l0v3child
Silver Member
So im starting this thread for me, and anyone else that would like to join. I felt i needed a personal thread so i can track myself and read back and stay on top of myself.
Ive made a decision that its time to kick the booze into touch. I keep saying i havent got a problem, i drink more than others and less than others, but its my behaviour and actions that worry me after a drink, not the actual drink, so maybe that means i do have a problem. I certainly have a problem with throwing my limit out of the window and just carrying on when on nights out. At home i drink probably 4 nights out of 7, and dont tend to go to over the top, especially now im following sw.
I turn into a different person on drink, im a vile nasty cut throat gobby cow who stamps all over everything thats good, i mean, i get totally out of control and dont care, and sometimes forget what ive even done or said 5 minutes ago, i go flakey and inconsistant. Usually im a calm, go with the flow, articulate, in control, passionate about things that matter, patient person. I also work with children in a school in the same town i live in. I wouldnt have a clue if i had bumped into parents in a state or not some of the time.
Basically - ive frightened myself to death.
So, as not to waffle on and on, ive decided the lovely life, friends, my gorgeous family and my house are to bigger price to pay for a goddam beverage!!
At the moment i just dont trust myself. So im pledging to give up alcohol, and im doing it here where everyone can see. Instead of a 'honk' im going to update with a 'ding' everyday.
Yesterday - DING!
Ive made a decision that its time to kick the booze into touch. I keep saying i havent got a problem, i drink more than others and less than others, but its my behaviour and actions that worry me after a drink, not the actual drink, so maybe that means i do have a problem. I certainly have a problem with throwing my limit out of the window and just carrying on when on nights out. At home i drink probably 4 nights out of 7, and dont tend to go to over the top, especially now im following sw.
I turn into a different person on drink, im a vile nasty cut throat gobby cow who stamps all over everything thats good, i mean, i get totally out of control and dont care, and sometimes forget what ive even done or said 5 minutes ago, i go flakey and inconsistant. Usually im a calm, go with the flow, articulate, in control, passionate about things that matter, patient person. I also work with children in a school in the same town i live in. I wouldnt have a clue if i had bumped into parents in a state or not some of the time.
Basically - ive frightened myself to death.
So, as not to waffle on and on, ive decided the lovely life, friends, my gorgeous family and my house are to bigger price to pay for a goddam beverage!!
At the moment i just dont trust myself. So im pledging to give up alcohol, and im doing it here where everyone can see. Instead of a 'honk' im going to update with a 'ding' everyday.
Yesterday - DING!