Sarahdramateacher
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I wondered if anyone can shed light on how im feeling maybe having been through/going through a similar phase.
So after doing the Cambridge diet since October, and after loosing 71lb and reaching target I am finding myself getting incredibly anxious about a lot of areas of my life.
Firstly - food and the scales are an issue. I panic about having to eat at specific times and specific foods. I make sure iv eaten specific foods by certain times on the clock otherwise I panic severely. Although I know I'm now at target, and my partner consistently tells me how gorgeous I am, I panic about not loosing another lb on weigh in days - I am so scared about gaining weight I'll weigh and calorie count every last g of food. I have EXACTLY the same evening meal and have had the same for the last 5 weeks without any change!
Secondly - this paranoia and anxiety has made me do strange things eg. I have to go around the house picking out cat hairs/fluff from the carpet before bed each night. I have to set up my work clothes and underwear ready for the next day. I have to get up at 4.42am exactly each morning and complete a work out, followed by 4 x 50 different an exercises . I have to tie my shoelaces and leave them set up ready for my gym workout, after I finish the previous workout.
This OCD style behaviour is meaning I'm not enjoying socialising as it disrupts my routines and I'm not wanting to go out/have people over as I can't stand to do things differently.
I know it's really getting to my partner, and the reason for writing at 3.50am is, after braving a night out and not drinking, and returning to fluff pick the house an tidy the kitchen - my partner, in a drunken state, called me "mad" and said I need "help" and continued to say how crazy my behaviour is. He was close to tears - albeit drunken tears.
Does anyone have any experience of developing the same kind of tendencies or anyone have any advice. I feel fine and don't think my urges are that unreasonable - but I'm starting to doubt my head from my partners comments.
Thanks so much all xxxx
So after doing the Cambridge diet since October, and after loosing 71lb and reaching target I am finding myself getting incredibly anxious about a lot of areas of my life.
Firstly - food and the scales are an issue. I panic about having to eat at specific times and specific foods. I make sure iv eaten specific foods by certain times on the clock otherwise I panic severely. Although I know I'm now at target, and my partner consistently tells me how gorgeous I am, I panic about not loosing another lb on weigh in days - I am so scared about gaining weight I'll weigh and calorie count every last g of food. I have EXACTLY the same evening meal and have had the same for the last 5 weeks without any change!
Secondly - this paranoia and anxiety has made me do strange things eg. I have to go around the house picking out cat hairs/fluff from the carpet before bed each night. I have to set up my work clothes and underwear ready for the next day. I have to get up at 4.42am exactly each morning and complete a work out, followed by 4 x 50 different an exercises . I have to tie my shoelaces and leave them set up ready for my gym workout, after I finish the previous workout.
This OCD style behaviour is meaning I'm not enjoying socialising as it disrupts my routines and I'm not wanting to go out/have people over as I can't stand to do things differently.
I know it's really getting to my partner, and the reason for writing at 3.50am is, after braving a night out and not drinking, and returning to fluff pick the house an tidy the kitchen - my partner, in a drunken state, called me "mad" and said I need "help" and continued to say how crazy my behaviour is. He was close to tears - albeit drunken tears.
Does anyone have any experience of developing the same kind of tendencies or anyone have any advice. I feel fine and don't think my urges are that unreasonable - but I'm starting to doubt my head from my partners comments.
Thanks so much all xxxx
xx
