I think I've realised that though I thought I didn't have any side effects, my grumpiness is a side effect! Along with the fact that it's my TOTM. I must be a nightmare to live with!! I had an argument last night and ended up crying. That's not me at all, and it wasn't even that big a thing!
I'm already feeling so much better than I did earlier. I just went to blockbusters to get myself a film as a treat, seeing as the food treats are out! So I'm going to settle down with that in a minute. I just made up my vanilla shake, but I only did half of it, added more water than it said and added a spoon of coffee. It's quite yum! Means that I get another one later too
I haven't really told anyone that I'm doing the CD, other than my mum so she knows not to cook me dinner and my friend who has just started on CD with me, and haven't really wanted to tell people. At first I thought and said that it was because I didn't want pressure at first, I wanted to just get through the first week or two. But I've realised that actually it's not for that reason at all, but two other ones...
1. I didn't want to admit failing, again. And if I didn't tell anyone, they didn't need to know I failed. BUT I've realised, that I'm not going to fail. I'm not going to let myself fail. So I'm starting to be more open about it, and that makes me accountable, which must always be good.
2. Me saying I'm on a diet is me saying I need to lose weight, which is me saying I'm fat. It's like, yeah, I know that, but saying it out loud, to someone else, it's different. Like in my head somehow they might not notice, but if I say diet, then they will and I'll be judged. But again, I don't feel like that anymore. I've realised that actually I should have friends that support me. And if they don't, I don't want them as friends. And actually, the couple I've told have been great about it.
I've realised that the CD is soooo good for me. Not just because of the weight loss that IS going to happen, but because it's actually going to bring about a change in me as a whole. In my attitude. My thinking. The way I see myself. In fact, it already is.
Wow, this is a very different post that started this thread! What a difference a couple of hours, a DVD, yummy drink and getting some air does! But it's long enough, so I'll shut up now!