eating! Any time you want to you can...maybe you've just gone into panic mode stufing yourself with all the food you love because you know your CD stuff isnt arriving for a few days?? Just out of interest, how come you bought from ebay and not from a CDC?

    Best of luck...
     
  4. Ajax

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    Awwww honey, sorry to hear you are feeling so pants, You know CD works and sometimes it is just a battle of minds when you give in to food. Just draw line under it, wait for your stuff to arrive and then make a promise to yourself that you will do it. Take each day at a time. Don't think long term.

    You'll be in the 9stones before you know it.

    Now my time to moan - why are you buying off ebay!? ? have you got a counsellor near by? At least you won't pay over the odds that way!!!

    You can do it, keep drinking water and coming on here every time you want to eat. Dont worry about whats happened in the last few months just crack on now. Good luck hun!
     
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    Thanks guys - this has been going on for ages and its got to stop. I do have a near-by counsellor who I have been to before - but I just cant face going back - it gets embarrassing you know - going back and not having lost any weight - showng in public my lack of self control when it comes to food - it doesnt matter that I know she has been there - I still feel crap about myself.

    I am just going to have to be strong - you are right it is a battle of wills - hopefully after the first 3-4 days it should get easier. My kids are with their Dad this weekend so maybe I should start on Thursday and hopefully be over the worst by Monday when I pick them up.

    Just like to say that there are some brave and strong people on here - so many of you have done so well:)
     
  6. dizzy-n-mizzy

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    Hi Tashy100

    Really sorry you are feeling so terrible at the moment and sad that you don't feel you can go back to your CDC. It seems to me you need the support of your CDC more than ever and I'm sure that he/she would understand and has seen it before. It obviously wasn't the time for you before. If you really can't face him/her how about finding another. You really don't want to be paying ebay prices, postage and not getting any additional services. Keep posting on minimims for extra support. Really hoping you start feeling better about yourself soon. I know I had a lot of your feelings before I started CD and I immediately felt so good once I started CD as I felt I was taking charge of my eating and doing something really good for myself.

    Best wishes

    Dizzy x
     
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    Hi Dizzy

    Thankyou so much for your kind words. I am hoping that I feel the same as you did once you started. I just want this useless and ashamed feeling to go away.

    By-the way - well done on your loss thats really great!!!:D You must be very chuffed with yourself and rightly so!:)

    Tasha
     
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    Tasha you are so welcome. I really hope you can feel better like I did, it really was instant as soon as I made the decision.

    My eating had escalated while my mum was ill at the beginning of the year and becoming more and more compulsive that's when I thought I would look into CD as I new wouldn't be able to manage on other diets. it was such a relief to take food totally out of the equation.

    You have so little to lose. If you can start to feel better about yourself (think of yourself as extra special during this time) you will soon be seeing the results and reaching your goal.

    Taking food out of the equation is a real + for those of us who compulsively eat when stressed. My mum is much better now and so this isn't such an issue for me but I do know that I turn to food when stressed and I know this is something I will always have to control and have strategies to deal with. You too will be able to work on this while losing the weight.

    Thankyou I am really proud of my weightloss and feel so good physically, emotionally, my brain is sharper again (a little anyway) more confident, better skin the list is endless. You will be proud of yourself too soon just have confidence in your ability to do this.

    Keep in touch

    Dizzy x
     
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    Thanks Dizzy - I will - we are at about the same point (except you've already done so well!) with similar goals - fancy buddying up??

    Glad your Mum is better.

    Tasha
     
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    Sure Tasha, I'll add you to my buddy list and send you the odd email if you wish? You are doing the right thing getting all the support you can. Have a think about getting a CDC for when your supply is low, but check them out first as you need someone that will be a positive support and you feel comfortable. You don't want to feel embarassed, it's not going to help!

    Dizzy x
     
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    Tashy, hun you are going through exactly whats been happening with me, I was 11,11lbs and now i have gone up to 12, 5lbs sometimes 12,8lbs :( cant stop eating and countless re-starts, its soo annoying I just wish i can get into that kick again. I want to be 10st, 5lbs ( 10 stones ideally) but the way i am going, scaled are moving in wrong direction. Its so frustating,
     
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    Hi Tash

    I know how you feel cos i've been going through the same thing lately. I got to my target in May and now i'm a stone heavier than where i want to be grrrr

    I think it's about mindset and how desperate we want it. I start each day very well with all intention of sticking to it but come evening time i'm like a junkie looking for my next fix. We just gotta be stronger than we have been as Grange Hill said a few years ago

    ...JUST SAY NO...

    PMSL - that's my motto from now on when my ***** of a chatterbox tells me that i deserve a massive pizza, a million choc bars and a zillion packets of crisps!!

    You can do it and so can i cos we hate being fat and believe me being on target is the most delicious feeling in the world - even better than that new pizza from pizza hut with the cheese bites instead of crust!! lol

    Just be strong!

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    ^ ah Karen, story of my life, contstant struggle, I have had countless re-starts aswell
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    tash, are you my twin?? i am just the same at the moment, i did 4 days on SS last week and lost about 9 lbs!! but then yesterday as we people for dinner i had plannned to eat so did and had 2 glasses of wine (never drink as it doesnt really agree with me!!) and today i am STARVING and keep popping out to the kitchen for something to eat, nothing is fillimg me up and i cant wait till bed time and when i dont have to deal with food anymore today, hope it will pass, i havent gone too mad and althought there is a box of chocs in the kitchen I have only had one and colud so easily eat the whole box, but I know that it wont do me any good and I will feel worse afterwards , but why do I want them anyway, the one i had I thought about while I ate it and came to the conclusion that it wasnt really very nice, so why is my chatterbox saying have some more?? well i am not going to , so F**k off!!! feel better now, chatterbox deosnt have any taste buds obviously!!!

    Anyway tash I hope you are having some success today, we have got to beat this thing.





    karen,
    you sound as peed off as me, food wise, i kid myself that if i didnt have a family and a husband it would be so easy as I just wouldnt have "bad" food in, but I can see dfrom your experience , no lifestyle protects you from the demon B***H chatterbox!!
    we just have to keep plugging away at it i guess!!
     
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    Hi Folks

    Thankyou for all of your kind posts - it nice to know Im not the only one!!!

    Things have been better these last few days. I was feeling so low with myself at the beginning of the week I felt that I had no control over what I was stuffing into my mouth - I wasnt even tasting or enjoying it - how bluddy stupid:eek: .

    Karen - I can totally relate to feeling like a junkie - that is how I get.

    I have had much more control the past couple of days - I think I need to get very far down in the pit before I decide that I have to do something.

    Having said that - I am absolutely STARVING today - had my 4 packs by 2pm!!!!!:eek: Think will have to have another tonight to stop me eating - am doing OH saugages and jacket potato for dinner :eek: :eek: :eek: - how cruel!!

    Hope you guys manage to overcome your own demons and get back on track - for me it is one day at a time - Im not promising anything(to myself) - just hoping that one day at a time I can chip away at it!!!!

    Loads of love

    Tasha:)
     
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    Tasha
    I'm a CDC and have had many clients who've come to me ... then disappeared for awhile and then come back. I NEVER judge them ... just start again. Buying off ebay has to be a big NO NO as you don't know where the packs have come from, if they're in date or if they've been tampered with (not wanting to upset you here - just state the obvious).

    The other side of the coin - as those who've been reading my diary know - is that I'm where you are .......... desperately wanting to lose weight, but sabotaging it and eating. The fact I'm a CDC doesn't help me with myself ... but it does mean I'm very empathetic (if that's a word!!!) with my clients who fall off the wagon.

    So I hope you do well at your SS ... and you'll go back to, or find another, CDC ............ and that we'll all see how well you're doing in yr battle against weight. The help and inspiration you get from people on here is phenominal and I hope to continue in my weight loss quest too!
     
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    Hi tasha,

    was there myself in the summer and lost the plot and kept trying to get back on the wagon and kept falling off and then I followed Sassy's way of getting back into SSing and it did work for me and I started SSing when my head was back in the right place.

    I think a lot of it is to do with getting use to living without the fat suit.

    Takes time for the head to adjust with everything as it does happen so fast.

    Easy way to Sole Source by Sassy!
    Beginning Sole Source the EASIER way

    SO, it’s the beginning of your sole source plan for the first time or fiftieth time!

    You have tried to get back on track and fallen off the plan over and over again. As an idea try this approach... You don’t want to fall into the SS-Binge cycle this early on in the plan... Or you could be on the road to a bigger problem.

    Whether you are new to Cambridge or you took a break whatever the reason...

    This is fine, and sensible, you have nothing to feel guilty about... You are a normal human being; don’t feel guilty for eating food!! Well all do it, and we all have certain commitments, family occasions, holidays, bad days etc… the list is endless!

    You would and will gain around 5-10lbs in water and glycogen when you leave SS suddenly, so you haven’t actually gained any real 'fat'.
    Look at the bigger picture here, this is a step towards a new future, becoming obsessed with restarting and falling off, can be a game you really don’t want to get involved with!

    Ok so its time to start or restart, it will be harder every time, each and every time we go back to SS it gets harder, and trust me the nearer you get to goal it can become impossible! My advise for first timers is this, go into Sole Source gradually, ask your CDC for advice, yes I understand we want to lose weight fast, but this is the tried and tested way, gradual step down in calorie intake, carbohydrate intake, can reduce all the painful effects of withdrawal and ensure a good start on the plan of your choice!

    I was just posting on another thread that talks about why do we have to have Add A Meal, you might find that interesting, as it applies to what I’m about to say here..

    Abstinence is painful to the mind.. It is severe, and we know it causes a strain on our lives, relationships, and 'normal living' due to the restriction of food.

    However, the reason you are back here again, or here for the first time is because you need that fast weight loss... If you really are serious about losing the rest of your weight, start or go back into Cambridge on a higher plan to begin with...





    DAY ONE.

    Allow yourself all the foods on the 1500 plan for one day; add in One Cambridge Diet pack for the day... EAT, GUILT FREE, enjoy it!!


    DAY TWO

    Move down to 1200Kcals. Slowly we are reducing the carbohydrate intake, and even the carbs we are taking are of a Low to medium Glycemic Index value... So the tired, sluggy feeling that carbs give us are limited.

    Also carbohydrates we were eating during our ‘before diet’ that contained refined sugars can alter our sugar levels and create the need for more food; this can be out of your control, the body can crave and demand more, leading to a break in abstinence!!

    INFORMATION TAKEN FROM THE HIBERNATION EFFECT THEORY:

    Did you know anytime you eat refined carbohydrates (bread, potatoes, chips, pastries, beer, pasta, rice and sweets), it is converted into sugar by your body during digestion. In order to use the sugar, your body then releases insulin required by your cells to convert the sugar into energy.
    But since our diet can be so heavily comprised of carbohydrates and sugar, your cells start to be insensitive to your own insulin due to this abundance, over time.

    In other words, your cells start to resist your own insulin and therefore, your body has to produce more insulin to get the same job done. Left untreated over time, your over-production of insulin will reach chronic levels.

    Now, the big problem is…this excess insulin is very bad for you! Excess insulin signals your body to store sugar as fat, and go into fat saving mode. It is as if your body thinks you're a hungry bear going into hibernation. Like the bear, your metabolism slows down and makes it impossible for you to lose weight no matter how hard you try. You're always tired and always hungry. So what do you do?

    You eat even more making you even more insulin resistant. A vicious cycle isn't it?

    Working down the Cambridge phases, these factors are now controlled by the GI Diet. Reducing all levels, and preparing your body for Sole Source.



    DAY THREE

    Another day over and complete... you will have already upped your water to above 2 1/2 litres a day... You will be eating ALL the food allowance in the 1200 plan, enjoying every meal adding your 2 packs of Cambridge diet a day.

    DAY FOUR

    You can begin to move onto the 1000 plan today. Still only 2 food packs, but the carbohydrate intake just reduced again dramatically... this stage can leave you feeling pretty hungry, but mind over matter, its still easier than trying to go back to SS if you are bingeing and falling off.

    DAY FIVE

    Sticking with the 1000 plan today, virtually a week has passed; mentally you are not abstaining in a painful way... Your body has reduced carb intake, fat intake, which will help reduce those headache side effects at the beginning of ketosis.
    You will feel the difference physically as well as on the scales. You will have a good weight loss so far, but NO PEEKING just yet! You are entering the diet plan with the right attitude... Ideally this should be spread over a couple of weeks (ask your CDC about the preparation stage, there are 4 stages to the Cambridge Health Plan, preparation, Weigh Loss, Stabilisation, And Maintenance. I know dieters minds, I have been there, and anyone that has done this plan before will want to jump straight back in!! we all know they don’t want to do a 'normal' diet for 3 weeks when they begin, they want to eat everything in sight the night before as a disastrous last supper and want to Sole Source immediately as they want to lose weight NOW.. Lol Be patient, this weight didn’t appear overnight, and keeping it off wont be that simple either.

    DAY SIX

    Drop your diet plan to 790, enjoy your proteins, and carbohydrate allowances, make sure you eat ALL you are allowed to eat, lose any fizzy diet drinks you may or maybe have been allowing yourself on the 1000 plan.. Include an extra pack now so you are consuming 3 packs, your meat, fish or cottage cheese allowance (measurements supplied in your yellow weight care with Cambridge booklet available from your CDC), or a combination of them. 2 1/2 litres of Plain water Minimum or water flavouring supplied by your CDC (personally I recommend upping your water to 3 or 4 litres if you can manage it), black tea, black coffee... and nothing else!!

    this next part is where I upset people..
    Sorry, but I’m not trying to do that, I’m trying to give you an alternative and effective route back to SS for those that have been unsuccessful in getting back on track..
    DON’T add ANYTHING extra to the plan that the book doesn’t recommend! That includes mints, fizzy drinks, marigold, blah blah...

    You want an easy route back, not a quick route back to DAY ONE AGAIN..

    Make this transaction as smooth as possible... e.g.: drive from Scotland to Birmingham... Don’t let’s drive past Devon on the way!

    I lost ten stone last year and for the last 2 stone dragged myself kicking and screaming... believe me when I say, if there was a way to cheat this diet and still get a good result, I looked for it!!
    I found out the hard way, there isn’t one!
    People, who add bits n bobs into the plan, may not even realise it at the time, but in the long run if you compare it to when you were A1 perfect, it was so much harder once you added things! The diet is tried and tested, and designed by a team of scientists; let’s not assume we know better than they did. If we did, would we be here now?

    DAY SEVEN

    Add A Meal... You may even be in ketosis... Don't test for it, it doesn’t matter...

    If you have done the plan to the T you will either be in, or on your way in the next 24/48 hours.

    And low and behold?

    DAY ONE OF WEEK TWO!!!! U DID IT!!!

    Guess what? You’re sole sourcing, with a lot more ease than you were last week when you tried... (Just don’t forget to add a meal after 4 weeks!)

    One last thing... a slow entry, leaves you with the knowledge that, if you need a break you can gently move up onto a plan that suits you for a period of time without any guilt, and consequently end your diet plan, happy, guilt free... And with a healthier perspective of food!

    Well folks, there is a different approach to starting or restarting...

    I tried all the other things.. Sometimes you can try and try and try and it will not matter you WILL NOT go back fast... However, some do.... and there will always be one that jumps back in feet first and gets it off again.
    I have done it 3 times now... gone back onto the plan to Recover from a holiday gain... I have had to recover time off for surgery and giving up smoking and lastly honeymoon over indulgence...

    All this was before I did the maintenance phase.. And my gains if I’m honest were due to not having done maintenance prior to these events consequently suffering guilt for eating... Inevitably resulting in eating more than I should have!

    I told you earlier, I try everything... Well I always have done... And I always learn the hard way...

    Don’t suffer my pain…
    Do it the right way to begin with, and leave on a more positive note than some of us who have struggled through our weight loss have done...

    For those that are beginning for the first time below see below the official steps to get off to a great start on your first time on Cambridge.

    Getting Ready

    Use the preparation phase to reduce food intake gradually, especially if you will use ‘Sole Source’ to lose weight. Reduce the levels of carbohydrate, fats and sugar before you start.
    Begin 1 or 2 steps above your weight loss programme. For example, if Step 2 (790 kcal) was going to be used for weight loss, start on Step 4 (1200 kcal) for three days, then move down to Step3 (1000 kcal) for four days before starting the weight loss proper. Gradually increase the amount of water you drink - especially important for those who have a history of constipation.


    :) Good Luck..
     
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    Thanks mini will give that a good go, as i keep getting today 3/4 and giving up!!
     
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    Heidi I'm doing this plan today - so I wish both of us luck!
     
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