LizzMB
WILL be Slim!
ok, so this might be slightly unrelated to CD, but i just dont know what to do! I have really enjoyed my CD journey so far, but the further into it i get, and the closer to goal, the more emotionally distressing i'm finding everything!
I seem to be really happy one minute, then miserable the next....and once i'm in miserable mode, it seems to take a lot to get back out of it!
I've had depression before so i know this isnt a good sign.......
DH and i have had a couple of issues recently, my little girl is getting into tantrum mode, we have NO money at all (CD takes it all up lol), i started a new job 2 months ago and they are pulling me in so many directions i dont know what i'm supposed to be doing, i'm just always so tired.....then there is the body image issue.....i just hate looking at my body, i hate all the excess skin, the flab, the stretch marks....its literally EVERYWHERE....i have a scar on my right breast and arm from a scald when i was 18 months old, so that has limited growth to one breast anyway, but my boobs are both so different...they just hang really odd now and i hate them....i hate every inch of my "new" body....more so than when i was fat.
I have stretch marks and excess skin on my arms, my breasts, my stomach('s), my lady bits and my thighs.....and it makes me feel so uncomfortable! I lie in bed flat on my back and i have a super pretend figure, then lie on my side and everything just flops...its like being a size 18 all over again, except when i was an 18, i knew it would be like that....but at a size 12....i thought it would have rapidly reduced by now!
Am i going to have to spend thousands on surgery to get rid of this feeling?
I just feel like its all getting on top of me at the moment! Sorry to dump this on you all but i'm just chasing my tail thinking about it all!
What on earth do i do????
xxx
I seem to be really happy one minute, then miserable the next....and once i'm in miserable mode, it seems to take a lot to get back out of it!
I've had depression before so i know this isnt a good sign.......
DH and i have had a couple of issues recently, my little girl is getting into tantrum mode, we have NO money at all (CD takes it all up lol), i started a new job 2 months ago and they are pulling me in so many directions i dont know what i'm supposed to be doing, i'm just always so tired.....then there is the body image issue.....i just hate looking at my body, i hate all the excess skin, the flab, the stretch marks....its literally EVERYWHERE....i have a scar on my right breast and arm from a scald when i was 18 months old, so that has limited growth to one breast anyway, but my boobs are both so different...they just hang really odd now and i hate them....i hate every inch of my "new" body....more so than when i was fat.
I have stretch marks and excess skin on my arms, my breasts, my stomach('s), my lady bits and my thighs.....and it makes me feel so uncomfortable! I lie in bed flat on my back and i have a super pretend figure, then lie on my side and everything just flops...its like being a size 18 all over again, except when i was an 18, i knew it would be like that....but at a size 12....i thought it would have rapidly reduced by now!
Am i going to have to spend thousands on surgery to get rid of this feeling?
I just feel like its all getting on top of me at the moment! Sorry to dump this on you all but i'm just chasing my tail thinking about it all!
What on earth do i do????
xxx