So I think I'm going to start a diary, to keep me on track and record some of the feelings I would like to post but then worry I'm clogging up the forum. Possibly this will be of no interest to anyone, but if anyone if at all interested in my journey then please stick around and comment if you wish!
So just a tiny bit of background. I am a 27 year old female who has quite literally been on a diet my whole life. A few years ago I found a diary I wrote when I was only 7-8, and my new year's resolution was to lose weight. Kind of sad in some respects
My heaviest weight ever was 17st 12lb's. My most successful attempt at dieting was about 3 years ago when I lost 3st and got down to my lowest weight ever of 14st 12lb's. This was achieved doing SW red/green days at home. Unfortunately I had a weekend of overindulgence to celebrate and was disheartened when about 3-4lb's went straight back on. That weekend turned into a week, and suddenly the stone I had fought so hard to shift was back. I lost my enthusiasm and gave up, something I deeply regret as I was doing so well.
So now I'm doing SW again, but this time I've joined a club and it is working well for me. I feel that my journey is being broken down into 7 day chunks and that keeps my determination and enthusiasm up high. So my start weight was 17st 5.5lb.s. I've been a member for 2 and a half weeks and so far lost 8.5lbs. My target weight is 10st 12lb's. My weigh in day is thursday.
So one of the reasons I have started this diary is because I do need a place where I can express my feeling is relation to my weight loss and how I feel about myself. Part of my decision to really conquer my weight problem has been wrapped up in how I feel about myself. I spent a number of years in a very bad relationship with a man who treated me badly and sometimes made nasty comments about my body. That relationship destroyed my confidence and self esteem and also triggered off depression, which I currently take medication for. On a brighter note, things have improved significantly since this relationship ended. I've found new friends who are so understanding and supportive and have begun very slowly to rebuild my self esteem. Part of that is losing weight - a counsellor told me I need to love myself regardless of my weight, and although this is true, I also know I would feel so much happier and more comfortable being slimmer.
So sorry if that was all rather boring, but hopefully some of you might be interested in sticking around as I head from size 18/20 to 10/12!! I will do it this time, this is finally my chance to do something for myself and live the life I really want!
So just a tiny bit of background. I am a 27 year old female who has quite literally been on a diet my whole life. A few years ago I found a diary I wrote when I was only 7-8, and my new year's resolution was to lose weight. Kind of sad in some respects
My heaviest weight ever was 17st 12lb's. My most successful attempt at dieting was about 3 years ago when I lost 3st and got down to my lowest weight ever of 14st 12lb's. This was achieved doing SW red/green days at home. Unfortunately I had a weekend of overindulgence to celebrate and was disheartened when about 3-4lb's went straight back on. That weekend turned into a week, and suddenly the stone I had fought so hard to shift was back. I lost my enthusiasm and gave up, something I deeply regret as I was doing so well.
So now I'm doing SW again, but this time I've joined a club and it is working well for me. I feel that my journey is being broken down into 7 day chunks and that keeps my determination and enthusiasm up high. So my start weight was 17st 5.5lb.s. I've been a member for 2 and a half weeks and so far lost 8.5lbs. My target weight is 10st 12lb's. My weigh in day is thursday.
So one of the reasons I have started this diary is because I do need a place where I can express my feeling is relation to my weight loss and how I feel about myself. Part of my decision to really conquer my weight problem has been wrapped up in how I feel about myself. I spent a number of years in a very bad relationship with a man who treated me badly and sometimes made nasty comments about my body. That relationship destroyed my confidence and self esteem and also triggered off depression, which I currently take medication for. On a brighter note, things have improved significantly since this relationship ended. I've found new friends who are so understanding and supportive and have begun very slowly to rebuild my self esteem. Part of that is losing weight - a counsellor told me I need to love myself regardless of my weight, and although this is true, I also know I would feel so much happier and more comfortable being slimmer.
So sorry if that was all rather boring, but hopefully some of you might be interested in sticking around as I head from size 18/20 to 10/12!! I will do it this time, this is finally my chance to do something for myself and live the life I really want!
