SallyVater
Gold Member
Great loss girly! Stupid asthma though. God it's a PITA, I feel your pain. Keep going with the exercise though, it really makes a difference - without the allergens!
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Charleybarley
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RIGHT!
I have three months until I get on a plane to Barbados where I will embark the Azura ship for a two week cruise over Christmas - and I am dreading it as much as Mick is looking forward to it. Why? Well the answer is probably obvious but I will say it anyway.... I want to lose weight! I wanted to lose 4 stone for the cruise, a few weeks ago I would have been happy with losing 2 stone - now I will just be happy with what I weighed on the last cruise - which was about 1 stone less than what I currently am. I can put all the excuses in the way of me not losing weight - but the top and bottom of it is that I am weak. I know SW inside and out. Did that stop me from popping into boots for some toiletries this morning and grabbing a really delicious looking yogurt that any non-dieter would have snatched up a heartbeat? No. I had coconut and lime in t and it had my name written all over it - I ate it with gay abandon knowing it wasn't a 'good' Yog - knowing it wasn't SW friendly - I then calculated the syns - 11.5 syns for a fecking Yog. Of course today then turned into a spiral of food - a synny salad followed by 4 or 5 celebrations - and all the fruit that I bought ..... Anyway the truth is I haven't been that bad, but I haven't been good either
I am scared that the seat belt won't do up - when ever Mick mentions his excitement over the cruise I think 'my seat belt won't do up'. Whenever he gives me a count down of how many sleeps we have, I think 'my seat belt won't do up'
Tomorrow will be three months to the day that we depart - and tomorrow I want to turn over a new leaf....
This starts with a 3 hour Zumbathon, which I put my name down for. It's for a good cause but I am now scared shiteless, because I am unfit, but fook it, I will give it a go.
I can't say with any guarantee that I will be 100% in on plan for the next three months because then I will fail and feel bad about my promise - but I will try to do what I can and have as many 100% days as I can. I am going to plan my food and my days.
Please wish me luck, I am going to need it xx
I have three months until I get on a plane to Barbados where I will embark the Azura ship for a two week cruise over Christmas - and I am dreading it as much as Mick is looking forward to it. Why? Well the answer is probably obvious but I will say it anyway.... I want to lose weight! I wanted to lose 4 stone for the cruise, a few weeks ago I would have been happy with losing 2 stone - now I will just be happy with what I weighed on the last cruise - which was about 1 stone less than what I currently am. I can put all the excuses in the way of me not losing weight - but the top and bottom of it is that I am weak. I know SW inside and out. Did that stop me from popping into boots for some toiletries this morning and grabbing a really delicious looking yogurt that any non-dieter would have snatched up a heartbeat? No. I had coconut and lime in t and it had my name written all over it - I ate it with gay abandon knowing it wasn't a 'good' Yog - knowing it wasn't SW friendly - I then calculated the syns - 11.5 syns for a fecking Yog. Of course today then turned into a spiral of food - a synny salad followed by 4 or 5 celebrations - and all the fruit that I bought ..... Anyway the truth is I haven't been that bad, but I haven't been good either
I am scared that the seat belt won't do up - when ever Mick mentions his excitement over the cruise I think 'my seat belt won't do up'. Whenever he gives me a count down of how many sleeps we have, I think 'my seat belt won't do up'
Tomorrow will be three months to the day that we depart - and tomorrow I want to turn over a new leaf....
This starts with a 3 hour Zumbathon, which I put my name down for. It's for a good cause but I am now scared shiteless, because I am unfit, but fook it, I will give it a go.
I can't say with any guarantee that I will be 100% in on plan for the next three months because then I will fail and feel bad about my promise - but I will try to do what I can and have as many 100% days as I can. I am going to plan my food and my days.
Please wish me luck, I am going to need it xx
Zappacat
Full Member
Aw Charley I'm so sorry you're feeling like this. 
I wish I could help in a practical way but I'm here for you and will definitely be in your corner cheering you on. I think that when you decide to do it for yourself and sod everyone else the weight is going to fall off. I think you can do 2st by your cruise. You are a very strong and determined woman and I know you can do it! xx
I wish I could help in a practical way but I'm here for you and will definitely be in your corner cheering you on. I think that when you decide to do it for yourself and sod everyone else the weight is going to fall off. I think you can do 2st by your cruise. You are a very strong and determined woman and I know you can do it! xx
xmisskx
Gold Member
Aww charley....
Just take each day as it comes...each meal even...and just go with the flow, if you have something that's not "good" or wasn't planned, then just accept you've had it...move on and try to make your next meal "good" - cos then you'll feel proud that you didn't let it spiral AND you'll have gotten right back on it
Instead if think ffs...I had those chocolates, or whatever, say thank god I didn't have those x,y,z...yay! Go me!
cut yourself slack and ease off on the pressure! We always want to rebel and it's us who set it up for ourselves?!
We've all been there...you know it...and you know it's easier to give advice than listen to it for ourselves!
Losing weight is tough...the mental side of it is tougher...I really do wish one day we'll find a happy place...either that or a quick, permanent fix!
:giggle: We're all here...being able to relate to some if not all of how you're feeling...xx
Ps...zumbathon??? Girl you earned that yog & sweets cos it'll be more than worked off tm!! Hehe x
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Tetris
Gold Member
Sorry to hear you are so down about the cruise- shame you cant be excited
Why dont you try and think short term- challenge yourself to a full week of 100% on plan? That first week is always the hardest as we fight the cravings- it takes 3-4 days to get the extra antibodies out of our system that are produced to fight off naughty food that our bodies expect when it has recently been put in the system- so that first week is chemically very hard, but push through it and you might feel better! Playing "half on plan" never detoxes that crap out of the system so our bodies are still chemically craving it... So even though it may feel easier to have naughy days, it genuinely makes things harder
Good luck with the 3hr zumbathon- sounds insane!! X
Why dont you try and think short term- challenge yourself to a full week of 100% on plan? That first week is always the hardest as we fight the cravings- it takes 3-4 days to get the extra antibodies out of our system that are produced to fight off naughty food that our bodies expect when it has recently been put in the system- so that first week is chemically very hard, but push through it and you might feel better! Playing "half on plan" never detoxes that crap out of the system so our bodies are still chemically craving it... So even though it may feel easier to have naughy days, it genuinely makes things harder
Good luck with the 3hr zumbathon- sounds insane!! X
Charleybarley
Gold Member
Sorry for the radio silence this weekend Ladies, for some reason minimins froze on my phone and my laptop is useless so i had to wait until I was back at work to respond. Firstly, thank you Ladies for you unbound support, it really made me feel good reading your responses - it was just what I needed...
Thanks Zappacat I really appreciated you saying that. I can feel you cheering me on already! I think 2st is doable, but I am not going to aim for it now, because I think I pressurise myself when I give myself aims and goals - instead I will just plod on and try to stay on track and if I lose 2 stone then fab, I am happy.
You are doing so darn well, look at all those stickers, I would give anything for your will power! Its such hard work to lose weight and you have done so amazingly well to be strong.
xxx
Thanks Miss K! I usually do take each day as it comes but knowing that the holiday looms closer, I have started to dread it than be excited about it and all because of my weight, I can almost hear the ticking of the countdown timer of 12 weeks to go and I have spent the whole of this year with my thumb up my butt as opposed to losing weight which was the plan!
You are so right, the mental side of losing weight is so much tougher than the physical side of it. I know what I need to do, I am reasonably fit and exercise well, its just that my heart desires these banned foods and nothing can stop it from getting what it wants! It is like I am possessed. I have said in the past its like an inner beast, like a kracken, that lays dormant and then all of a sudden he wakes up and takes over my body and self control!
The beauty of this forum is that I am sure most people on here know exactly what I am getting at and understand me, which is what I love about this place the most.
Dusting myself off and moving on now!
Thanks Sophie, right! You are right! One week, 100% - starting today, I can do this. I need to do this!
xxxx
Aw Charley I'm so sorry you're feeling like this.
I wish I could help in a practical way but I'm here for you and will definitely be in your corner cheering you on. I think that when you decide to do it for yourself and sod everyone else the weight is going to fall off. I think you can do 2st by your cruise. You are a very strong and determined woman and I know you can do it! xx
Thanks Zappacat I really appreciated you saying that. I can feel you cheering me on already! I think 2st is doable, but I am not going to aim for it now, because I think I pressurise myself when I give myself aims and goals - instead I will just plod on and try to stay on track and if I lose 2 stone then fab, I am happy.
You are doing so darn well, look at all those stickers, I would give anything for your will power! Its such hard work to lose weight and you have done so amazingly well to be strong.
xxx
Aww charley....
Just take each day as it comes...each meal even...and just go with the flow, if you have something that's not "good" or wasn't planned, then just accept you've had it...move on and try to make your next meal "good" - cos then you'll feel proud that you didn't let it spiral AND you'll have gotten right back on it
Instead if think ffs...I had those chocolates, or whatever, say thank god I didn't have those x,y,z...yay! Go me!
cut yourself slack and ease off on the pressure! We always want to rebel and it's us who set it up for ourselves?!
We've all been there...you know it...and you know it's easier to give advice than listen to it for ourselves!
Losing weight is tough...the mental side of it is tougher...I really do wish one day we'll find a happy place...either that or a quick, permanent fix!
We're all here...being able to relate to some if not all of how you're feeling...xx
Ps...zumbathon??? Girl you earned that yog & sweets cos it'll be more than worked off tm!! Hehe x
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Thanks Miss K! I usually do take each day as it comes but knowing that the holiday looms closer, I have started to dread it than be excited about it and all because of my weight, I can almost hear the ticking of the countdown timer of 12 weeks to go and I have spent the whole of this year with my thumb up my butt as opposed to losing weight which was the plan!
You are so right, the mental side of losing weight is so much tougher than the physical side of it. I know what I need to do, I am reasonably fit and exercise well, its just that my heart desires these banned foods and nothing can stop it from getting what it wants! It is like I am possessed. I have said in the past its like an inner beast, like a kracken, that lays dormant and then all of a sudden he wakes up and takes over my body and self control!
The beauty of this forum is that I am sure most people on here know exactly what I am getting at and understand me, which is what I love about this place the most.
Dusting myself off and moving on now!
Sorry to hear you are so down about the cruise- shame you cant be excited
Why dont you try and think short term- challenge yourself to a full week of 100% on plan? That first week is always the hardest as we fight the cravings- it takes 3-4 days to get the extra antibodies out of our system that are produced to fight off naughty food that our bodies expect when it has recently been put in the system- so that first week is chemically very hard, but push through it and you might feel better! Playing "half on plan" never detoxes that crap out of the system so our bodies are still chemically craving it... So even though it may feel easier to have naughy days, it genuinely makes things harder
Good luck with the 3hr zumbathon- sounds insane!! X
Thanks Sophie, right! You are right! One week, 100% - starting today, I can do this. I need to do this!
xxxx
Charleybarley
Gold Member
Monday - Day 1 (mission: to be 100% on plan for at least 7 days)
Hello all Thanks again to the ladies above who responded to my nuts and crazy post of my wailing about my first world problems of eating too much!!
So, forgetting my minor breakdown I have decided that so what if I cant fit in the plane seat and I have to go in the hold with the luggage, or at very least ask for a seatbelt extension, I should be looking forward to this holiday, its been the first one in well over a year and we saved so hard for it. My plan is obviously NOT to have to ask for an extension, I haven't ever had to before, so I don't think I will now.
My new mission is to be 100% for 7 days - lets see if I can do it....
Zumbathon - it was really good fun, I didn't find it at all difficult stamina wise but my bunion was throbbing in the end. I was very proud of myself for being able to do all of it, I think because I have been doing T25 on and off for a while that I have obviously built up my stamina. But by jove do I ache today!!!!
It was a great afternoon and we helped raise over £800 - it really puts everything into perspective - there's me whinging and moaning about how I can't stop stuffing my face, and there is my friend who battled (and won) the breast cancer fight and is always doing things to raise money for the cause! Here's a pic:
I am front and centre in all black with white square patch on my vest!
So on the food horizon today:
B - 2 LMc ROAR Sausages
L - Roast Tomato and Black Eyed Bean Soup (thanks a billion for the recipe I found on here!) with WW Petit Pain and spread (HEB + 2 syns)
Snacks - Banana and Mango Yog (.5)
D - Chicken Stew
HEA in 2 x coffees and a cappucino (although probs not enough)
Not planning on having anymore syns today unless I get hungry later - Its a little on the low side, but one day won't hurt.
Hello all Thanks again to the ladies above who responded to my nuts and crazy post of my wailing about my first world problems of eating too much!!
So, forgetting my minor breakdown I have decided that so what if I cant fit in the plane seat and I have to go in the hold with the luggage, or at very least ask for a seatbelt extension, I should be looking forward to this holiday, its been the first one in well over a year and we saved so hard for it. My plan is obviously NOT to have to ask for an extension, I haven't ever had to before, so I don't think I will now.
My new mission is to be 100% for 7 days - lets see if I can do it....
Zumbathon - it was really good fun, I didn't find it at all difficult stamina wise but my bunion was throbbing in the end. I was very proud of myself for being able to do all of it, I think because I have been doing T25 on and off for a while that I have obviously built up my stamina. But by jove do I ache today!!!!
It was a great afternoon and we helped raise over £800 - it really puts everything into perspective - there's me whinging and moaning about how I can't stop stuffing my face, and there is my friend who battled (and won) the breast cancer fight and is always doing things to raise money for the cause! Here's a pic:
I am front and centre in all black with white square patch on my vest!
So on the food horizon today:
B - 2 LMc ROAR Sausages
L - Roast Tomato and Black Eyed Bean Soup (thanks a billion for the recipe I found on here!) with WW Petit Pain and spread (HEB + 2 syns)
Snacks - Banana and Mango Yog (.5)
D - Chicken Stew
HEA in 2 x coffees and a cappucino (although probs not enough)
Not planning on having anymore syns today unless I get hungry later - Its a little on the low side, but one day won't hurt.
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rubyeskimo
Silver Member
Oooh that soup looks delicious, recipe please! Well done on the zumbathon, that is something to be proud of! I think just focusing on sticking to plan and seeing where it gets you is the best thing. In the back on my mind I'm aware that I have targets I'd like to meet, but just sticking to plan and carrying on with it is when I've had the most success. When I kept pressuring myself to lose as much weight as possible every week because I had to meet a deadline is when I fell off the wagon and took a million steps backwards. We're all here to support you and I'm sure you'll do really well before you go on your cruise!
Charleybarley
Gold Member
I think you are right Hun, I am just going to concentrate on sticking to plan rather than numbers on a scale. The soup is amazing, so good. I found it because I was looking for a way to use up a ton of tomatoes I had picked from my parents allotment!
I think this is one of the best soups I have ever tasted.
Smoky black bean and roast tomato soup (Free on Green/EE
For the salsa:
1 small red onion, very finely chopped
100g sweetcorn kernels
1 red chilli, deseeded & finely chopped
juice of 1/2 a lime
small bunch of coriander, leaves only, finely chopped
For the soup:
12 whole tomatoes
2 red onions, chopped
3 garlic cloves, finely chopped
2 tsp chipotle paste
1tsp dried oregano
1 tbsp cumin seeds
700g cooked black eyed beans (you can either use 700g tinned or soak dried ones overnight - about 200-250g dry weight)
750 ml veg stock
juice of 1/2 a lime
- Soak beans overnight if you are using dried ones
- When ready to cook heat oven to 190C/fan 170C/gas 5
- Cut tomatoes in half, lay cut-side up on a baking tray, sprinkle with salt, spray with Fry Light and roast for 30 mins
Next make the salsa:
- Fry onion in Fry Light for 5 min until soft
- Add sweetcorn & chilli and cook on high until start to go brown
- Take off the heat, season with salt, pepper and lime juice and set aside
- Next do soup - cook onions in Fry Light until translucent (but not brown), add garlic, chipotle paste, oregano and cumin seeds and cook for 5 min until cumin fragrant.
- Add tomatoes, beans and veg stock, bring to the boil and simmer for 30 min. Season with salt, pepper and lime juice then liquidise in a blender.
- Add coriander to the salsa
- Season soup to taste, top with a spoonful of salsa and serve
I think this is one of the best soups I have ever tasted.
Smoky black bean and roast tomato soup (Free on Green/EE
For the salsa:
1 small red onion, very finely chopped
100g sweetcorn kernels
1 red chilli, deseeded & finely chopped
juice of 1/2 a lime
small bunch of coriander, leaves only, finely chopped
For the soup:
12 whole tomatoes
2 red onions, chopped
3 garlic cloves, finely chopped
2 tsp chipotle paste
1tsp dried oregano
1 tbsp cumin seeds
700g cooked black eyed beans (you can either use 700g tinned or soak dried ones overnight - about 200-250g dry weight)
750 ml veg stock
juice of 1/2 a lime
- Soak beans overnight if you are using dried ones
- When ready to cook heat oven to 190C/fan 170C/gas 5
- Cut tomatoes in half, lay cut-side up on a baking tray, sprinkle with salt, spray with Fry Light and roast for 30 mins
Next make the salsa:
- Fry onion in Fry Light for 5 min until soft
- Add sweetcorn & chilli and cook on high until start to go brown
- Take off the heat, season with salt, pepper and lime juice and set aside
- Next do soup - cook onions in Fry Light until translucent (but not brown), add garlic, chipotle paste, oregano and cumin seeds and cook for 5 min until cumin fragrant.
- Add tomatoes, beans and veg stock, bring to the boil and simmer for 30 min. Season with salt, pepper and lime juice then liquidise in a blender.
- Add coriander to the salsa
- Season soup to taste, top with a spoonful of salsa and serve
Charleybarley
Gold Member
So to update I had a HiFi on the train, as I was hungruls which was 6 and I added a tbsp of bisto to the Stew, between two people I would say another 2 so that's 8 and also the 2.5 Today is 12.5 - not too shabby at all!
X
Charleybarley
Gold Member
Tuesday - WI day 
So I weigh in tonight, I have therefore been very careful today (shame I haven't been very careful this last week!)
I have had a pretty boring day at work and I am feeling a bit lacklustre (probably because I have spent the whole day doing not much). But I have drank my 2litres of water and 3 black coffees, so I should be raring.
I weirdly feel like I have lost weight, because I have been feeling really good about myself since the Zumba, but in all honesty, with the iffy couple of weeks I have had, I am not too confident - ah well, I have found my mojo and I hope my mojo stays with me for Day 2 of being 100%.
Foods so far:
B - 2 LMc ROAR saussies (I love these things!)
S - 2 doughnut peaches and some grapes
L - Jacket Potato with small tin of spaghetti hoops and cheese (HEA) and salad (1) for dressing.
S - 2 nectarines
Post WI snack - Small HiFi Bar (3)
D - Is going to be more of my delish HM soup with salsa and I am having 2xWW Petit Pain rolls (HEB) with cheese (1 HEA+6 syns) to accompanying it. I have been dreaming of my evening meal all day long!!!!
Syns - 10.
So I weigh in tonight, I have therefore been very careful today (shame I haven't been very careful this last week!)
I have had a pretty boring day at work and I am feeling a bit lacklustre (probably because I have spent the whole day doing not much). But I have drank my 2litres of water and 3 black coffees, so I should be raring.
I weirdly feel like I have lost weight, because I have been feeling really good about myself since the Zumba, but in all honesty, with the iffy couple of weeks I have had, I am not too confident - ah well, I have found my mojo and I hope my mojo stays with me for Day 2 of being 100%.
Foods so far:
B - 2 LMc ROAR saussies (I love these things!)
S - 2 doughnut peaches and some grapes
L - Jacket Potato with small tin of spaghetti hoops and cheese (HEA) and salad (1) for dressing.
S - 2 nectarines
Post WI snack - Small HiFi Bar (3)
D - Is going to be more of my delish HM soup with salsa and I am having 2xWW Petit Pain rolls (HEB) with cheese (1 HEA+6 syns) to accompanying it. I have been dreaming of my evening meal all day long!!!!
Syns - 10.
Fatbeautyx
Full Member
Tuesday - WI day
So I weigh in tonight, I have therefore been very careful today (shame I haven't been very careful this last week!)
I have had a pretty boring day at work and I am feeling a bit lacklustre (probably because I have spent the whole day doing not much). But I have drank my 2litres of water and 3 black coffees, so I should be raring.
I weirdly feel like I have lost weight, because I have been feeling really good about myself since the Zumba, but in all honesty, with the iffy couple of weeks I have had, I am not too confident - ah well, I have found my mojo and I hope my mojo stays with me for Day 2 of being 100%.
Foods so far:
B - 2 LMc ROAR saussies (I love these things!)
S - 2 doughnut peaches and some grapes
L - Jacket Potato with small tin of spaghetti hoops and cheese (HEA) and salad (1) for dressing.
S - 2 nectarines
Post WI snack - Small HiFi Bar (3)
D - Is going to be more of my delish HM soup with salsa and I am having 2xWW Petit Pain rolls (HEB) with cheese (1 HEA+6 syns) to accompanying it. I have been dreaming of my evening meal all day long!!!!
Syns - 10.
Yay for WI DAY
Best of luck for you tonight gorgeous
I always think even if I stay the same Its also about how I feel. Did I push myself harder this week ? Do I feel good this week?
Fingers crossed for you lovely xxx
Happy Holidays
Gold Member
So how did WI go???????
Charleybarley
Gold Member
Thanks lovely ladies. Half off in two weeks!! In all honesty I am neither happy not disappointed. I feel like I made a bit of a breakthrough with my positivity and willpower. Sophie (Tetris) suggesting to aim for 100% in one week, 7 days is nothing - strangely also my scales have run out of battery and I told Mick not to bother replacing it, and weirdly not having scales to jump on as and when has spurred me on? I don't know why I supposed I am looking forward to the anticipation of official WI now.
A really slim lady lost 3lb at class last night and honestly I should be losing that amount most weeks...there is only one thing stopping me from achieving that...me
I can do this!
A really slim lady lost 3lb at class last night and honestly I should be losing that amount most weeks...there is only one thing stopping me from achieving that...me
I can do this!
Charleybarley
Gold Member
Yay for WI DAY
Thank you FB - I saw half off and said out loud, oh fxck! But then immediately thought of what you said - do I feel good - and yes I do, I felt slimmer yesterday - I know it's a stupid thing to say but I felt amazing because I have been good and eating well - drinking lots of water and eating veg and fruit and mainly I haven't been cheating, it's a bit of a euphoric feeling.
The consultant got to talking about not what the scales say but how your clothes feel and how you feel and set us a challenge of finding something new that doesn't fit or old that used to fit and trying it on and using that as inspiration instead of relying on numbers on a machine. She produced this saucy little Santa suit from ann summers that she wore two Christmases ago and it was tiny (my C has had health problems and struggles with her weight) and she vows to get into it by next Christmas. So at the weekend I am going to get all my vacuum packed clothes out of my storage cupboard and find something to get into.
Charleybarley
Gold Member
Thanks rosa, how is your mojo my lovely? Are you doing ok? Xx
Rosielea
Gold Member
Well done for your loss. Look at it this way that you have lost and not gained. Love your new approach.
My losses have been very slow again but I am fine with it as I have been doing a lot of physical in the heat and not enough water. Now slowed down on the work - well my body is exhausted but my mind it clear (not have to think about all the jobs that need doing around the house). As of yesterday, I reduced physical activities and increased water intake. Lets see what happens.
Have a lovely rest of the week.
