bigtummymummy
Mand
I have been so disapointed in my failings over last few days... Sun & Mon have been terible.. I have really let myself down!!! I had a small child size meal on sunday and then gave in again to temptation yesterday to a packet of crisps. I have voices in my head saying 'go on one won't hurt'... it was these voices that got me to a size 18... so why did i give in? It's more about been in controll, why am i able to be strong in some aspects of my life and yet so week in others. I don't think it matters what diet/eating plan we follow, it's all about what self controll we have. Like someone said in another thread, it's almost like self harm that we do to ourselves, we know it's bad for us but the euphoric feeling we get for that short period while we eat seems to be worth the depression and tourment we put ourselves through after... So why do we do it!!? It's like an addiction, but drug users, alcoholics ect.. can fully abstain from these things in their life ( although i'm sure not easy) but we can not abstain from food forever, we can do CD SS 100% for weeks but at some point we must bring food back in. So how do we gain that self controll to be strong enough to make the decisions about what we put in our mouths, without falling back into old habits. Will the voices say one won't hurt return.... I hope that as the weeks go on that i find the inner voice that tells the other voice to p**s off lol!!! I need to get it into my head that i am strong enough to turn down food!
