cheekychinchilla
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Hey matey!
I did remember something else I spend money on and that's getting my hair done. But it's Mum's friend who comes to the house, so really cheap. I did think about stopping it - she comes every 2 months - but my hair is so bad at the moment, it's falling out and really thin. I don't straighten it any more and leave it curly so it looks like there's more than there is. I have to be really careful when I put my hair up too because it is so thin you can often see my scalp or patches
So I don't really want to stop having my hair done, coz I guess I might as well make what's left look nice. She's even bought colours that are extra kind and more conditioning for me
I always justify getting my hair done with "I don't drink often, I don't go on nights out, I don't smoke, etc..." But I like having my hair done and the colours I have. Maybe I will have to let it go, but getting it done tomorrow and that will last 2 months. And who knows where we'll be in two months eh?
The thing with my job is that an animal's life would never really be in my hands anyway. You could argue with anaesthetic monitoring, but the vet is ultimately in charge anyway, and the dizzy spells don't happen suddenly, I can feel and see them coming on. So would be easy enough to tell the vet and grab someone's attention. Apart from that it's more mine or another staff members safety - restraining aggressive or large animals, stuff like that. And the headache's are constant. They vary in intensity, but yeah, they never ever go away, so have learned to deal with that. Stuff like making sure the room is well lit, not too much noise, wear my glasses when I'm particularly blurry, etc...
I know I wouldn't be able to keep up with the speed and amount of work done normally, but again, it's short term, and I'm sure the friends I have would support me. As I would them.
I think I have learned to cope pretty well with my symptoms, obv some really are that bad and I do need a bit of time to let it happen and then I can carry on. And with work I guess I really don't know until I try.
I was laughing about running to the car park the other day. I was stressed out of my head, I ran the whole way, had a mild anxiety attack, my asthma kicked off and I could barely breathe, BUT I didn't pass out and actually it didn't even kick off a dizzy spell. And that was major, major stress!
I am noticing more and more that eating is bringing on dizzy spells. It's like my energy goes to digesting and stuff and it makes me very week and dizzy. Something "interesting" to bring up
I'm just sick of worrying, you know? Just sick of everything! I was so looking forward to this year, but it totally needs re-doing! Have already decided that when I'm earning my proper money again I am going to save up and aim to go dog sledding again in 18months/2years. I would really like to re-do that without being ill.
So, losing weight again and dog sledding will be my new long-ish term goal
For now though, course work, back to work plan, Endocrine appointment next week, and lets see where I stand. Oh and sticking to SW obv
Back to it today but feel a bit sick and meh, so will have some Weetabix in a bit and then see how I feel later. Not much planned for this week so shouldn't be too many temptations to stray off plan. And I had pic & mix yesterday at the cinema and I'm going to only allow that maybe once or twice a month, so definitely not this week.
Just want to say thank you to you all for sticking with me. It's obvious that y'all genuinely care about me and just want what's best for me and for me to get better. I've made some amazing friends online and you guys are awesome.xx
I did remember something else I spend money on and that's getting my hair done. But it's Mum's friend who comes to the house, so really cheap. I did think about stopping it - she comes every 2 months - but my hair is so bad at the moment, it's falling out and really thin. I don't straighten it any more and leave it curly so it looks like there's more than there is. I have to be really careful when I put my hair up too because it is so thin you can often see my scalp or patches
So I don't really want to stop having my hair done, coz I guess I might as well make what's left look nice. She's even bought colours that are extra kind and more conditioning for me
I always justify getting my hair done with "I don't drink often, I don't go on nights out, I don't smoke, etc..." But I like having my hair done and the colours I have. Maybe I will have to let it go, but getting it done tomorrow and that will last 2 months. And who knows where we'll be in two months eh?
The thing with my job is that an animal's life would never really be in my hands anyway. You could argue with anaesthetic monitoring, but the vet is ultimately in charge anyway, and the dizzy spells don't happen suddenly, I can feel and see them coming on. So would be easy enough to tell the vet and grab someone's attention. Apart from that it's more mine or another staff members safety - restraining aggressive or large animals, stuff like that. And the headache's are constant. They vary in intensity, but yeah, they never ever go away, so have learned to deal with that. Stuff like making sure the room is well lit, not too much noise, wear my glasses when I'm particularly blurry, etc...
I know I wouldn't be able to keep up with the speed and amount of work done normally, but again, it's short term, and I'm sure the friends I have would support me. As I would them.
I think I have learned to cope pretty well with my symptoms, obv some really are that bad and I do need a bit of time to let it happen and then I can carry on. And with work I guess I really don't know until I try.
I was laughing about running to the car park the other day. I was stressed out of my head, I ran the whole way, had a mild anxiety attack, my asthma kicked off and I could barely breathe, BUT I didn't pass out and actually it didn't even kick off a dizzy spell. And that was major, major stress!
I am noticing more and more that eating is bringing on dizzy spells. It's like my energy goes to digesting and stuff and it makes me very week and dizzy. Something "interesting" to bring up
I'm just sick of worrying, you know? Just sick of everything! I was so looking forward to this year, but it totally needs re-doing! Have already decided that when I'm earning my proper money again I am going to save up and aim to go dog sledding again in 18months/2years. I would really like to re-do that without being ill.
So, losing weight again and dog sledding will be my new long-ish term goal
For now though, course work, back to work plan, Endocrine appointment next week, and lets see where I stand. Oh and sticking to SW obv
Back to it today but feel a bit sick and meh, so will have some Weetabix in a bit and then see how I feel later. Not much planned for this week so shouldn't be too many temptations to stray off plan. And I had pic & mix yesterday at the cinema and I'm going to only allow that maybe once or twice a month, so definitely not this week.
Just want to say thank you to you all for sticking with me. It's obvious that y'all genuinely care about me and just want what's best for me and for me to get better. I've made some amazing friends online and you guys are awesome.xx
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