Cheekychinchilla's food and stuff
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cheekychinchilla
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Hey guys!
Sophie it drives me nuts that my body is so crazy. And it's really difficult because I know it is all probably down to the overproduction of hormones I have, which can't be controlled!!
I just have to keep reminding to myself of what will happen if I give up on SW and go back to my old eating habits. But it is frustrating.
I have to admit that the last couple of days have been pretty bad *blush* And I've been invited out tonight too, so that wont help lol. And seen as I'm actually not driving for once I will be letting myself have a glass of wine
But from tomorrow I have nothing planned for a week and I really need to stop with the excuses. I have 38weeks until my holiday - not told you about that yet lol - which means if, by some miracle, I manage to lose an average of 1lb per week I will have lost 2st7lb!! And that would be God damn awesome So, from now on if I am wobbling and thinking of straying (unless it's a planned meal or summit) I need to think of going on holiday and how much happier and comfortable I will feel with that weight off. A pretty good incentive I feel
Had a good birthday yesterday. Although a LOT of driving!! Rachelle came round for a cuppa and for me to open my prezzies - a good haul guys, pretty amazing Then we went to Moose Coffee in Crosby, which was lovely. And we had a wander around the shops where my Dad used to live. It was bloody freezing lol!! Drove us home, which took forever in rush hour,, then Mum and Rachelle needed a supermarket stop, we came home and fed the dogs and sat with them for a bit, then off to the cinema to see Ex Machina - superb film - and some pick and mix!! And a stop at Sainsbury's on the way back because I wanted pizza for tea and the car was running on fumes
Then I spent the whole night in agony with my gallbladder......will I ever learn?!! lol
Right, I will be back tomorrow with a proper food diary and hopefully some enthusiasm xx
Sophie it drives me nuts that my body is so crazy. And it's really difficult because I know it is all probably down to the overproduction of hormones I have, which can't be controlled!!
I just have to keep reminding to myself of what will happen if I give up on SW and go back to my old eating habits. But it is frustrating.
I have to admit that the last couple of days have been pretty bad *blush* And I've been invited out tonight too, so that wont help lol. And seen as I'm actually not driving for once I will be letting myself have a glass of wine
But from tomorrow I have nothing planned for a week and I really need to stop with the excuses. I have 38weeks until my holiday - not told you about that yet lol - which means if, by some miracle, I manage to lose an average of 1lb per week I will have lost 2st7lb!! And that would be God damn awesome
So, from now on if I am wobbling and thinking of straying (unless it's a planned meal or summit) I need to think of going on holiday and how much happier and comfortable I will feel with that weight off. A pretty good incentive I feel Had a good birthday yesterday. Although a LOT of driving!! Rachelle came round for a cuppa and for me to open my prezzies - a good haul guys, pretty amazing
Then we went to Moose Coffee in Crosby, which was lovely. And we had a wander around the shops where my Dad used to live. It was bloody freezing lol!! Drove us home, which took forever in rush hour,, then Mum and Rachelle needed a supermarket stop, we came home and fed the dogs and sat with them for a bit, then off to the cinema to see Ex Machina - superb film - and some pick and mix!! And a stop at Sainsbury's on the way back because I wanted pizza for tea and the car was running on fumes Then I spent the whole night in agony with my gallbladder......will I ever learn?!! lol
Right, I will be back tomorrow with a proper food diary and hopefully some enthusiasm
xx
NotsofattyPatty
Gold Member
Happy birthday for Wednesday! I know you have particular problems with losing weight but a social life is important too and if you can't enjoy your birthday then when can you let your hair down. I'm sorry it played such havoc with your gall bladder though.
Looking forward to hearing about your holiday!
Looking forward to hearing about your holiday!
cheekychinchilla
Gold Member
Hey guys!
Urgh, can't get my head straight and back in SW mode. This always happens when I have some time off plan. Quite an epic amount of time this month. God damn having friends I've never been this popular. It is very strange to be in two friend groups at work and also have my normal friend group. Very strange for me indeed lol! I've never been popular before *blush*
Anyway, I think I will re-start my food diary on Monday. But I will be trying very very hard for the next 3 days. I promise. Really do need to pack this in. Need to focus on how I will feel on holiday if I'm still this heavy. How uncomfortable I will feel in the heat and how self conscious in clothes and stuff like that! That usually helps me - it did with Tim & Caz's wedding when I first started SW and again with Chiu-Yee's wedding last year. So I know I can do it, just need to get my head straight and stop eating silly things.
My holiday! I'm going back to Tenerife, where me and Mum went a few years ago. I'm going with my friend Michelle (who I went to Sweden with) so I can be tour guide and show her round and stuff. Probably a more relaxing holiday than my last one....and maybe a bit more drinking as well LOL! Not that I'm a big drinker, as you know. I felt bad not going with Mum and we'd actually be great to all go together, but no one to look after the dogs
BUT Rachelle's John said Rachelle should go on holiday with Mum, which is lovely So they're going, the same place but diff hotel, at the beginning of Oct, they'll be back a few days, then I'll be going lol. Really looking forward to it. Mostly for the beach, Loro Parque, and the lovely food It'll be brill!
And because we both have sucky sleeping patterns and stuff we've gone for a room each so we'll have our own space, but can still hang out in the rooms if we want, and we wont disturb each other if one of us can't sleep and wants to read/watch something, or if Michelle is having a bad night and throwing herself round and crying out.... So yeah, a room each for sanity's sake!
Need to do a holiday countdown ticker!
My birthday was good too, although busy!!
Prezzies, I got loads!! A couple of DVD's, a beautiful bunny brooch, a scarf with woodland animals on, an illustrated hardback Totoro story book, a much needed new purse, lots of Lush, some gift vouchers, a Catbus keyring, a few choccies, paw print wellies, dinosaur socks, a fox t-shirt, and a few more bits I can't remember off the top of my head! Very spoiled
Oh and this from Caz. Beautiful and almost made me cry!
Urgh, can't get my head straight and back in SW mode. This always happens when I have some time off plan. Quite an epic amount of time this month. God damn having friends
I've never been this popular. It is very strange to be in two friend groups at work and also have my normal friend group. Very strange for me indeed lol! I've never been popular before *blush*Anyway, I think I will re-start my food diary on Monday. But I will be trying very very hard for the next 3 days. I promise. Really do need to pack this in. Need to focus on how I will feel on holiday if I'm still this heavy. How uncomfortable I will feel in the heat and how self conscious in clothes and stuff like that! That usually helps me - it did with Tim & Caz's wedding when I first started SW and again with Chiu-Yee's wedding last year. So I know I can do it, just need to get my head straight and stop eating silly things.
My holiday! I'm going back to Tenerife, where me and Mum went a few years ago. I'm going with my friend Michelle (who I went to Sweden with) so I can be tour guide and show her round and stuff. Probably a more relaxing holiday than my last one....and maybe a bit more drinking as well LOL! Not that I'm a big drinker, as you know. I felt bad not going with Mum and we'd actually be great to all go together, but no one to look after the dogs
BUT Rachelle's John said Rachelle should go on holiday with Mum, which is lovely
So they're going, the same place but diff hotel, at the beginning of Oct, they'll be back a few days, then I'll be going lol. Really looking forward to it. Mostly for the beach, Loro Parque, and the lovely food It'll be brill!And because we both have sucky sleeping patterns and stuff we've gone for a room each so we'll have our own space, but can still hang out in the rooms if we want, and we wont disturb each other if one of us can't sleep and wants to read/watch something, or if Michelle is having a bad night and throwing herself round and crying out.... So yeah, a room each for sanity's sake!
Need to do a holiday countdown ticker!
My birthday was good too, although busy!!
Prezzies, I got loads!! A couple of DVD's, a beautiful bunny brooch, a scarf with woodland animals on, an illustrated hardback Totoro story book, a much needed new purse, lots of Lush, some gift vouchers, a Catbus keyring, a few choccies, paw print wellies, dinosaur socks, a fox t-shirt, and a few more bits I can't remember off the top of my head! Very spoiled
Oh and this from Caz. Beautiful and almost made me cry!
Tetris
Gold Member
Lovely gifts! I love Totoro!! I recently got a sweatshirt with the totoro poster on- love it! Was only a tenner online too.
I know exactly what you mean about it being so hard after some time off plan to get your head straight!! Tis why my job (filming in the middle east) really gets in the way of my diet as it's not.just the whole not being able to cook for 4-5 days thibg, it is getting back on plan after! I know if I force myself through 2-3 days on plan it becomes easy again, so I just make myself do that now, as reluctant as I am at the time...
Your Tenerife trip sounds lovely! Shame you cant all go together but a girly friends hol will probably be quite a diferent experience than a family one, eh? though I know you are like me in that you see your mum as a best friend too! But with youth comes cheeky nights of drinking and fun x
I know exactly what you mean about it being so hard after some time off plan to get your head straight!! Tis why my job (filming in the middle east) really gets in the way of my diet as it's not.just the whole not being able to cook for 4-5 days thibg, it is getting back on plan after! I know if I force myself through 2-3 days on plan it becomes easy again, so I just make myself do that now, as reluctant as I am at the time...
Your Tenerife trip sounds lovely! Shame you cant all go together but a girly friends hol will probably be quite a diferent experience than a family one, eh?
though I know you are like me in that you see your mum as a best friend too! But with youth comes cheeky nights of drinking and fun x
cheekychinchilla
Gold Member
Totoro is the best. I already have a LOT of Totoro stuff, so quite hard for someone to find me something new
Well for a start, Michelle wont be waking me up at 6am every morning while we're on holiday. So that will be nice And I may actually be able to get some sleep with us having our own room, which will also be very nice!!
It's not really a "party" resort and in no way aimed at the awful British drinking crowd. Which is why we go lol. It is a Spanish resort and a lot of Europeans go, so it's a very nice, laid back place. There are bars where everyone sits and chats and there'll be band or a singer or something. Further up the other end of the resort there is some "livelier" entertainment, but absolutely nothing like the crappy British places Evening's are based around food and relaxed drinking, which is nice.
I think we're likely to stay out a bit later just chatting, having the odd drink, and wandering around. And I don't think it will be quite so BUSY. But really I don't see it being much different, you know? Like you said, my Mum is more like a friend. But there will be some differences, absolutely!! Lol
Well for a start, Michelle wont be waking me up at 6am every morning while we're on holiday. So that will be nice
And I may actually be able to get some sleep with us having our own room, which will also be very nice!!It's not really a "party" resort and in no way aimed at the awful British drinking crowd. Which is why we go lol. It is a Spanish resort and a lot of Europeans go, so it's a very nice, laid back place. There are bars where everyone sits and chats and there'll be band or a singer or something. Further up the other end of the resort there is some "livelier" entertainment, but absolutely nothing like the crappy British places
Evening's are based around food and relaxed drinking, which is nice.I think we're likely to stay out a bit later just chatting, having the odd drink, and wandering around. And I don't think it will be quite so BUSY. But really I don't see it being much different, you know? Like you said, my Mum is more like a friend. But there will be some differences, absolutely!! Lol
Barbette
Gold Member
Glad you had a lovely birthday, you totally deserve to be spoilt Love the picture, so much thought and effort has gone in to it.
Sorry your gall bladder is playing up, totally empathises with you on that one, wouldn't wish it on anyone. Sorry to hear you're having a bad ME day as well, hope you've done as little as possible and you're chilling on settee.
I'm sure you will get back on the wagon and lose what you want for your holiday, you've had a heavy couple of weeks socialising and so you should life isn't just about losing weight.
Hope you're feeling a bit better, look after yourself x x x
Love the picture, so much thought and effort has gone in to it.Sorry your gall bladder is playing up, totally empathises with you on that one, wouldn't wish it on anyone. Sorry to hear you're having a bad ME day as well, hope you've done as little as possible and you're chilling on settee.
I'm sure you will get back on the wagon and lose what you want for your holiday, you've had a heavy couple of weeks socialising and so you should life isn't just about losing weight.
Hope you're feeling a bit better, look after yourself x x x
NotsofattyPatty
Gold Member
It sounds as though you've had a great time and booking your holiday means you have a lovely time to look forward to as well.
There's something about Mondays which makes them the perfect day to start or re-start something. If you're thinking about it and trying, you'll be in the right place come Monday - and remember how much better you'll feel once you start!!
I love the picture - so appropriate.
There's something about Mondays which makes them the perfect day to start or re-start something. If you're thinking about it and trying, you'll be in the right place come Monday - and remember how much better you'll feel once you start!!
I love the picture - so appropriate.
cheekychinchilla
Gold Member
Hello lovely ladies!
I am absolutely exhausted! Sat at work wasn't too bad really, for us. But Sunday caught up with us a bit, lots of animals admitted overnight and LOTS for the ops board. We ended up having to roll a lot of surgeries over to today. Very glad I'm not there today
I had a different weekend buddy coz mine swapped out and it was so nice to have some help! I'm going to be working a lot of weekends over the next month or so. We've had two VCA's leave and one ended up having emergency surgery. So, that leaves 3 of us lol. Including the weekend I've just worked I am working 4 out of 6! At least I'll have lots of lovely stand down, so wont be in in the week much. AND that takes me to my new working pattern as well lol.
Gallbladder was bad again last night, but not quite as bad. And two grumbly days in a week is more than the hint I need to pack in eating crap!
Also, I got my new work uniforms. They ordered me a size up on my tops (I didn't get to try any one) because they're more fitted - which is a big mistake! But they don't fit Far too tight across my chest and really show off my tummy/muffin top. Even holding my tummy in to the max you could see everything. And you can't be uncomfortable or self conscious at work, not when we're "on show" all the time and have such a physical job. I've emailed my boss and she's going to let me have the tops from one of the girls who has left. They're a 2XL so I think they'll be too big. But rather that than being embarrassed about how I look and not being able to breathe!!
The pants, however, are ridiculously big. They look like clown pants!! They're a medium, same as my old ones, but HUGE!! I'm always a size or two bigger on top, always have been.
I've been doing a bit of research in to ME/CFS and weight loss. And basically everyone seems to suggest that you will put on around 30lbs - yup- and it will be virtually impossible to lose weight. it seems the basics of it is that because of the stress hormones, the fatigue, and your body being in constant stress/fight or flight mode, your body converts everything in to fat because that's what it does in an emergency. It looks for the quick fix - don't we all
So, of course it made me feel upset and a bit hopeless. But then, because you all know what I'm like, I basically thought "Challenge accepted!!" LOL!
And really, what are my choices? I can carry on eating whatever I want, not supporting my body with healthy food, and just get fatter and fatter. OR I can put up with insanely slow losses and very quick gains, BUT I will be fueling my body (and mind) with healthy foods, which should at least help my body to function a bit more normally, I can try and exercise when I can, and I can basically get back to leading a healthy lifestyle and hope I lose some weight along the way.
And I would really, really like to not get fatter and fatter Plus, I love SW and it's been my way of like for what, about 6 years now?!! It makes no sense for me to have a tantrum and punish myself with junk and weight gain.
Plus, you lot are awesome and I would very much like to keep you all as friends too
Oh and I've put on another 2lb/1kg .... Super! So 84kg now. F*ck!
Ok, and breathe lol!
Re-re-start day 1 xx
I am absolutely exhausted! Sat at work wasn't too bad really, for us. But Sunday caught up with us a bit, lots of animals admitted overnight and LOTS for the ops board. We ended up having to roll a lot of surgeries over to today. Very glad I'm not there today
I had a different weekend buddy coz mine swapped out and it was so nice to have some help! I'm going to be working a lot of weekends over the next month or so. We've had two VCA's leave and one ended up having emergency surgery. So, that leaves 3 of us lol. Including the weekend I've just worked I am working 4 out of 6! At least I'll have lots of lovely stand down, so wont be in in the week much. AND that takes me to my new working pattern as well lol.
Gallbladder was bad again last night, but not quite as bad. And two grumbly days in a week is more than the hint I need to pack in eating crap!
Also, I got my new work uniforms. They ordered me a size up on my tops (I didn't get to try any one) because they're more fitted - which is a big mistake! But they don't fit
Far too tight across my chest and really show off my tummy/muffin top. Even holding my tummy in to the max you could see everything. And you can't be uncomfortable or self conscious at work, not when we're "on show" all the time and have such a physical job. I've emailed my boss and she's going to let me have the tops from one of the girls who has left. They're a 2XL so I think they'll be too big. But rather that than being embarrassed about how I look and not being able to breathe!!The pants, however, are ridiculously big. They look like clown pants!! They're a medium, same as my old ones, but HUGE!! I'm always a size or two bigger on top, always have been.
I've been doing a bit of research in to ME/CFS and weight loss. And basically everyone seems to suggest that you will put on around 30lbs - yup- and it will be virtually impossible to lose weight. it seems the basics of it is that because of the stress hormones, the fatigue, and your body being in constant stress/fight or flight mode, your body converts everything in to fat because that's what it does in an emergency. It looks for the quick fix - don't we all
So, of course it made me feel upset and a bit hopeless. But then, because you all know what I'm like, I basically thought "Challenge accepted!!" LOL!
And really, what are my choices? I can carry on eating whatever I want, not supporting my body with healthy food, and just get fatter and fatter. OR I can put up with insanely slow losses and very quick gains, BUT I will be fueling my body (and mind) with healthy foods, which should at least help my body to function a bit more normally, I can try and exercise when I can, and I can basically get back to leading a healthy lifestyle and hope I lose some weight along the way.
And I would really, really like to not get fatter and fatter
Plus, I love SW and it's been my way of like for what, about 6 years now?!! It makes no sense for me to have a tantrum and punish myself with junk and weight gain.Plus, you lot are awesome and I would very much like to keep you all as friends too
Oh and I've put on another 2lb/1kg .... Super! So 84kg now. F*ck!
Ok, and breathe lol!
Re-re-start day 1
xx
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cheekychinchilla
Gold Member
Monday food - EE day. I know my veg at tea isn't technically superfree, but it's still veg and most of my lunch was superfree
Lunch:
2 (large) egg omelette stuffed with red onion, yellow & sweet red peppers, mushrooms, spinach, and cheese (half HexA)
Spicy new potato chunks with roasted plum cherry tomatoes
Mixed salad leaves
Extra light mayo, mango dressing, and tomato sauce (1)
At the cinema:
Small tub of red grapes, raspberries, and blackberries.
Activia 0%
Tea: Was absolutely starving!
2 Quorn lamb grills
Tomato & Herb Pasta N Sauce
Cheese (rest of HexA)
Veg bag - carrots, peas, and sweetcorn
Extra light mayo (0.5)
Snacks:
Tangerine
2 spicy pickled onions
Chewy Delight (HexB)
Graze rough blend peanut butter with pretzel sticks (7)
Drinks:
Matcha shot with Trop 50 orange juice (0.5)
Coffee, diet Coke, Teapigs popcorn tea, & squash
Syns used: 9
Syns saved: 6
No exercise today, need a rest day after work. Well, I cleaned the kitchen work tops & hob, did several lots of dishes, and some washing. But no "exercise"
Lunch:
2 (large) egg omelette stuffed with red onion, yellow & sweet red peppers, mushrooms, spinach, and cheese (half HexA)
Spicy new potato chunks with roasted plum cherry tomatoes
Mixed salad leaves
Extra light mayo, mango dressing, and tomato sauce (1)
At the cinema:
Small tub of red grapes, raspberries, and blackberries.
Activia 0%
Tea: Was absolutely starving!
2 Quorn lamb grills
Tomato & Herb Pasta N Sauce
Cheese (rest of HexA)
Veg bag - carrots, peas, and sweetcorn
Extra light mayo (0.5)
Snacks:
Tangerine
2 spicy pickled onions
Chewy Delight (HexB)
Graze rough blend peanut butter with pretzel sticks (7)
Drinks:
Matcha shot with Trop 50 orange juice (0.5)
Coffee, diet Coke, Teapigs popcorn tea, & squash
Syns used: 9
Syns saved: 6
No exercise today, need a rest day after work. Well, I cleaned the kitchen work tops & hob, did several lots of dishes, and some washing. But no "exercise"
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NotsofattyPatty
Gold Member
Oof - that is a bum deal with weight and ME/CFS. With that information you can see why you find it so hard to lose weight but easy to gain. Healthy eating - giving your body the best you can - is surely the way to go, and a drop in weight is a bonus. But yes, absolutely no point in having a tantrum and eating whatever you fancy as your gall bladder will complain leaving you in pain with more weight. We're daft really, aren't we? We know we feel better when we're following the plan, but it doesn't stop us falling off and being reluctant to get back on again!
I hope the next few weeks go quickly for you so that you can start your new working pattern. January seems to have gone on forever!
I hope the next few weeks go quickly for you so that you can start your new working pattern. January seems to have gone on forever!
Barbette
Gold Member
That is a bit of a bummer about the ME weight gain, but at the same time explains why you're finding it so hard to drop the pounds and you feel super chuffed when you do lose as it's doubly hard for you and more of an achievement. I think you should be really proud of what you have done so far and how you've always got back on the wagon and given it your all even against the odds.
Like you said eating healthily will also help your health in the long run and help you face everything that life throws at you. Sorry to hear your gall bladder is still grumbling, I hope it behaves itself and calms down for you.
I know what you mean about your new uniform, they have bought me a suit it's ok when I have the jacket fastened but otherwise I'm paranoid about my belly. The shirt is short so doesn't go over my stomach and that's my problem area after 3 c-sections it's always going to be flabby so I always have it covered. So needless to say my jacket is fastened all shift lol. It's horrible feeling uncomfortable, it gets in the way of you doing stuff
Hope you're having a good evening x x x
Like you said eating healthily will also help your health in the long run and help you face everything that life throws at you. Sorry to hear your gall bladder is still grumbling, I hope it behaves itself and calms down for you.
I know what you mean about your new uniform, they have bought me a suit it's ok when I have the jacket fastened but otherwise I'm paranoid about my belly. The shirt is short so doesn't go over my stomach and that's my problem area after 3 c-sections it's always going to be flabby so I always have it covered. So needless to say my jacket is fastened all shift lol. It's horrible feeling uncomfortable, it gets in the way of you doing stuff
Hope you're having a good evening x x x
cheekychinchilla
Gold Member
Hey Patty and Barbette
Thanks for reading all that btw!
I survived the cinema and a trip to Aldi but was STARVING when we got to Aldi. As soon as I got in I had emergency spicy pickled onions and a tangerine lol! I didn't even know it was possible to spend this amount of money at Aldi, but I parted with £27, mostly for beautiful fruit and veg. Our fridge and fruit bowls look ace now and very colourful!
So I am more than stocked up on healthy snacks and good foods and I really have no excuse. I do have some low syn treats as well
Please both remind me of how awesome I sounded today Because I know there will be bad days and times when I have a tantrum and go all woe is my, everything is unfair. I'd just really like to get back to a healthier weight and not feel so blurgh and disgusted with myself.
My gallbladder has calmed down now after yesterdays ouchiness. I know gallbladder pain can happen anyway when you have stones, but I know the majority of mine is from me eating things I know I shouldn't. So it's my own fault. And we are indeed silly that we do things we know will harm us!
You looked great in your suit Barbette! I'd probably have the jacket shut all the time too!! I have no idea why our new uniforms are so fitted, it's such a ridiculous idea. I'm sure the designer of these uniforms hasn't spent any time on the floor wrestling with a 60kg, very agressive, rottweiler......
One of the nurses has said we will all look like ice creams with giant knockers LOL! She's pretty accurate on that description. I do wonder if I could request one of the mens tops, which are more like the scrub tops we have now. Surely discrimination if they say I can't have one because I'm not a man?? I think it's pretty discriminatory to have the men and women dressed differently anyway in all honesty. Think it's a bad move completely! I do wonder if I could ask for them instead tho. Don't know why we didn't have a choice in the first bloody place. Grrr!!!
Patty I've just realised I missed your post about the activity trackers being way out on their calorie tracking. I wouldn't really be using one for that, but I have to say that it is a bit disappointing that they are SO inaccurate. That is a shame I am still thinking of getting one tho. Do need to re-build my savings a bit more. Might get one in a few months. I have money coming in from my extra weekends and I also have 2 bank holidays to work before the summer I think. Lovely extra pennies
Right, going to watch some Grey's Anatomy, pick some evening snacks, and then head to bed to read. I feel like hell on toast today, but at least I finally got some sleep last night. I must have been well out of it coz I didn't hear Mum getting ready for work, feeding the dogs (Dave always barks), or her leaving for work. Which was nice
I will catch up with your diaries soon.xx
Thanks for reading all that btw!
I survived the cinema and a trip to Aldi but was STARVING when we got to Aldi. As soon as I got in I had emergency spicy pickled onions and a tangerine lol! I didn't even know it was possible to spend this amount of money at Aldi, but I parted with £27, mostly for beautiful fruit and veg. Our fridge and fruit bowls look ace now and very colourful!
So I am more than stocked up on healthy snacks and good foods and I really have no excuse. I do have some low syn treats as well
Please both remind me of how awesome I sounded today
Because I know there will be bad days and times when I have a tantrum and go all woe is my, everything is unfair. I'd just really like to get back to a healthier weight and not feel so blurgh and disgusted with myself.My gallbladder has calmed down now after yesterdays ouchiness. I know gallbladder pain can happen anyway when you have stones, but I know the majority of mine is from me eating things I know I shouldn't. So it's my own fault. And we are indeed silly that we do things we know will harm us!
You looked great in your suit Barbette! I'd probably have the jacket shut all the time too!! I have no idea why our new uniforms are so fitted, it's such a ridiculous idea. I'm sure the designer of these uniforms hasn't spent any time on the floor wrestling with a 60kg, very agressive, rottweiler......
One of the nurses has said we will all look like ice creams with giant knockers LOL! She's pretty accurate on that description. I do wonder if I could request one of the mens tops, which are more like the scrub tops we have now. Surely discrimination if they say I can't have one because I'm not a man?? I think it's pretty discriminatory to have the men and women dressed differently anyway in all honesty. Think it's a bad move completely! I do wonder if I could ask for them instead tho. Don't know why we didn't have a choice in the first bloody place. Grrr!!!
Patty I've just realised I missed your post about the activity trackers being way out on their calorie tracking. I wouldn't really be using one for that, but I have to say that it is a bit disappointing that they are SO inaccurate. That is a shame
I am still thinking of getting one tho. Do need to re-build my savings a bit more. Might get one in a few months. I have money coming in from my extra weekends and I also have 2 bank holidays to work before the summer I think. Lovely extra pennies Right, going to watch some Grey's Anatomy, pick some evening snacks, and then head to bed to read. I feel like hell on toast today, but at least I finally got some sleep last night. I must have been well out of it coz I didn't hear Mum getting ready for work, feeding the dogs (Dave always barks), or her leaving for work. Which was nice
I will catch up with your diaries soon.xx
Tetris
Gold Member
Really sucks about ME/weight gain but I think this has affevted you for years so in a way at least you can be less harsh on yourself for gaining weight back.
Re activity trackers- I know they can be quite inaccurate but dont use mine as a "I can now let myself off for cake because I burnt 400cal" excuse, I find seeing the numbers change completely pushes me to go further- I will push to get to a round number or a respectable calorie loss because it makes me feel prouder or something?! Anyway it is super motivating and I love to see the heart rate and what is getting me into better burning zones!
My polar underestimates when compared to my wii fit, the exerbeat estimations AND gym equipment and frankly I would prefer an underestimation! I do recommend them though just for tracking the burn zones and how long you hsve exercised for etc, I can safely say my polar has encouraged me to exercise for longer periods or push for longer when I am bored and havr had enough. It lets me mentally set a challenge of x calories rather than just x mins of exercise (and doing them half arsed). X
Re activity trackers- I know they can be quite inaccurate but dont use mine as a "I can now let myself off for cake because I burnt 400cal" excuse, I find seeing the numbers change completely pushes me to go further- I will push to get to a round number or a respectable calorie loss because it makes me feel prouder or something?! Anyway it is super motivating and I love to see the heart rate and what is getting me into better burning zones!
My polar underestimates when compared to my wii fit, the exerbeat estimations AND gym equipment and frankly I would prefer an underestimation! I do recommend them though just for tracking the burn zones and how long you hsve exercised for etc, I can safely say my polar has encouraged me to exercise for longer periods or push for longer when I am bored and havr had enough. It lets me mentally set a challenge of x calories rather than just x mins of exercise (and doing them half arsed). X
cheekychinchilla
Gold Member
Hey Sophie!
I think this probably has affected me for a long time. Although ME/CFS has a definite start point, and I know when that was. But my losses/gains have definitely, definitely gotten worse from when I started getting ill. The weight issues were one of the main points for me going to the Dr's in the first place, which I believe was the Feb? But I had started getting symptoms back in the Oct of the previous year when Mum was in that coach crash in Tenerife. So I do wonder if I have had issues that have hindered my weight loss because my losses were always pretty slow - 4 years to lose 4st is very slow!! Maybe it was my anxiety and depression? Probably has similar physiological effects, esp the anxiety.
It does make sense, but it doesn't make me feel better and it certainly wont stop me from being hard on myself. I'm absolutely devastated that I have put this weight back on and I feel like I've ruined all my hard work. Half of it at least!! I can only blame my body for so much when I know it's been my food choices that have made the most damage. The ME might make it very difficult, but it does come down to the gains being my fault. And now I have to deal with it. And I WILL
I think with a Fitbit or something it would just be interesting for me to see what I'm doing and get a more accurate look at distances, steps, and how hard I've worked - even if it is a bit inaccurate on the calories.
I know mine wouldn't be anywhere near as impressive as other peoples. But I bet it would be great for me to be able to track how active I am on my good days compared to my bad days. And REALLY interesting to see my activity during a work day - esp a weekend!!
I wouldn't be getting one with a heart monitor tho because it would probably constantly tell me I'm about to die and call me an ambulance I have a very, very impressive heart murmur aswell as an irregular heart beat/rate, palpitations, and a pulmonary stenosis. A heart monitor would go INSANE if I was using one. Would be quite funny tho
I kinda need one I can keep in my pocket too, for work mostly, and I think the Fitbits allow you to do that. I'll keep an eye out for any special offers, but look more seriously in a couple of months.
The Polar still interests me for the ability to track swimming, but there are issues with their UK software and stuff isn't there? I think Fitbit may be the more sensible/safe option.xx
I think this probably has affected me for a long time. Although ME/CFS has a definite start point, and I know when that was. But my losses/gains have definitely, definitely gotten worse from when I started getting ill. The weight issues were one of the main points for me going to the Dr's in the first place, which I believe was the Feb? But I had started getting symptoms back in the Oct of the previous year when Mum was in that coach crash in Tenerife. So I do wonder if I have had issues that have hindered my weight loss because my losses were always pretty slow - 4 years to lose 4st is very slow!! Maybe it was my anxiety and depression? Probably has similar physiological effects, esp the anxiety.
It does make sense, but it doesn't make me feel better and it certainly wont stop me from being hard on myself. I'm absolutely devastated that I have put this weight back on and I feel like I've ruined all my hard work. Half of it at least!! I can only blame my body for so much when I know it's been my food choices that have made the most damage. The ME might make it very difficult, but it does come down to the gains being my fault. And now I have to deal with it. And I WILL
I think with a Fitbit or something it would just be interesting for me to see what I'm doing and get a more accurate look at distances, steps, and how hard I've worked - even if it is a bit inaccurate on the calories.
I know mine wouldn't be anywhere near as impressive as other peoples. But I bet it would be great for me to be able to track how active I am on my good days compared to my bad days. And REALLY interesting to see my activity during a work day - esp a weekend!!
I wouldn't be getting one with a heart monitor tho because it would probably constantly tell me I'm about to die and call me an ambulance
I have a very, very impressive heart murmur aswell as an irregular heart beat/rate, palpitations, and a pulmonary stenosis. A heart monitor would go INSANE if I was using one. Would be quite funny tho I kinda need one I can keep in my pocket too, for work mostly, and I think the Fitbits allow you to do that. I'll keep an eye out for any special offers, but look more seriously in a couple of months.
The Polar still interests me for the ability to track swimming, but there are issues with their UK software and stuff isn't there? I think Fitbit may be the more sensible/safe option.xx
Tetris
Gold Member
I'm not sure about software issues but I have used my polar (chet strap and watch) in the water. You cant leave the HRM polars running all day for an accurate calorie count (not that that is what you want) as they over track rest massively... Is the fit bit kinda just an enhanced pedometer?
Your losses have always been slow so I think this illness been affecting that part probably for years... And your gain rate being so much faster than others means I dont think it is really fair to blame yourself for the 2st, but just know that it will go eventually and you have strong will so I bet you will be their sooner than expected
Your losses have always been slow so I think this illness been affecting that part probably for years... And your gain rate being so much faster than others means I dont think it is really fair to blame yourself for the 2st, but just know that it will go eventually and you have strong will so I bet you will be their sooner than expected
NotsofattyPatty
Gold Member
I think the issue with the Fitbits etc will have more of an impact with people doing WW as I think they can 'earn' extra calories? If they're being used primarily to track steps, distances etc., as you plan to use it, then obviously there are no issues for you. I use a pedometer, and if I go for a walk then I might use My Fitness Pal on my phone, but otherwise I don't bother with anything.
I'm sure you got 1/3 Superfree across the day and the odd meal which is relatively light in it isn't going to matter!
Do you like popcorn? If so, could you take your own to the cinema? The Graze stuff is nice and I like M&S sweet n' salty which is 4 Syns a bag. Metcalfe's Skinny Topcorns are 4Syns for a 17g bag or 5.5 for a 25g bag.
Yay to getting some decent sleep!
I'm sure you got 1/3 Superfree across the day and the odd meal which is relatively light in it isn't going to matter!
Do you like popcorn? If so, could you take your own to the cinema? The Graze stuff is nice and I like M&S sweet n' salty which is 4 Syns a bag. Metcalfe's Skinny Topcorns are 4Syns for a 17g bag or 5.5 for a 25g bag.
Yay to getting some decent sleep!
cheekychinchilla
Gold Member
Hey guys!
Sophie, I haven't had ME long term, only for 2 years. I know exactly when it started, so it's not the things that has always effected my losses. I think I'm generally a slow loser, for whatever reason - whether it be hormonal related to anxiety and depression or if it's something to do with my thyroid, which I'm still adamant isn't 'healthy'. But it can't have been the ME. It doesn't grumble on for years without you knowing, it has a very certain start time I just think I'm rubbish at losing. But definitely gotten worse since getting sick.
BUT I did manage to lose some weight before Chiu-Yee's wedding last year didn't I? And a little bit before my holiday. So I know it's possible. Bloody hard work, but possible. I just have to be very careful with my off days and not let them go on and on. Easier said than done eh?! lol
Patty yeah WW allows you to earn more points with exercise and an active job. My Sister never bothered tho, even though she was pretty hardcore at the gym. But yeah, imagine the damage from an inaccurate calorie count?
I do kinda like popcorn, but I have to really be in the mood. I don't really like the Graze one, I don't think it cooks very well and I end up adding maple syrup lol! Euw you're one of those weirdo's that like sweet and salty?! My mate always gets mixed and I always pick on her
Sophie the Fitbits do a lot of fun stuff, especially the Flex and Charge. They track a lot of stuff, including sleep patters too. They do seem quite clever and relatively cheap compared to when they first appeared. Under £100 now!! Nowhere seems to have them super cheap or on offer at the moment tho.
It seems silly to consider an activity tracker when I'm so ill. But I really bloody want one
Today is not a good day. Have woken up with pain pretty much everywhere, feel like someone's been kicking me in the ribs and arms & legs. My head is killing me. Feel nauseous and have heartburn (wtf?!) Brilliant. I was going to have a house cleany/tidy up day today. Erm, maybe not.... Will see how the day goes.
I shared an interesting article on FB from someone blogging about having ME. He gets it pretty much spot on. Worth a read if anyone fancies a look xx
Sophie, I haven't had ME long term, only for 2 years. I know exactly when it started, so it's not the things that has always effected my losses. I think I'm generally a slow loser, for whatever reason - whether it be hormonal related to anxiety and depression or if it's something to do with my thyroid, which I'm still adamant isn't 'healthy'. But it can't have been the ME. It doesn't grumble on for years without you knowing, it has a very certain start time
I just think I'm rubbish at losing. But definitely gotten worse since getting sick.BUT I did manage to lose some weight before Chiu-Yee's wedding last year didn't I? And a little bit before my holiday. So I know it's possible. Bloody hard work, but possible. I just have to be very careful with my off days and not let them go on and on. Easier said than done eh?! lol
Patty yeah WW allows you to earn more points with exercise and an active job. My Sister never bothered tho, even though she was pretty hardcore at the gym. But yeah, imagine the damage from an inaccurate calorie count?
I do kinda like popcorn, but I have to really be in the mood. I don't really like the Graze one, I don't think it cooks very well and I end up adding maple syrup lol! Euw you're one of those weirdo's that like sweet and salty?!
My mate always gets mixed and I always pick on her Sophie the Fitbits do a lot of fun stuff, especially the Flex and Charge. They track a lot of stuff, including sleep patters too. They do seem quite clever and relatively cheap compared to when they first appeared. Under £100 now!! Nowhere seems to have them super cheap or on offer at the moment tho.
It seems silly to consider an activity tracker when I'm so ill. But I really bloody want one
Today is not a good day. Have woken up with pain pretty much everywhere, feel like someone's been kicking me in the ribs and arms & legs. My head is killing me. Feel nauseous and have heartburn (wtf?!) Brilliant. I was going to have a house cleany/tidy up day today. Erm, maybe not.... Will see how the day goes.
I shared an interesting article on FB from someone blogging about having ME. He gets it pretty much spot on. Worth a read if anyone fancies a look
xx
cheekychinchilla
Gold Member
Tuesday food - EE day - I think I've smashed the superfree for today LOL!
Lunch: Burger in a bowl!
Buger -Quorn mince, red onion, mushrooms, chopped gherkins, and sweet red peppers.
Salad - Iceberg, spinach, and cucumber.
Topped with cheese (half HexA), piccolo cherry tomatoes, and spicy pickled onions.
Sauce - 1tbsp of mixed extra light mayo, tomato sauce, and mustard (1)
At the cinema:
Tub of kiwi, red grapes, blackberries, and raspberries.
An Activia 0%
Tea: HUGE stirfry!
Quorn fillets cut in to strips, red onion, mushrooms, peppers, mange tout, baby sweetcorn, kale, beansprouts, broccoli, and cauliflower, cooked in garlic, red chillis, Worcester sauce, soy sauce, and Chow Mein sauce (2.5)
Plain white basmati rice pouch (free I think!)
Snack:
2 Benefit Lights (HexB)
Mini Creme Egg (2.5)
Mini Malteser Bunny (3)
Drinks:
Matcha latte made with 300ml Alpro coconut milk (rest of HexA) & 1tsp orange blossom honey (1)
Coffee, Diet Ginger Ale,
syns used: 10
Syns saved: 11
Lunch: Burger in a bowl!
Buger -Quorn mince, red onion, mushrooms, chopped gherkins, and sweet red peppers.
Salad - Iceberg, spinach, and cucumber.
Topped with cheese (half HexA), piccolo cherry tomatoes, and spicy pickled onions.
Sauce - 1tbsp of mixed extra light mayo, tomato sauce, and mustard (1)
At the cinema:
Tub of kiwi, red grapes, blackberries, and raspberries.
An Activia 0%
Tea: HUGE stirfry!
Quorn fillets cut in to strips, red onion, mushrooms, peppers, mange tout, baby sweetcorn, kale, beansprouts, broccoli, and cauliflower, cooked in garlic, red chillis, Worcester sauce, soy sauce, and Chow Mein sauce (2.5)
Plain white basmati rice pouch (free I think!)
Snack:
2 Benefit Lights (HexB)
Mini Creme Egg (2.5)
Mini Malteser Bunny (3)
Drinks:
Matcha latte made with 300ml Alpro coconut milk (rest of HexA) & 1tsp orange blossom honey (1)
Coffee, Diet Ginger Ale,
syns used: 10
Syns saved: 11
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